It's been about a year since I was able to maintain a job without going insane. A few months before I quit all I could do was think about the fact that my body is ruined by testosterone and I'll never get to be a woman. Eventually it got to the point I couldn't work because of how stressed out I was. It's all I think about when I wake up in the morning and before I go to bed. I need a couple of hours to calm myself down enough to be around other people, and even then I can't do so for very long. I spend most of my time sleeping and watching youtube to try to keep my mind off of it. I often forget to brush my teeth or shower. I go days at a time without leaving the house and barely leave my room. My life is over at 21.
>>44215748Literally me, but I'm almost certain it's actually reverse dysphoria for me
>john50ing at 21that's rough. are you on hrt or no
>>44215766I'm not on HRT. I can't afford it and I doubt it would do me any good at this point.
>>44215778you still have four years until the average age hip bones fuse lol what are you on about. you really can't afford $100ish for diy?
>>44215789I have about 200 to my name right now. Also I would probably get caught. I live with a family member and they might see it in the mail.
>>44215789its actually 4 years until 99.99% of peoples hip bones are fused. Most peoples are fused well before 25.Not that that should stop one from taking HRT though, fat can do a lot by itself
Maybe another day of anime and gooning will fix it
get on diy now
>>44215816can you get a friend to do it? or rent a PO box? or use one of those parcel locker things?>>44215826oh :<
>>44215816some shippers offer alternative labels or something, if your family doesn't mind you ordering other stuff that could work. and syringes can be bought at a chemist. you've made it clear that starting hrt is the only viable option, so do it, no matter what.
>>44215748k now live like that for another 13yrs and become actually disabled by a disgusting extremely painful bowel disease; get masced more by meds given to treat it in the hospital; then get osteoporosis and fracture your spine giving you a permanent major deformity and lifelong pain requiring stigmatized opioids and being at the mercy of mostly shitty uncaring doctorsyour on your way to living life on kassie nightmare difficultytransition and find love immediatelyi fully believe my inability to transition is why i ended up with ulcerative colitis in the first place; after over a decade with i know very all too well how much pronged emotional disstress affects the intestines and general inammation etcdo everything you can to alleviate it please
