pool edition>QOTT: Are you comfortable in a bathing suit? If not, how do you explain away your reluctance?old: >>44098802
just be gay without hrt
>>44148135force all reppers into kigurumi masks
>>44148142too expensive
i dont have a personality i feel like sometimes
I'm sorry for being a repperI'm sorry for being a future lateshitI'm sorry for being a future hon
normal people's brains>tries to protect self from harm>whether external or from withinmy stupid fucking idiot tranny brain>desperately craves throwing away everything to reach for an impossible goal>and wants to destroy itself if it can't have itmy head actually hurts from agonizing over this, like really bad, and it's been going on for days, like I am going to have an aneurysm or thunderclap headache if this continues>since I didn't speedrun any% life 20 years ago like it wanted me to, my stupid fucking idiot tranny brain is now more directly trying to destroy itselfI am going to drink some water and go to sleep and hope I can focus on work in the morning instead of the same shit it's been forcing me to think about nonstop for weeks on end.
THE LION WILL NEVER TROONTHE LION WILL ROAR WITH ALL ITS MASCULINE MIGHTI WILL BEAT TRANNIESM.I WILL NEVER SUCCUMB.I AM A GLORIOUS LION KING.
welcome back agpgen
>tears welling up in my eyes every time i leave the house
>>44148135I will never become a troon. I will live and die as a man, and I will be happy.>QOTTIf I have no choice I'll wear a dark swim shirt and trunks. Otherwise I say I have a fear of water cause rabies
If I lived on my own I'd transition, but since I don't I won't. If the situation isn't 100% comfortable for me i'm not changing.
>>44148135Whoever it is who's trying to psyop me into kigumaxxing with these images, please continue.
>>44148135>oh cute kigu! I wonder if there's more...>open thread>eww, reppers I'm outta here
>>44149481kigu is repper cultureassimilate or kys
Just kidnap me and force feminize me already.
>>44149768No one's gonna do that, ur gonna be a repper forever
>>44149780>>44149780Well that sucks. I'll go back to baking then.
>>44148138can I be a gay cis man on estrogen?
>>44148147State mandated neetbux and kigurumi for all reppers is the way.
I don't want to be a woman. I want to be an anime girl. Transitioning doesn't work out. >>44148135I wish I could afford a kigurumi costume. It looks so cute.
I'm still not convinced gender dysphoria is a real thing
It's all just trans OCD
>deeply jealous of sneeds>monogamouslife is hell
>>44150198Real
>>44150198How does one cure this?
Fate doomed me to forever be a masculinized freak. Even if I took all the estrogen in the world it would still be over for me. I wish God told me what I did wrong instead of doing this to me.
anyone found a way to make the feelings go away forever?>inb4 gun/exit bag/ACKwent years without feeling anything then suddenly it's back and I hate it
>>44150271transition. Trans OCD and being trans are completely different but symptomatically identical. Treatment is therefore identical.
>>44150386You didn't do anything wrong, God just likes to make his playthings suffer.
>>44148135take your HRT, retards
>>44150410Then I will get the detrans OCD
>>44150410That'll just feed more into the ocd.
Live outside my comfort zone? Bro I don't have a comfort zone.
>>44148135I used to be really seriously uncomfortable with wearing a bathing suit, especially when I had middle school gyno. Now im not pleased with being shirtless, but im in pretty good shape now so it doesnt matter all that much
>jerk off>have this strange feeling like I'm supposed to have boobs uhh this aint good chief.
I often lay in bed and imagine killing myself. I like to fantasize about someone else killing me. A nice kind girl who understands my pain slowly injecting me with some sort of medicine which makes the pain go away and I die.
>ywn be a girl oding on benzos while hugging your gf
>>44149834no, that's not accepting being gay, you have to be gay without any hrt at all to show you truly accept being gay >>44150162its not its just internalized homophobia with a new nameyou don't have to fall for a castration cult!
>>44151360I fantasize about dying alone and forgotten with all evidence of my existence destroyed completely.
>>44151439Fuck off gincel, let us rot in peace.
>>44151439same [brother]
>>44148135The last time I ever wore any swimwear was also the first time I ever wore a bikini and I felt absolutely fucking disgusting the whole time to the point where I actively started repressing after it.I just lie and say I can't swim to anyone who asks now.
