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Apart from the GOTT, here are a few things you can do _today_ to make your life a little better. Keep a diary and write down every success. Some you may do as often as you please, but write down each one individually! You deserve it! Do not feel pressured to do all, but feel free to select one or two!

- prepare 1 load of laundry
- do 1 load of laundry
- read one page of a book or manga you have been putting off
- cook yourself a meal, or try learn to make a simple dish
- eat a meal
- pick up items on the floor for 5 minutes
- make your bed
- if you have a bad habit, try making it more inconvenient (putting things in hard to reach places for example)
- do the dishes for 3 minutes
- write down one thing you are grateful for (from abstract things to something like a cute image you saw)
- Clean up 1m^2 of your floor (~40x40 in)
- Open your window for 10-20 minutes
- try to exercise for 5 min (walk outdoors, walking stairs, whatever you wish)
- take out the trash
- drink a glass of water
- put one item of trash in the bin
- reach out to an online contact
(perhaps even try arrange spontaneously meeting up with an IRL contact near you!)
- BONUS: Repeat a goal to hit a milestone (1 book chapter rather than a page, the laundry pile, the floor of one room, etc)


Unofficial group chats maintained by kind anons of /sig/:
IRC: presently defunct afaik.
Discord: https://discord.gg/pUuXdBjKX2

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potentially useful resource

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Looking at starting e in October if im under 190, hoping it takes awhile for signs to show since I still live with my parents and it was a battle to get em to even accept im gay.

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How do I get a hug as a nervous wreck genderfucked ugly 38 year old with AvPD.

I'm so lonely but people scare the fucking shit out of me

>>44206885
same do u wanna be scared together

>>44206949
Kind of yeah but now that you mention it whenever someone offers I always get really scared and withdraw completely so I'll probably chicken out the moment it actually becomes anymore more than anonymous post on an image board. I can't be in a position where I'm that vulnerable even if I desperately want to be. I'll go to bed every night wishing I had someone to cuddle but if I ever got into that position I'd probably sabotage it asap and just end up hurting someone else. Hurting myself is whatever but I'd rather be alone that do that to someone else.

*cough-cough*

>>44206995
do you have discord? that’s basically anonymous too

my heart is heavy
and my hope is gone

Bought clothes from the men’s department,again award

holy crap I need to get a grip

>>44208785
Were they cool at least

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>>44208785
You wanna talk about that?
You don’t want to keep shopping in the men’s department, do you?
Have you transitioned? Where are you at there?

>>44209811
full time manmoder 3 years almost hrt. No its ok. Ill grab stuff online next time. My body just sint made for the fast fashion of the streets. So
Oh well.
>>44209790
Kinda?

>>44191008 #
>I completely forgot that your dad was the one hosting you until a few posts ago, it very much reframes the sheer insanity of your circumstances during your time in Australia
It was a lot to deal with, especially as alone as I was.
I wish I could make some friends in Australia or something, anything to keep me more grounded and feeling safe.
I'm scared of life, always have been.

>Did you have to babysit his temper there?
Yes, at times.
Sometimes he's easy to deal with, sometimes not.

>Well, I am available for the next few hours
>I planned to post earlier but life happens
I'm sorry for failing to talk to you then, I have an issue with being avoidant and procrastinating.
It's my own fault, I did this to myself but it's still unfortunate.

>>44191008 #
>He will grumble but I think his sacrifices only need to be your concern insofar he makes it your problem at this point. Maybe I am hard on him
I feel bad about costing him and everyone else so much but I just cant do anything about it.

I don't wanna be a burden anymore, but I just can't seem to toughen up.

>That, unfortunately, makes an awful lot of sense
I always feel like I need to hide or something, I'm always looking for an exit or blowout or some kind.
Our family is pretty stressful to deal with.

I am even looking at ways to get back to my home country without consideration of how my father could be involved.

Like, how I can get to the embassy and be escorted out if I make my dad mad enough to kick me out.

>It would likely need a ton of research and prep time at the best of times
I am willing to put all my wants behind me so long as I can be safe financially and physically.

>By the way, what is your father's legal status over there, is he an Australian citizen?
He is currently registered as a Permanent Resident. It started as a work Visa.

>How did he get citizenship, if that is the case?
He mentioned that the time he spent in Australia qualified him for it.
He said he will have it, eventually.

>>44191008 #
>The biggest hurdle is time in all this, as far as I can tell
>Do tell me how the questioning of your dad went
It went okay I think, I will divulge more of it today.

>>44204647
>I was 28 when I finally began being able to catch up
He did you know that you were finally begining to live and change?
And what made you start to catch up?

I've been trying to catch up for fours years by now.
I just, can't get a grip.

