i heard that people who were sexually abused at a young age end up doing prostitution or pornography. i also read someone on another board say that when they were young an older woman abused them and now theyre a sex addict but they love having sex. so does this mean that some of them were able to turn what happened to them into something else that they like doing? someone posted something on here a few months ago that made me think of that. i myself was abused severely, just not sexually, for my whole life from childhood to adulthood, and am still experiencing it. so part of me is envious that some of them were able to turn what happened to them into something that they enjoy. from my abuse i developed an appreciation and sense of beauty for certain things from some of the things i did to cope. i also got the realization that there is no guarantee of justice ever taking place after people do horrible things to others. but i still get envious for some reason when i hear about people like i mentioned in the beginning of the post. my mom also told me that she knew someone who told her that "something horrible" happened to her daughter but wouldnt say what, and she said that the persons daughter would "behave inappropriately" whenever men were around. i also still havent been able to escape from my abuse and am still stuck in the same situation. every day lately i find myself regretting that i didnt kill myself when i was going to actually do it for the first time when i was 12 and still had the courage to. i had a really abnormal life and its really surreal to me how my life got as fucked up as it is now. out of everyone i knew in my life, im the only one whos life turned out this bad. i really dont want to be alive anymore, but i have ocd about how if i died before i was supposed to naturally then i would miss out on something good that eventually would have happened. i don't understand why reality/things are like this.
>>44219029>i heard that people who were sexually abused at a young age end up doing prostitution or pornography.I was sexually abused by an older boy when I was a child. but the only thing I caught from that was hazy memories from the day. Im not a sex addict or whore, neither I do porn
>>44219029>end up doing prostitution or pornographySounds like human trafficking or desperation, "survival sex"