>>44148135>how do you explain away your reluctance?big fatass fat fuck moobs
I see a lot of reppers do the whole "I am a man I will accept being a man" thing but for me it's the opposite, there simply aren't procedures that exist to give me what I want. I want to be cute and feminine but if I had tits I think I'd have more dysphoria than I do currently. And that's really just the start of it
>>44150143Me too! Me too! I understand you!
I wish I had a purpose or a hobby or even a goal beyond just moving from point A(my pc) to point B(my bed)Schizoid repper btw.
>>44150403Yes I got old
Is this a good way to rep?
I keep catching myself holding imaginary conversations for 30+ minutes whispering to myself under my breathI think I'm going insane from isolation
>be me>insane dysphoria from 12 to +/-19>came out to some close female friends>get a fun job where I can drink and have fun after work>meet a really nice girl>repress to the best of my abilities because I don't want to hurt her>fast forward a decade>just bought a house and proposed to this girl>every thought about transitioning suddenly came back tenfold>blame myself every singe day for not transitioning when I was 16Very drunk when writing this. Just transition when you first get those feelings, it gets harder every day after that
>>44152908Forgot to mention that I'm currently in a job position where it would 100% financially ruin me if I came out. I should have done it when I was working at a fucking electronics store god damn it
>>44152992Not even, it should have been high school. I came so close to coming out to my parents when I was 16 and now I've completely ruined my life by being a fucking coward.
>>44152908>>44152992>>44153009Just to be clear this is just me samefagging :)
>>44152992>working a crappy job or neeting? no money for this pay2win shit>working a good job? you'll lose it if you troon outDamned if you do, damned if you don't
Am I retarded or are all of you retarded.If you're AGP and your dysphoria just comes from a lack of euphoria, why don't you just coom to other shit. That's what I'm doing and it's working for me. :shrug:>inb4 "oh sweet summer chile when ur my age youll know" im 25 now nigga and dysphoria has only gotten lesser once i stopped obsessing
https://curseofgnosis.substack.com/p/current-conception-of-sexuality-andI read this blog post of this HRT faggot and it makes me glad I never picked up estrogen. I have similar feelings about sexuality but I think I'll just keep on living in celibacy since its impossible for me to act on the androphilic part of my sexuality without becoming a woman.
>>44153228Wow I think I have the literal opposite of what that person does where I largely need both parties to be similar in physiology and gender expression to find the dynamic attractive
>>44151433true desu ngl like I am more happy with being a guy knowing that people are capable of loving my full male self but desu it's only in my sexuality I don't care about it in my day to day at all
>took HRT for a month>the confusion didn’t stopfuck my faketranny life
>>44153614ah, my worst trans fear manifest
>>44153727I’ll probably go back on and just deal with it, I didn’t get reverse dysphoria I don’t thinkthe idea of being cis fills me with a black hole in my chest so I might just LARP my way through everything
>>44153228>obsession with "optics"I will never understand the zoomer perspective that everything in life is performative. Do zoomers ever do anything just for themselves, and not for "optics," or an imagined "chat"?
I m 26 and autistic I live at home with parents. My discord is @tobaist I wood love two chat
>>44148234> A-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh>A-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh>A-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh>A-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh, a-weema-weh>In the jungle, the mighty jungle>The lion troons tonight>In the jungle, the quiet jungle>The lion troons tonight (Ho, ho)
>>44151997literally me
>>44150418HRT won't unrape me or turn everyone into an anthro woman.
>>44154234do you have a sona
full of moid rage again i hate this
>>44154838No.
>>44154951you should make one
I love being a women>>44148152It's okay no one cares
>>44155012sorry
>>44154954Never. Describing in detail of how I want an idealized anthropomorphic persona of myself to look like might lead to introspection.
>>44155029do you have a species in mind, at least?
>>44148135QOTT: I just use a bikini top and male swimming trunks mandatorily. I am forced to cover my tits because i was tragically born fucked in the head and ive got gender envy. Using a bikini top helps me rep effectively.
Is it possible for someone to love a repper or do I have to accept being alone forever too
>>44155061It would be really funny to see a dude with a bikini top on at the pool.
>>44155062of courseyou hear all those stories of men in their 40s and 50s destroying their marriages in order to engage in autogynephilia?the wives wouldn't care so much if they hadn't loved their reppy uncracked troon husbands
>>44155104What about if I'm not able to conceal it for that long
Who else /repressedmemoryfuckery/ here? I'm just now remembering that from age 12 to like 17 I had a huge overwhelming fear that I was gay. I'm now wondering if this was a weird OCD expression / being unable to articulate agp feelings. I can't believe I forgot this until now.
