how do i stop the trans thoughtsdo i just have to jump out of a window stupid question but i don't care anymorei know i'm a fraud or something like that it's just as much as i try to stuff it to the back of my head it's leading a guerrilla insurrection down there and winningi don't know what's happening to me anymore or who i am or what i want but i know that i've ruined my life and i can't fix it and the only thing keeping me here is my dad and the chance there's a helli don't know what to do and i also don't know why i'm even typing thisi keep coming back every few months and posting shit like this because there's not really any consequences and also i'm banned from all the other places (reddit's shit anyways) to be honest it doesn't fucking matter anyway society is going to devolve into a giant fucking megacapitalist nightmare assuming there hasn't been nuclear war at that point (for the record i think commies are stupid fucks)sorry for making this giant fucking textwallsee you in 2 months i guess sorta hope i'm dead by then
>>44212237"i know im a fraud" doesn't sound like someone who isnt trans to me. If it doesnt matter anyway why not take the pill?
>>44212237I think you should like confront these thoughts instead of whatever you've got going on. If transitioning might make you feel better, why not try?
>>44212237i never understand all this resistence to their transnessclearly you cannot do anything about these feelingsso why waste your energy fighting them and suffering for no reasontheres plenty of people who still have a decent outcome or atleast are dramatically happier after transitioning and they went on for years repping or questioning like youthe longer you wait the harder it isthe less chance you have at being ok with yourselfof being happy and finding someone who can love youand the less of your life you will get to live being authenticand i get thst your brain screams that your notbut isnt that just your own biases and misconceptions of the trans experience from the sortof outside position your inyou can try exploring it even without hrt; get some clothes and makeup; take care of your hair or get a nice wig if needed; and see how you feel after a while of some of thatif you feel better and its not just goonering; you are most likely trans and nothing will ever truly make that go awaythe feelings you describe; dysphoria etc; are the primary indicator of transnessits what we all deal with all our lives and go to great lengths and expense to alleviate so we can be ok and live our lives in a way that is livabledenying yourself that for external factors does not win you some prize after you dieas for internal factors; i think thats what you need to figure outcan you really just go on like this?sounds pretty miserible to me
>>44212237if there's a hell you're already there my friend
>>44213215>if you feel betternote that if you feel worse that also means you're a troon. a cissoid would feel nothing
>>44213215maybe i'm supposed to be dead
>>44213215>i never understand all this resistence to their transnessBecause being a tranny is objectively terrible and a fate worse than death for many.
>>44214146What if I feel worse because I feel nothing?
>>44214714>"I would feel bad at the prospect of being cis">SELF-AWARENESS [Trivial: Failure] ‒ This is a perfectly normal thing for someone who isn't trans to think.
>>44212237If you were gonna rope anyway you might as well take HRT and manmode or whatever.
>>44212237antipsychotics might work, but apart from nuking your productivity, you won't be feeling much of anything at all. that or just take hrt and manmode.
>>44214765You're putting the cart before the horse. I don't feel worse about the prospect of being cis. I know I am cis, and having it reconfirmed makes me feel worse
>>44215618>I am cislol. lmao even
>>44214575outside of the third world (including gigared death zones in america) i dont think its that bad; it gets considerably worse by passability and starting genetic body state etc ofc but clearly most of us are atleast happier and live lives of greater possibilities than beforefor anyone of mid tier or above who doesnt get gigabrainwormed its hard for me to see many negatives aside from external factors; like family/friends/work issues and their support and opinions; but starting a totally new life is part of the experience for most of us even if we do have some support around us; some people have to be cut out etc if they cant atleast leave us alonei get thats not realistic for everyone etc and theres a great many factors that can delay someones transition; but i think if moat of the signs and feelings are there; its highly likely the best solution is to transition or atleast take steps to distance from masc (or fem for ftms) and change one's looks and presentation to as great a degree towards the middle of the road at the very least instead of suffering and doing nothing at all about itit took me 18yrs of poverty and illness before i was able to start hrt and actually transition but never once did i consider that i would not do it at the first opportunity; and i was fortunate enough to be naturally feminine (and a neet that rarely had to face anyone irl) which made that long wait more bearable; nasically because i didnt live a life at all; i was too dysphoric and agoraphobic to even try; but i still took care of my body decently & had nice hair & dressed kinda andro middle ground as best i could afford; and that was a big issue for a long time with no incomeit was suffering but less so than if id been like trying to larp as a "man"- thats something ive never really had any reference for in my life; and if i had id probably not be alive today; wouldnt be a happily married transles etci hope op can be happier even if a little
