How do I live with both the tranny thoughts and the disassociation/desire to never be truly perceived by anyone?Sharing anything personal about myself, even if it's something pretty mundane, makes me extremely uncomfortable. I would rather die than admit that there is something wrong with me to someone I know, and telling someone that you're trans is like the worst, most personal shit I can think of. I'm 22 and have a kind of rectangular face, so I would have to perma manmode anyway or else I would be a fun thing for people to stare at.Therapy so far has just made it harder to ignore all of the negative thoughts, think it's going to take a long ass time for that to start helping.
>>44217107hrtrep/enbycope that's about it just refuse to have a label assigned to you but take estrogen anyways so you don't blow your brains out
>>44217261Any time I think about hrtrepping I can only imagine scenarios of being caught or someone noticing the differences.Being enby would be cool if I could actually pull off being androgynous and not just a discount man, but I don't think I can escape my maleness.
>>44217107I've also been banking on most of my struggles coming from going undiagnosed with adhd/autism(obviously) for most of my life. I've been hoping that the tranny thoughts would become more manageable once I addressed that.