>>44155048
>>44155198forever alone, sorry :(unless you're going out with a man and are super obvious about it before you spill the spaghettiboys love a project to build their own devoted tgirl(must be young (16-22) for this to work)
>>44155073You'd just be seeing a pretty unsuspecting girl hehee
>>44155259>must be young (16-22)oh...
>>44155253okay then I will choose for you. you will be a uhhhh sable
>>44155316I can dig it.
>>44155236>be 9>have only 1 friend i was very close to since kindergarten >he goes absent for a few days for whatever reason>end up crying because i missed him so much. teacher asks me if I "like him", I say yes.>ffw to 11>friend group is now him and two girls. >i like the girls, as friends, but I'm really only around for him>he's clearly more interested in them. i get really jealous and quietly drift away.>ffw to teens.>basically 1:1 situation with another friend, losing him wrecks me mentally.God sent Women to steal all my crushes away.
maybe I was still half asleep, or maybe it's the way my hair was covering my face from an angle, but just for a moment I saw someone in the mirror who might have a chance at passing with weight loss and makeup. It was only for a moment, but I wish I hadn't seen it.
>>44155236Not for being a fag, but have chunks of time gone. I assume repressing/trauma does this to you.
>>44155714>ywnb a cute green goblin lady with big floppy earsunfortunate
>>44155735now you will haunt the forest picking at travelers ankles for gold coins
nothing to do 2nite. got any movie recs, repgen?stuff i watched recently:>the backrooms movie>the lighthouse>a dark song (dog shit movie btw, dunno why people glaze it so much)>sleepaway campi never watched many movies growing up, so i guess i'm making up for that now. and yes, i've seen i saw the tv glow and we're all going to the world's fair (movie by the same director, has a lot of stuff about fantasies and using them to cope with reality, would recommend it if you liked isttg)
>>44155735I want to be an imp girl
>>44155848In This Corner of the WorldBronsonThe Secret of NIMHTezuka's Metropolis
>>44155853>officer i have evidence - this post PROVES trans women are literally demons>>44155848SilkwoodThe Taking of Pelham One Two Three
>>44148188felt better after sleeping but as the day went on things slowly started getting worse again. stupid fucking idiot tranny brain literally cannot stop thinking about transitioning what the fuckthinking about going to bed early tonight but I have some things that ideally should get done
I made a server for other based Repmaxxing gigachads like myself! https://discord.gg/Q7Usk8FFd
>>44148135they're having so much fun wearing that thing. i'll never experience a second of happiness in my life. i will always be miserable
forcing a femrepper to wear one of those silicone muscle suits that gay fetishists wear
>>44156523
>>44153176you're retarded
>>44153228not reading
>>44156481how do you know must be hot as ballz in there
>>44155848Ranma ½: Chuugoku Nekonron Daikessen! Okite Yaburi no Gekitou-hen!!
>>44156523>>44156655why settle for something ugly like that when they could become the anime boy?
>>44157111I will make them become anime baras
If you got paid 2 million dollars, but you had to NEVER take hrt, and agreed they could shoot you dead if you ever did, and you had to get a tracking chip installed that monitored your hormone levels AND you had to date men, you couldn't just be alone, would you do it?
>>44157131If you got paid 2 million dollars, but you had to NEVER spam on /lgbt/ again, and agreed they could shoot you dead if you ever did, and you had to get a neurolink chip installed that monitored your internet usage AND you had to date men, you couldn't just be alone, would you do it?
>>44151425I wouldn't want to OD if I was a girl
>>44157131>no hrtyes>shoot me deadyes>tracking chipsure>dateI can't do it. not while being a moid
tfw no abusive gf to choke you to the point of unconsciousness and making you loose voice for being a stupid sissy
>>44158480sissies should diethey make a mockery of men and women both :3
Bros Digital Circus got me fucked up bad. Jax is literally me. Wearing so many masks because I'm terrified to tell anyone the truth because last time I did I got burnt bad. How the fuck did they get it so spot on. Is this just the average repper experience?
>>44158494look in the mirror dumbass
>>44157131Do it then take hrt immediately so I could be shot dead.
The hornier I am the more I want to transition. That's just how it is for the AGP/TransHorny populace.