>You can do it bnuuy
Thank you for the kind words.
>You're not in a great enviroment, but I believe in you
You have no idea how much that means to me, now more than ever.

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Finally off work and gonna treat it as a rest day /sig/, made some burgers on the grill

>>44206196
> "i genuinely dont think you will make things better ever again. you are a nice girl but you dont know what it means to care. not being able to cook is fixable. not being able to birth is more fixable than this. looking a certain way is fixabel. this isnt fixable. you just are like this"
what do i do t. current ldr straight c4t bioy of my dreams im so fuckde

breakfast with dr k and coffee ^-^
take care /sig/mas <3

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>>44210292
If you’re “just like this” you didn’t do anything wrong. He makes it sound like he’s doing you a favor by overlooking the fact that you can’t get pregnant or cook for him (yet). I understand dating as a transgirl with this mindset of promising to do anything to repay the kindness of a man being interested in you. I was there once.

I also get how much it can hurt to be rejected by someone you’ve caught feelings for.

But you shouldn’t settle for a guy who thinks you owe him anything for dating you. That’s not love.

And you should look for a guy who likes you, not what he expects you to do for him.

journaling and forcing myself to try and make anything at all even if shitty has been helpful

>>44207686
Nah I tried Discord and that was too scary as well. Having a username isn't anonymous enough for me because when I say something I regret it's associated to me forever.

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Did I mention I caused £46k of damage at work and unironically had my boss get people asking "why is *he* like that?" because I just kept joking about it.
Yeah starting to think there's something going on there, it's like whenever there's actively a fire (not literally but think any situation with risk) I can be entirely serious and as soon as it's over I just can't take it seriously anymore.
Like I keep running the question through in my head because I really don't know why I am like that. Something goes wrong and everyone else is panicking, stressed, etc and I just can't find any weight in it. It tracks back in my history but I just don't feel like I'm built for an environment where the primary risk is some wasted product.
FFS in 12 days in theory but I still don't really believe it's going to happen, or believe that something will go wrong, standard anxiety stuff.
>>44211415
Discrub is a useful extension for this. I have mass purged thousands of messages out of old servers etc before.

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One thing that sucks with bipolar running in the family is even when I try feeling comfortable to talk about my problems, its a gamble on the day of if its even worth doing.

It's always either
>Anon im your mother, even if I don't understand i want to support you and for you to be happy, why can't you talk to me
>Stop your bitching libtard there's Israeli (im not even bullshitting) children out there with harder lives than you, stop this phase and go to church (neither parent have even touched a bible probably since they were 8)

Probably won't even tell em when I start hormones and just see how long till they figure it out

Since journalling was mentioned, bit of a random note: As nice as having an A5 notebook is, with all the space for writing and drawing, I find myself almost never carrying it outside home. I think I will go back to A6 once I'm done with the current one.

Wanted to vent a bit here but realized I lack the ability to articulate any of it... Hope everyone's days are going better than mine

Good night

>>44206403
Generally boomers are not aware enough of tranny stuff to jump to that conclusion. Provided they're not hooked to Fox News 24/7 or something that makes them schizophrenic about it.

>>44206196
Well, its official.

I'm going back to Australia on the 13th August 2026.

I'll get to the other posts when I can but I need to take some time to make peace with this situation.

>>44213661
morning

headaches

>>44205434
>Stop blaming yourself for things that are not your fault
I can try. I will, I will try.

>Come to terms with the fact that your dysfunctional third world environment is likely more responsible for your situation than your individual merit
Okay, I can do that.
I can actually see it now.

>Put yourself at an emotional arm's length from your relatives who are causing you to stress out
I will.
The problem is, sometimes that will include my father and I will have to live with him again.

Why am I so scared of him, if he doesn't physically hurt me?

>that done, realize you'll probably need to take advantage of every little thing you can from your environment to move forwards
I know.
I know I have to make use of opportunities, I just feel so awful for asking for things so often when I can't pay anyone back at all.

I don't want to be alone and confused anymore.

There's still talk from my dad about selling our house one day, from what one of my siblings told me.
Nothing immediate but the idea is still there.

I don't know what to say.

I just don't know what is the correct choice anymore.

I just want a better life, to have decent cash and not be homeless at all.
I don't want to be abandoned.

Why is life so hard for me to manage.

>Also, don't disregard the possibility of studying if it appears at all, I did that for years, and it was a mistake
My grandfather, the one paying for my ticket back to Australia, says I should consider studying Graphic Design (just like I wanted to a few years ago).

I have no idea if he would be willing to pay for it though.
I just don't know.

>Even if a degree doesn't guarantee employment, showing up to an interview with a degree is always better than showing up without one
I have one bachelor degree in software development.

I am not sure if it helps back I wanted to mention it.

