i hurt someone again. i was doing well for a long time but i was talking to a girl who i was gonna hang out with and she asked if i was still attracted to her and i genuinely have no idea why but i just said "I mean to be blunt with you I use sex as a means of making myself feel good because of my incredibly low self esteem". what the fuck is wrong with me. she has already told another one of my friends that i said this (who i used to date) and she posted to her instagram note "i can now say with confidence that all of my exes are irredeemably awful people". i know this is gonna spread to my other friends too and i'm dreading it. i know it's my own fault and i don't know why the hell i did this and i was planning on cutting all these people off anyways to kill myself when i turn 21 but this fucking sucks