This is really annoying because when I'm alone I think "yeah hrt in the next six months when I have my mind clear and sure" but then I talk with my family and friends and realize how awkward would be to them to me suddenly being a "woman" but then I see online all the people coming out and even uploading photos of how cute they are now (must be only a few ones with money to get operated or something I try to think to not feel like I missing a chance to be an actual cute girl). For now I'm trying take better care of myself and get down this beer belly so at least I can wear female clothing at least in the privacy of my room and maybe share some photos online and get some attention. 36 yo btw
I want a cute wholesome middle school lesbian romance with my best friend. I want to discover my sexuality and be supported by my parents and my friends. I want to sleep over at my girlfriends house and snuggle with her in her warm bed while there's a winter storm outside. I want her to cuddle me and rub my tummy when I get cramps. I want her to tell me I'm beautiful. I want us to plan our future together. I want to go to sleepovers and gossip about our crushes. I want to get into stupid fights over nothing and then cry and make up. I want to take care of my girlfriend when she has the flu. I want to spend my summer holidays at the beach with my girlfriend. I want her to rub aloe vera on my back when I get sunburnt, I want to sneak out of our beach house at night and lay on in the sand and look up at the stars all night. I want to try alcohol for the first time and get tipsy and fall asleep on my girlfriends shoulder.
There's this cute trans girl who works at the chemist near my work. I've been going there for years and she's worked there the whole time so I've seen her transition. She's really cute now. I'm really happy for her. I wish that was me. I want to congratulate her and let her know how good she looks, but that would probably be super creepy. I bet she doesn't ever remember me and I'd look like a stalker and probably scare her. If I was a woman I could do it and she'd feel supported. If I do it as a man I'm sure she'll hate it. I hate this shit so much. Just kill me already.
>>44158567all I see is a miserable [[[MAN]]]no sissies to kill thereno sirnot a one
>>44156777how
>>44158555don't worry, you'll end up just like him one dayabstr-ACK-ted and remembered as a douche by the only people you had any chance of being close tonotice how everyone is happier once he's gone
>>44158711Don't worry I am well aware.
I want to get blind drunk but I'm too old now. I have 2 beers and I get the worse fucking hangover and I'm sick for the whole weekend. Drinking used to be my coping mechanism and I can't even do that anymore. Hopefully it means my liver is done and I'm on the way out.
Even twinkhons piss me off. Like yeah man thanks for posting your mug on twitter so I can be reminded of how ugly and masculine I am.
>>44158819Same thing happened to me, thinking of getting a new chemical coping mechanism but nothing else really does the trick like alcohol and I'm a poorfag anyway.
>>44158819Hangovers are caused by alcohol being processed by the liver so you're almost certainly fine and just out of drinking practice. Try going on a proper 2-week bender and get that blood alcohol levels up to some proper digits. Best cure for a hangover is more alcohol.
>>44159805The slovenly puppy girl is kinda me
I made scones today. They were good. Sigh.
>>44160353nice one, buddyall the best cooks in history have been MENwe're all the MANLIEST and will provide for our Mrs Right once she scoops us up in her armsI meanWomen, right?
>>44160454Nah anon I'm into men. But my giant man hands are causing me distress right now. Actually, everything is causing me distress. I'm distressed
you need to make me not old anymore right now
You are all such terrible people. Imagine being given a healthy human body and choosing to use it by wasting away. God hates you. FUCK YOU
>>44161589fuck GOD for giving me a DISGUSTING FUCKING BODY!!!! FUCK HIM!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!
>>44161787Fuck you you bitch ass nigga
>>44161589>God hates youIf God is real then he does not care. I refuse to believe someone who has been silent every time I've tried to speak with him cares about me.
>>44162085maybe he just knows we're terrible people?I know salvation is for everyone, but I'm convinced there's a place in hell reserved for me and my friends
giant hands, giant feet, over six footit was always over
>>44158613hairline mogs me
jesus christ i have such a weird autistic little face, i wince on a microscopic level whenever i see myself in the mirrori look both 16 and 46 at the same time
Is dysphoria the brain protecting itself from the extreme social agony of aspergers
>>44161589yeah I'm objectively built like a chad and have never really had any serious physical health problems, I would be living the life if my broken brain didn't ruin it all
make me into a girl or else i'm killing both of us
Buy a lovense :^D
i've only ever been called "she" in a hair salon with my mom. it was definitely by accident/force of habit, but the lady didn't correct herself.there exists a world i am simply a girl, and for a few moments i experienced a glimpse of that world. i was in that world. for a few moments i was a girl. and then i wasn't, of course. but it was nice to be there, just for that little while. thank you lady.
