I think I've reached mental illness nirvana. Instead of my mental illness causing me to be self destructive in a negative way now its rly positive!To stop thinking about all the horrible things that happened to me, I've just been studying so hard. I wanna get a nice job after uni and be independent. And all that studying has caused me to learn to care less for my feelings. When I'm tired sad whatever I just force myself. No more thoughts!!!Now its also much easier not to gorge on food. I think I barely ate 900 cals today.I've just been much more consistent and better at everything.I'm still never happy. I still cut myself sometimes when I remember things. Nobody loves me still. But at least I'll be all the things but pretty and smart.
>>44222564that's admirableit's hard to get stronger while things get harder. i hope you find the love you deserve
>>44222584感謝してますぴ