>>44214976
Sorry, I forgot to link these two posts:
>>44215058

I saw a therapist for a while way back when I was in my teens and she helped me with the depression and anxiety stuff but I never mentioned what was really bothering me which was the gender stuff. I wasn't comfortable and wasn't really sure if my feelings were real and thought she would just disregard it. I really regret that, but I don't see any point seeing one now 20 years later. It's too late, it's not really going to change anything since I'm never going to take action and just keep repping. Also it's really fucking hard to get a therapist here, the waitlists are insane. If I get a spot in therapy I'm taking that spot away from someone who probably deserve it more and can still be helped.

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>>44044647
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>>44044661
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>>44047853
I made the penne pasta recipe from last thread. I am not used with salt and pepper, plus stock as seasoning. If I may comment, it tastes very, alright. I forgot to find cheese and butter, so cooking oil should do. at least I did remember to get milk.
i tried to reduce the liquid as much as I can, and while liquid on the pot looks a lot, when you serve it, you wish you didn't reduce it that much.

"Error: Our system thinks your post is spam. Please reformat and try again."
now, come on.

>>44215461
Looks tasty.

>>44211415
what I did was make a throwaway discord with a random username (a friend literally just used anon), and kept it anon when talking with people. give it a shot, or any platform that doesn't want your phone like a creepy stalker

I don't think I'll ever be able to get a grip in life at tho rate.

It's all just too much.

>Idk how much time you have left at this point,
I have until the 13th of August.

Not a lot of time, enough to cancel going back but probably not enough got my dad to get a refund on tickets.

>but a list of pros and cons regarding your upcoming moving choice might help you, if nothing else, at least make an "informed" decision
I've done this twice, both with pretty similar results.
I don't WANT to leave but my gut and reality tells me that this is the last 'easy' way to go abroad.

Maybe I can share those pros and cons here, to be sure.

>Since your main concern is economical (same here!) pay special attention to where your economic opportunities are best
That's a lot harder to quanitify.

My home country has a very high unemployment rate, especially for younger people.

News from Australia has a similar impression, but it is a lot harder back home.

I need to start making real money with online work, I need an income stream that will adapt to the world.
I am horrified of being homeless one day.

>>44214976
>>44205434
>>44216612
Sorry again.

pg8

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I am going to take a break from my spiralling.

Here's something pleasant to look at for the moment.

pg7

cig time /sig/mas!! get it?!? cig sig eheh :3
pg7 meow :3

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Hi /sig/, Panty here. I cooked some Zuppa Toscana today, and a few days ago I made more sweet potato chili. I tried making the chili with onions curls, which are supposedly easier to turn into a more meat-like meat substitute. I like the texture, although I’m not done experimenting with onions curls.

I got the idea from a vegan cooking content creator called TheeBurgerDude, who specializes in the “vegan simulation of non-vegan foods” genre of vegan cooking. Not really my thing, but fun to dabble in.

I’m talking to a financial counselor, I think I mentioned that. She suggested that whenever I eat at home instead of getting fast food, I put $10 in my savings account (which is the average amount of what I spend). Make the money I save by eating at home a little more concrete. I’m planning on buying a mini freezer with the money I save, so I can store more prepped meals.

I also listed a couple of things on eBay.

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Out walking again before bed

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>>44190969
>My LDR times are slowly coming to a close after 5+ years of long distance.
That must feel nice, I'm happy you get to close that chapter of your life. Hugging people you love feels good.
>I can very much imagine that your illness makes you feel like an alien as people probably also struggle really understanding what it is like.. or maybe I am thinking about it wrong?
No, that is definitely a large chunk of it. There are other reasons, but a lot of it circles back to not being able to live like others do.
Peers finishing degrees, getting jobs, getting higher paychecks, going on vacations. I'm stuck on the outside looking in.
It is what it is. I can't do a whole lot about it. Whatever progress I make will never be enough to take me where the average person seems to exist, nor will it be able to stop me from ageing or being in pain. That is simply how it is now and how it will continue to be in the future.

I'm doing okay myself but I have a really selfish desire to cut out people in my life who won't stop trauma dumping and talking about self harm and shit
I'm floating on a life raft and they're threatening to pull me off of it

I'm a straight cismoid. I've had multiple women assume i'm gay/bi. It doesn't bother me but it's just funny it has happened multiple times. I want thoughts and opinions from you guys? (Just to be clear they're my platonic friends and don't know each other, so I don't think it's a bit they do.)

>>44206196
I have quite possibly the worst shoulders of anyone I know—so bad that my mom commented on them the moment I came out as something that I'll never be able to change—and I'm trying to figure out how to not want to kill myself about them.

Good night

>>44222594
morning

I feel really sick all of a sudden.

>>44222831
What'd you eat?

>>44223238
Nothing weird really.
Same stuff as always.