It really says something when I'm so disillusioned with the idea of being feminine but I just can't let go of it
doing repper's shot for them while they sit in my lap. afterwards its a kiss on their head and a "good girl"
>>44164748no one would ever do this to me in a million years
>>44164761i would nona :c
>>44164748I need this ;_;
>>44164748faquI'ma faqin manfaqu
>>44164776prove it do it right now come over
>>44164213Same
>>44158555Yes man, yes. Same experience here. This bunny tranny ruined me. We're both gonna end up dead and remembered as assholes. Congrats.
my stupid fucking idiot tranny brain is still at it. I am so tired
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUWm7DJ43QQ
i can't do it anymore
>>44165046>>44158555why are yall so negative? There's always time to turn it around, to choose a different path in life, to become a more virtuous individual.
true love is possibleonly in the next world -- for new peopleit is too late for uswreak havoc on the middle class
someone give me injections, make me a girl
>>44165291get in line i was here first
Ive wanted to be female since I was fivetheres only one problemI fucking detest trannies and I dont want to be oneits not fucking fair
I wasted my entire life
>>44165345I never had a life to waste
>>44165391same thing
there is still time -> it's too late for me -> there is still time -> it's too late for meround and round she goes
>>44165523he*
>>44165531be nice to me
>>44165325stop repping and troon out faggot
>>44148945I will never become a troon. I will live and die as a man, and I will not be happy.
>>44165551notroons yucky
I wish it was still acceptable to wear a mask in public so I could cover up my ogre appearance, god I miss corona-chan.
I can't troon because nobody would ever love a lateshit
>>44165666I miss her too. At first I was genuinely so hyped for shtf, too bad is was a nothingburger. I should have just used it as an opportunity to troon out, I was still young enough back then.Fun while it lasted at least
>>44165666It is still acceptable where I live. People wear them all the time when they get the flu. I guess only americans turned wearing a mask into a sort of political statement, lmao.
>>44165666>>44166262masks relieve dysphoria
>>44166464god i fucking hate being agp aaAAAAA
how close do you all think we are to pulling a Motoko Kusanagi despite being lateshits
>>44166518At least 50 years, probably more
what's the difference between me and a crossdresser if I don't take hrt and transition?the cool alt-fashion trannies are never going to consider me one of their own :(
>>44165345me too anon
>>44166464Me but I would wear a paci instead.
who is the baldest repper?post age and your current norwood level, i'll start:>20>norwood 2, but just on my right side for some reason. left side is still fairly bearable, but it's probably going to get worse soon.
>>44166899do I dare ask if hair regrowth from HRT is possible
no woman no cry
>>44166844that is a paci for a lady
is excessive crotch discomfort during summers a sign of genital dysphoria lol
the antidepressants don't work anymore
seriously how do I stop wanting to take hrt other than taking enough drugs to make myself retarded ?I want it really badly but I am not a woman (neither cis nor trans)
>>44167608have it illegally as a bodymodding thing. they can't tell you what to do. i'm not doing it myself though because I'm a pussy.
>>44166899my hairline is thankfully one of the few good things about me
His hairline's lush and steady. He never showers. He's repping, repping. He says he'll never go bald.
>>44150418hrt won't turn me into a child so its pointless
>>44168021In an autodiddy way or in a "second chance" way
if it's in an autodiddy way i still love you repbro i cant let a real brother down at his lowest we gonna find you a mature ripe ass ho you feel me im talking jungle down there we gn get thru this 2gether mane
>>44166928i've heard it's possible, but it's probably about as likely as losing some height on hrt (so, very unlikely). realistically speaking, you'll just stop losing what you have left.
>>44168091>>44168021ewwwwwwKILL ALL REPPERS
>>44167871he's vomited on his hoodie already black market hrt
>>44168055i've been abused all my childhood because autism and being too effeminate. maybe i just want a second chance at life. i don't know what autodiddy means
>See tranny with naturally wide hipsSuffering Nuke
>see that ugly tranny friend>instant relief I never got into itSee you faggots in a few months
say it with me "it's all my fault"
>>44168345thisthe best way to reject the honery is to be presented with what >>(you) would look like>but I can do it betternope, you'll end up a Jennifer
I dont even hate being male that much as long as I dont have to talk to anyone. I just have no idea what I want to do with my life as long as I am born male, and I know exactly what I would have done if I was born female. Its a weird identity thingdoes anyone know what is wrong with my imagination?
if I had some HRT I'd probably take a little bit.
