>be me, MtF>family is very against trans people, mom is actual insane terf, dad is a hardcore Catholic and compares hrt to crack and heroin>completely estranged from family, no contact>frequent vivid nightmares about them since moving away, occasional flights of panic when I hear footsteps in the hallway by my apartment etc>generally need to be away from them>close with my grandpa growing up>loved me the most because I was the only “boy” grandchild>old school IT guy, taught me tons about computers>had a lot of great summers at his place>still he was deeply flawed>when I grew my hair out as a teenager he became weirdly touchy and made a bunch of weird comments>got progressively more prejudiced as he aged>once called my then infant cousin (who is black) the hard r>suffered a severe stroke in 2016 and refused any medical help afterwards>slowly losing his mind for years>domestic violence case in 2024, circumstances unclear>last name is extremely uncommon in the English speaking word, if I google it I get a bunch of stuff on direct family members>occasionally google it just to see if anything is up with my family>obituary for my grandpa>died July 6th>cry all nightI genuinely don’t know how I feel about it. I’m glad he seemingly died not knowing I trooned.
i'm sorry to hear that
>>44257014I feel you. My dad kicked me out of a moving car and called me a weird faggot (I was a unknowing repper) at 3:00am in the middle of a city. Dunno if he's still aliveI was also seperated from my biological relatives and I dunno if it's fair to connect with them decades later only for them to find out I'm trans
>>44257014this is sad. i'm sorry for your loss. i'd like to hear more stories if there are any you're comfortable sharing, if not that's ok.>I’m glad he seemingly died not knowing I trooned.i understand but pleasee dont be hard on yourself
>>44257014:(
>>44257211when I was very young he would take my cousin and I to red lobster a lot. we couldn’t have been older than 4 and he drove a big van. because we were 4 years old my cousin and I always wanted chicken fingers and he’d always insist they were called “chicken toes”. it was a funny bit to us at the time.he really loved the sound of music. he couldn’t play piano or sing well at all but he had a small upright piano and a book with the sheet music for sound of music. he was awful at it but he’d play and sing all the time.he was really into cycling and would get up every morning to ride his bike for miles and miles. when I’d stay at his place over the summer he’d get me up early in the morning every single day to ride with him. he also used to get me to do all sorts of computer repair projects with him. we once scrounged together parts from a bunch of broken laptops and built a working one together. I wish I still had it. he also had a bunch of blackberry phones daisy chained together in his computer room for years for some reason? I know he had a reason for it but I can’t remember it for the life of me.we’d go fishing sometimes too. it was always on this dock under a bridge. I remember the hotdog place he’d take me to anytime I saw him too. I miss it a lot but I’m on the other side of the country now. my good memories of him mostly come from when I was really young. as I got older things just changed. he had his stroke when I was in high school and he was never ever the same after. he wouldn’t accept help from anyone, not his wife, not the doctors, not my mom, not me. he became withdrawn over the years and fell into his worst habits. ally memories from way back then are fuzzy but they’re good memories
>>44257014My grandpa died a few years ago. He's one of the main reasons I didn't troon out until I was 30. He would have given my very loving parents hell for it, I'm sure. Can't say I miss him, even though he and my grandma were very helpful financially (I do miss my grandma). Last conversation I had with him was him shitting on trans people and talking about how he disliked that Don Lemon had a male partner. Dude was a Blue MAGA type. Watched CNN all day, but was very racist and homophobic. He was very angry with me when I supported Obama over Hilary during the 2008 primary. Called me an n-lover, but still voted for him out of party loyalty. I can't say I have any positive memories of the man. Even my dad, who always talks about missing him, has to preface any mention of him by saying that "dad could be a difficult person, but . . ."I found out after his death that he was very physically violent with my dad when he was a kid. My dad hit me once as a kid and immediately started balling and never did it again.
>>44257014Black grandchild and a tranny grandson? Damn doesn’t get much worse than that.
>>44257599thank you for sharing. those were some beautiful stories, and you are really good at telling stories, i felt like i was there. i miss your grampa for you too now.
>>44257672damn...
>>44257014AHAHAHA let me guess your family is from the midwest?
>>44257672>Called me an n-loverThis isnt r*ddit. You are allowed to say nigger.>but still voted for him out of party loyaltySo both you and your grandpa were nigger lovers at the end of the day.
>>44257014I never knew either of my grandfathers. They both died when my parents were young, and growing up I never heard much about them. Found out when I was an adult that one of them was a weirdly abusive drunk who acted weird about my mother, spent lots of time away from his family, probably had a second family that may have been an open secret, and died after drunk driving off a mountain. The other was apparently OK, he just died when my father was 19, some kind of illness IDK. I always wished as a kid that I had known them, but it was probably better I didn't.
>>44258765I don't care if this is 4chan. I'm not racist. I'm not using that term.I'm from Appalachia. All the racists I grew up around were literally subhuman freaks. There are no good racists.
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>>44259000Much better.
>>44258967>I'm not racistProceeds to suck up to niggers and hate white people.You are a racist, anon. It's just that you deluded yourself into thinking your anti-white racism somehow doesn't count.
>>44259047I spent my youth around racist white people. There are no people worth hating more than them.
>>44259052>my racism is le validI spent my youth among niggers. There are no people worth hating more than them. Your racism is no more valid than mine, you retard.
>>44259047>anti-white racismYakub smiles on u goyim Always remember behind every racist is a BBC cuckhold fetish
>>44259052It's not racist to hate racist you dumb fuck.
>>44257014i also avoided my grandfather in his last year so he wouldn't know i trooned out. its been a few years and i think it was the right decision. he didnt have to deal with his favorite grandchild trooning out (he genuinely would have lost his shit, he taught me the n word unironically as a kid tier racist), and i get to remember him as a loving paternal figure. i'm sorry for your loss but dont feel guilty about not seeing him, youll realize it was for the best in a few years
>>44258765you brought filth into a precious thread. if you are going to be racist you should be covertly so, leading by example
