>sub that's forced into comptop in an otherwise healthy and loving t4c relationship (we've been together since before trooning out, and i've always been the type of sub to top for the others' pleasure)>neither of us very interested in penetration for me anyways, have never achieved prostate orgasm either with her or alone>have one (1) vibrator induced orgasm, no prostate play>suddenly flooded with desire to do SRS and be penetrated and all other sorts of yearnings, after feeling apathetic abt that for all my time on e and somewhat repulsed by it when i was an egg>turns out i was misinformed and SRS can have incredible results, adding fuel to the fiream i retarded or just doomedi'm also the type of oblivious tranny that had dreams about having a girl's body since childhood but somehow convinced myself that there was no way i was a tranny until the ripe ol' bricky age of 22i don't see myself with anyone else other than this woman, if we end up divorcing i think i want to become a buddhist nun to avoid roping
>>44220442how long together?
>>442204517.5 years
>>44220442>>44220458open relationships are valid especially when sexual incompatibility rears its head
>>44220462i passed my BPD onto her - we're monogamous to a fault. Pathetically enough, i'd much rather be cucked than cuck her, even though i have fantasized about polyamory / open relationships and even just queer platonic friendships (i get too nervous whenever things get too friendly with both trans and cis women, feel like im somehow cheating on her)
>>44220458You two need to talk directly about this and figure out how to make it work. Honestly maybe even couple's therapy
>>44220510You think it's that serious?I'm honestly thinking about repping but i don't think that's the best solution eitherI've honestly been fine topping thus far.. i just wish she would let me sub sometime
>>44220532honestly maybe these desires are just my unfulfilled submissiveness trying to find an exhaust
>>44220532>>44220541you shouldn't repress aspects of yourself just to get by, it's not healthy even if it's extremely convenient for preserving something so important to youtalk it out and go from there
>>44220550i hate that this is probably right, moreso bc dysphoria for me was always kind of just a background radiation of apathy towards my body when passive (bad enough to actually transition when active) and i thought maybe i could dissociate from this and pretend i don't care but maybe that's why i let myself be poisoned by testosterone anywaysfuck my stupid tranny lifeDo neovaginas feel good anyways? What if it's all just to have something that looks pretty but does nothing
>>44220600i have heard they can be really great but i'm not getting srs so i'm not an authority>background radiation copingrelatable honestlybe yourself nona, even and especially when it's difficult, everyone deserves to be themselves
>>44220532Yeah, when you've been together for so long, you need to be open with each other and not get in a position where you might resent the other
