Im stealth ftm. I have a good life. I have good friends and a good relationship. Im paranoid 24/7. I can't stop thinking everyone knows. I feel like Im going insane. I have to drink every night to numb the fear enough to be able to go to sleep. What the fuck do I do. I have everything I ever wanted and its not enough
>>44139538Real
>>44139538>I feel like I'm going insane>I have to drink every night to numb the fearIf it's an excessive amount every night, you may be putting the cart before the horse here.
>>44139538Everyone does know lmao
>>44139588I can only go to sleep and feel somewhat ok if I drink every night is what I mean>>44139605I have nothing that suggests this to point to but I'm sure its true anyway
>>44139538silver lining to being clocky I guess. don't need to be paranoid about some people knowing because yeah, some people probably can tell
>stealth poon you pretend to be a 12 year old boy?
>>44139538>Meanwhile, openly trans people
>>44139641lmfao this. never gets old hearing ftms thinking they're not permanently looking 12-14yo at best. they probably think the cis person you're dating is a basher
>>44139632It makes me kinda miss when I wasnt stealth. But I feel like Im in too deep now and things are a lot easier for me so>>44139641Somehow I do look my age
>>44139538don't listen to anyone on this board. The average person doesn't scrutinize every aspect of your appearence to clock you. The truth is that passing as ftm is easy post-t and the people denying that are mostly bitter mtfs projecting their self-hatred lmao Trans men are invisible and most people will at worst just call you a little effeminate lmao. I passed pre-t when I was in high school despite my round face, voice and 5'7 height. If you're still in doubt I can really recommend going bald haha Ever since I got the shoe-horn baldness pattern I've been essentially unclockable even to trans people.
>>44139946>I passed pre-t when I was in high school despite my round face, voice and 5'7 heightkek now I know youre lying and it made me feel worse thanks
>>44139959I was a teenager and that made it easier. I had people make fun of me for being underdeveloped but not because of my gender identity.Why did what I say make you feel worse? I'm not trying to say I'm exceptionally passing. I'm saying that most real people will not think twice if you present as male with very little effort.
>>44139538I don't have the level of paranoia that you do but this is somewhat relatable.Being stealth is psychologically damaging.All being stealth did was solidify my hatred of cisppl
>>44139650Seriously I don’t understand this. Doesn’t inevitably being treated like your birth sex by most people bother you?
>>44139538Aahhhhh the hurdle of trannyismEven if other people may or may not know you're a transman or transwoman...you always willthere will be things you know you don't have, physically / sociallythere will be doubts
>>44140326That’s it I’m rewatching mad men
>>44140326>there will be things you know you don't have, physically / sociallyNone of this actually matters, hateful cisoids make being trans hell
>>44140354Tell that to the trannies who want to gestate their young."It don't matter", I guess, if you're just a female trying to hide from womanhood. That much is easy to do and you don't even need to shoot T to avoid it, lol
>>44139538Do what my dad does. He drinks every night like you do. But he drinks in the morning afternoon and evening too
>>44139538Trannies think transitioning will make them happy but it never does
>>44140276>inevitably being treated like your birth sex Don't hang around those people... We're adults so we can choose who we want to be around now.
>>44139538>I can't stop thinking everyone knowsyou need more grounded cis male friends.I'm serious. This is terminally fembrained to be so neurotic. Guys simply don't give a shit that much and women's opinions are really not that important in day to day life. Even less important if you're a gayden.t. 5'10 stealth ftm
>>44141098worked for me :)
>>44139538>Stealth poon>Take off pants>"Wait where's your dick?"
>>44141199Now why would he be taking off his pants in front of everybody
>>44141142All my friends are cis men, it's not helping>>44141098Im happy Im just also extremely paranoid. I was truly happy before I was stealth but now Im in too deep to go back
>>44141229He says he's in a relationship so he's presumably taking his pants off around at least one person.
>>44139538You need to learn meditation. You need to learn to live in the moment. Stay out of your head. Stay out of your past. Stay out of imaginary worlds. Focus on the world in front of you. Focus on the friendships you cultivate. Focus on your higher pursuits.This is a skill, develop it.
>>44139605I'll bite. There is such a level of variation amongst men that its quite easy to read feminine masc faces as male, it also helps that there isn't the degree of moral panic as there is w troons. At worst you will pass as a young adolescence or numale. Of course, I have no clue what you look like or your experiences, but whatever
>>441399595'7 is a pretty regular height for afabs i guess, am the former 2 are traits not exclusive to women that can be fixed with training
>>44139946Most mtf say ftm pass easily tho. But yeah I have the same experience with passing pre T