>obsessed with staying out of the sun because UV damage causes aging>look at my body every day and seethe at being fat (Not fat at all, just male)>see twink, feel rage>see transgirl, feel despair>see self, feel nothing AghhhHHHHughhhhhhhffffeeaerotprq
>>44166899My hair is one of the very few things I'm a luckshit in, also taking dutasteride as a preventative measure against mpb.
>>44169638luckshit try not to mention challenge
imagine spending your life dependent on drugslol couldn't be me
>>44169787>tfw already dependant on antidepressants and alcoholhah imagine adding another pill to that mix...
>>44169810may as well you're already a loser
how do you make enough money online to even afford hrt? i never got accepted to prolific.this is all just too hard for the neet hikki population.
>>44154234hrt wont unrope me
i'm at the 2026 two month window ideal for soduku been planning every year all of 2020s ngl pretty tired
>>441669282.5mg daily dutasteride + minoxidil and topical antiandrogens are your best bet for regrowth aside from full on hrt.
>>44170275onlyfans lol
>>44170910no way hosaeighalso who would pay into that im like a 4/10
>>44168954when does it become too late to be a Carrie
>>441710532013
Sometimes there is a comfort in knowing its over. Its over for you. its over for society. Its over for the world at large. I will never be anything I ever want to be. So why bother at all? I am going to continue to do nothing and check out of this world when I feel like it. I woke up today and started it by crying so this is a combatively better feeling. This feeling never lasts though. I wish it did.
>>44171211it does feel that way. like ill never have the body i want. a job. a car. a home. any freedom to do what i want or go where i want. it's just who cares at this point. im doing nothing.
>>44171187can you take me back
>>44171263silly reppietime travel only works on reel womyn
>>44171332if you film me on tape i'll become a reel woman :)
>>44171211Can relate to this sentiment, looking back at all the wasted years I feel like I should be more sad over it than I actually am. Can't bring myself to care anymore, my life was never mine to live anyway so why bother.
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/bKOu0SBEY1sHow accurate is this to the repper experience?
>>44172377what in the god damn?my personal experience has been more>someone unprompted starts talking about "the men taking over girls' sports" or some shit in the UK or "woke indoctrinating children">say nothing>be emotionless husk for the rest of the day>binge video games until I forget I exist, if only for a brief moment
>>44172377the repper experience is>dissociate>cry>goon>dissociate>cry>goon
I often forget I'm actually a man
>>44160328Bathe.
I cannot let this pain wear me down for all my days
I was talking with a out transwoman today and she was upset because people were shitty to her, and like, I desperately wanted to remind her that at least she has the strength to try to live her best life unlike so many losers. >For decades now, every time I've filled out any paperwork I have to actively shut down the part of my brain that reads>Male, Female, Prefer Not to Say>and thinks >"oh that's me I'm the third one!">because that's not what other people see in me>and also that the vast majority of people read those form options as>Male, Female, Tranny Freakbut like, I didn't say that to her because I don't think it'd actually make her feel any better about her situation at all, nor has oppression Olympics ever actually helped anyone ever
>>44173441How do you know my daily schedule?
>>44166899between 5 and 6
>>44173441heyshut up
>>44166899I know a repper at either late-stage 3 or 4 who completely manmodes due to living with family and lack of self-respect (22)
>>441668992.5 at almost 25. it's really my temples that are the issue, though, as i've always had a big ass forehead, even as a kid, and it haven't really noticed the front of my hairline going back much at all
BEING A WOMAN FUCKING SUCKSBEING FEMININE AT ALL FUCKING SUCKSI have to be so severely out of touch with reality to see these things as desirable
how did these brainworms ever start in meit was the easy bake oven I had as a child wasn't itthat fucking light bulb that warmed up the really small portions of cake mixmodern LED bulbs don't even get hot enough to have the same effectit made me a tranny:(
>>44173851everyone is so mean to me just for being smelly and annoying all the time :(((
when you think about it i'm so emotionally stunted that if i transitioned now i would basically be a youngshit
>>44175122that's not how it will end up you will be a low functioning boomerhon transbian
>>44175146oh. right
>>44175146So. There's still something for me on the other side.>>44173972Glad I'm not the only one who feels this particular dilemna. I always say "decline" if I can. I assume it's fucked up some job opps because they probably want someone who isn't hiding everything, but it's easier on me.
i think im having a panic attack
>>44172377I don't drink for the taste and never pretended to, I drink the cheapest alcohol I can afford as quickly as possible.
