I have been "hrt-repping", i.e. taking hrt and doing nothing more, for a longer while, and feeling increasingly worse while doing so. At first I kept telling myself that I was either too "dysphoric", too busy, too depressed, or that simply I wasn't "feeling ready", but at this point I'm afraid it might've all been excuses and that I'm actually cis.Which is why I need to find a way how to force myself to truly want to be a woman. I'm desperate to avoid any future where I end up being a man.
>>44138426> cis> desperate to avoid a future as a man??
>>44138503it’s probably repper-kun again. it’s almost nine in the morning in germany so the timing would match up
>>44138503Pretty much. I actually felt better before hrt-repping, and I've also never done anything in order to more properly transition, so looking at my situation, there's pretty much nothing that speaks for me being trans, except of my fear of living my life as a cis man>>44138516You've got the wrong person. I'm not from Germany, sry
imo this is the limitation of hecking valid identity politics of transgenderness. like shit I'll grant you are a woman even if you're boy-moding/man-moding, you are valid Nona. But you're putting the cart before the horse, you're expecting the insight or feeling to come first to guide you action rather than action giving rise to that feeling, that you are a woman; you do have to walk in the world as a woman, as a trans woman, as scary as it is, this is what it takes to actually embody being a woman. like Brittany Spears once said, I'm not a girl not yet a woman. and that comes from participating in the world rather than endless introspection, contemplation, rumination etc.bless you Nona, you got this I believe in you.
>>44138426have you tried not being a fag
>>44138426What if you had a boyfriend who told you not to embarrass him in public?
>>44138426You cantYou are faketrans like meyou will suffer greatly
>>44138426just ignore it and keep taking hrt, eventually you should get over it, helps if you do stuff you like instead of doomering day in and out
By feeling responsibility as a woman.
>>44139091Thank you! This was very encouraging, even if it's very possible that I'll find out that I'm a man>>44139353Yeah>>44139370I'm not attracted to men, sry.>>44139423How do you know that you're faketrans?>>44140750Could you please elaborate what this is supposed to mean?
>>44138426Maybe it's not for you if you have to force yourself
>>44138426same hrt repping just gave me reverse dysphoria and made me realize I’m cis but i can’t stop due to sunk cost fallacy
>>44142900sunk cost fallacy sounds like a very stupid reason to keep trooning
