Yknow. Going from a really depressed guy to a really depressed semi passer basically overnight with a new haircut fucking sucks.Now I can feel people tallying and looking at every single fucking problem with me instead of just ignoring me as some generic unkempt guy.Yknow. Nails obv not kept, hands too big and vascular (some of my meds effect blood pressure :/) hair isnt great, arms arent shaved (no the hair isnt dark its just theres a LOT of fuzz) body language, stuff like that.I can tell when theyre tallying that Im being too assertive or when Im stepping out of line. People have been ordering me around more and wayyyy harsher on me too, AND I HAVENT EVEN COME OUT TO THEM.Im basically not at all allowed to cuss in public, and beforehand people wanted to interact with me still but now way less people do, and just.Holy fucking shit being an unkempt girl is so much fucking worse than being an unkempt boy, and incels dont know how fucking easy they have it.
Or my bootlegging hobby, people called it cool as fuck and now it seems like people think of it as a loser thing, and my friends just generally seem to think of me as way more of a loser now than they did beforehand.I really fucking hate how much people have been ordering me what to do now, one of my friends outright said shes gonna put me through a girl bootcamp because I cant be putting my feet up on tables anymore and stuff.This is so fucking stupid