>>44175462Me too anon, every single day.
>>44175540i feel like im dying
>>44172377yeah but when i feel pressure to conform i can't excitedly instead i just shut down and don't do either things for example i would just drink water
>>44172377When does it get funny?
you are now manually aware of how wide your shoulders are
>>44175843fuck you
>>44173841I wish I could forget
>>44172377bro this brewski's fire bro
>>44171211yeah
all I can do now is panic and lash out at walls like a caged animal
I am fat I am hairy I am built like an oil drum I am old I look like Steven Seagal but because as soon as I say I'm short everyone acts like I'm a little girly twink who already looks like a woman without even taking hormones
Why do my parents have to keep on going on deranged rants about trannies and "the wokes transing the kids". I wish I wasn't constantly reminded of this retarded bullshit, and they wonder why I'm an alcoholic.
>>44175930have you tried restless pacing?
>>44176347everyone else is sleeping I'll wake them up
I really miss how I felt 3 weeks agowhen I could easily repress and feel nothingand my stupid fucking idiot tranny brain be content to engage in daydreaming or fantasiesand sometimes I'd feel regret for being too scared to transition youngbut I fully believed it was now too lateI could go back to video games and cease to exist as a person for a little whilegot a youtube pull for some hatsune miku songand holy shit the lyrics speak to me so much>My stupid numb life ran away>And in its place a flood remained>At biblical levels you could say >Destroyed my village in a day>My stupid dumb life came to town >and leveled my home to the ground>I tried to scream, there was no sound >I searched for survivors, none were found
the best part about wearing lingerie is that it instantly makes you faketrans so you have a good excuse to rep.
still no bf to lay in bed with and let him talk about whatever while he plays with my hair. why even live>>44176865so real, i used to crossdress so much but i gross myself out now so haven't done it in so long. i even bought a cute set and lost a bunch of weight to try to make it look nicer but i haven't even wanted to try
>amazon is suddenly recommending me pink monster and women's clothing
tomorrow morning's the one where we all wake up as women, good luck bros :)
will you still like me if I transition
>>44176865>>44176928I haven't crossdressed since I was really young, with my body there would be no point
>>44175802At the part where you're supposed to laugh. He should add an indicator to help. LAUGH IN: 35... 34... 33...
>>44177244I would still like you Misty
>>44177290thanks but I'm not orthodox
>>44177292Misty, you stopped being religious? Omg, I love you even more now.
>>44148135Kiggers must die
>>44177475fake news
>>44148234>claims not to be a tranny>larping as a cat :/
im horny an loanlyan i wish i wuz deadsomebody tell me why am i livinglawd i wanna be ded in bed insted please kill me cus dat would trhill me
>>44175843Mirin'.
im so horny fuuuuu im unprecedentedly horny and i got no hornygen to express how horny i am fuck dis board man rahhh im so fucking hornyyyy im the horniest repper ever im literally doing the hugging myself shtick
>>44177859Please lock in
>>44177862i aint no michael or misty orthodox i aint got no need to lock the fuck in i need to fuck the lock
>>44177859wish i was prepared to ride a dildo it feels so good
fuck i jerked off hoping to come back to earth but im still horny shiiiit i just crave physical touch so much i literally have goosebumps when thinking of holding hands with a man ngh fuck meeeeee
I'm thinking of instead trooning out, I'll transition from male to male. How the fuck do I get DIY testosterone?I can't be a woman but maybe I'll make it by becoming fully male
>Really want to transition>next day>well I could probababably wait a little longer, i don't want it that bad>next day>WOW I REALLY NEED TO TRANSITION >next day>it's not THAT bad. I could wait
What if I just give myself estrogen on really bad days? That way I get through the worst of it and no transition.
sucking a penis would cure my repping
>>44178828>>44178828I definitely think repressing would be easier if i had a guy to come over every day to use me as a sex toy.Sent from my Kissless Virgin at 33
>>44178922>repping would be easier if a guy just treated me like a womanreally?
>>44148135I want a girl to feminize me in a reversible way>Forcing me to diet to get skinny, then giving me a high protein diet but only letting me work out my thighs and ass>Making me shave my whole body and getting wax jobs>Showing me good skincare and doing makeup with me>Making me wear increasingly feminine outfitsLife's not fair bros
>>44178954No! I'm a gay man who wants to get fucked in a homosexual way.
>>44179020... so like a woman?
>>44178974>hear about some anons 0.78 whr>think if i can get rid of tub of lard on the belly can maybe reduce an inch or two>at the same time work the ass and gain an inch there >might be able to reach 0.80 whr >but who are we kidding it'll just make the ribs poke because that's what determines waist in males
i'm going to the woods, to contemplate the tragedy of life, in quiet serene peace. goodbye
>>44148911I know that feel. It is horrible how things are forced to change for the worse and we can do nothing about it.
>>44179508do a meme bridge faget
>>44151451I always find it funny how gincel feels the need to barge in here every time, usually being the first reply no matter what time of day the thread was created, as if we simply forgot not transitioning was an options. Like why the fuck else would we be hanging out here?And why does gincel always wait for a new repgen to be created?Methinks he is a kindred spirit as well...
>>44178405Terrible terrible idea. >cant be a woman guess ill just be a repressed roid rage hulk
>>44158555that fucking rabbit makes me want to rope he is too fucking real i worry if my coworkers find out about ADC theyll figure out me i wish it was never made fuck this fucking showthere are literally fanfic writers browsing these fucking threads now to get inspiration>>44165204whats the point of virtue if the world hates you regardless? literally nothing i do will ever be enough i will always be hated for being a troon if i ever did troon the world would be better off without me
I kinda facepass but my body is horrendous
>>44178473what are you waiting for? this is never gonna get easier
>>44180259holy humblebrag in repgen congrats nona
>>44180272what if one day it just...goes away
>>44180321you could also just take hrt to stop the questioning
>>44180321I wish oh how I wish for this
My cinnamon rolls came out good. Next time I'm going to do a double rise instead of a single. They're still a lil bit too chewy.Tomorrow: Brioche
honestly I don't know which scares me more>HRTrepping and crossing the turning point where I can't hide it anymore, but unable to present fem either>going for HRT and being given dosages so low they might as well be homeopathy (and also being outed because of it)>dying in silence as a man full of regrets that no one understandsI mean yeah, it's 100% the last one, but like...
give me the estrogen
>>44181815>t.
>>44182674I look like that
>>44181665everyone dies with regrets, that's normal so you can ignore the last one
>>44181213tfw no repgf to fatten me up on baked goods
forcefem is not realpinkpilling is not realeveryone will bite their tongue and watch you slowly rot into nothingi have learned this the hard way
i don't understand how there's so many never-reppers youngshit passoids, were they not beaten as kids? how did they get through schooling during early transition? so confusing, did they have good relationships with their parents? i also don't get how bi and gay men are so daring as to have sex with men, i'm probably just going to be celibate my whole life. nothing is worth the trouble, i don't want to get snuffed by all the monsters in human form
>>44182849hate to go all tumblr here but they literally had the privilege of a supporting family and probably wealthy enough to live in an area that is incredibly progressive. I would have gotten murdered if I transitioned. They don't like to hear this though. The bi and gay ones are easy because you can just lie and fuck on the DL like most men did throughout history before totally very real "sexual identities" were invented in the 19th/20th centuries.
let me out
>>44182918I have all that but i couldn't save me from the self loathing and the fear of being a hon/failed male
>>44165666i usually end up on the same train as a passoid every morning and she wears a mask all the timei wish i had that kind of confidence
what happens when I go to the doctor and ask for hormones
>>44183215they laugh at you and prescribe a placebo
>>44182918I lived in a fairly liberal area growing up and still consciously chose to repress, by far my biggest regret in life but now it's too late.
>>44182821I'm immune to pinkpilling now after overdosing on blackpills
>>44177475Kiggers must live
>>44178974I want an act of God to feminize me in an irreversible way
Can't take it anymore, heading to the liquor store to get drunk off bottom of the shelf vodka again. I hate this I hate it so much.
>>44183765trve news
troon me
>>44179508reppers should stay in the woods
>>44179508I need to do this again>>44184380trvke
>>44151433castration is good sometimes
>>44183887I'm making fun of you in a different gen, just wanted to make sure you know about it
>>44158671nta but a lot of us aren't actually agp. it's just a meme
>>44184467is it agp if I keep picturing myself doing exactly the same things I do normally every day, but as female?
>>44184466I deserve it
>>44184720Don't ever reply to me again you fucking loser
pinkpiller gf please save mesave me pinkpiller gf
>>44153176>lack of euphoriaI've never experienced this so called gender euphoria, and I'm AGP.
>>44184765This is repperphobia
>>44184814Yeah i'm a openly gay guy just here to make fun of you retards stuck in the closet lol
