Post about your loneliness or sadness. I spend everyday alone aside from going to work or going for walks
>>44257961My loneliness has curdled into a nigh all-encompassing hatred
>>44257961where do you like to walk
>>44257961somebody please hold me
you get used to it i promise
>>44257961Hurt a dear friend of mine grievously. It feels like we're on the path to forgiveness, but my absolute despair over doing something awful to one of the most wonderful people Ive ever known is crushing me into dust.On a somewhat tangentially related (but not really) noteComing face to face over the past... while... that I am, in fact, going to be (romantically) alone for a very long time. Maybe forever. The thought is pure ropefuel for me and Im not sure how Im going to survive.
>>44257961I haven’t spoken to another human in a friendly context for 8 years
>>44258178Yo. Play splatoon?
>>44257961I'm just not good looking enough and it's driving me crazy. Not even a nice smile my direction from someone that catches my eye it's all so horrible?
>>44257961Post plushies >>44258178What is wrong with u
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>>44258757WeakNot cute
>>44257961i really kind of want to get a "cool' hobby but only partly because i kind of want to feel cool rather than actually enjoy the hobby. weird. i think i also had this long lasted craving for external validation (not from any specific individuals but just an amorphous mass of peoples validation) which kinda fucks w me a lot :(all this makes me feel so hollow inside stuck between "i want to be cool" but also "i want to be seen cool" so even if i were to be cool id remain hollow inside cuz theyre not genuine interests i just crave attention:(
I spent 22 years repressing before finally trooning out, and I'm extremely bitter about it. I knew since before my puberty, and while in the 90s I wouldn't have had access to HRT or puberty blockers, maybe I could've done something SOONERInstead, I coped with food and got obese for my troublesSo now I'm just a fat tranny who came out very late in life, because she was afraid of facing the truth
i want to be alone i want to an ascetic a hermit i am weak and cannot accept life i have to hide myself from the real world and real people and real life cus im a pusillanimous faggot and that is just my mental disposition and i cant change that and i must accept that im a useless pusillanimous selfharming goodfornothing so that i dont have ambition anymore and i can just let magnanimous people live their lifes without hindrance
>>44259602same
I miss being a neet it’s hard to be lonely when you’re watching oney plays all day
I am really desperate, I just can't take it anymore. Everyday I get psychically reaped by reality all day long. I need real help urgently I really can't afford living with my parents anymore, its killing me. Even outside of the obvious repression that living with them entails.They clearly fucking loathe me. My father just straight up hates me, but in a passive agressive bitchmade type of way. I can't stand him, every time he makes a noise it feels like a stab to my heart. i really cant take it im going crazy. Idk what to do. I have nowhere to go, but I really need to get out of here fast or I'll have fucking stroke or a complete mental breakdown because of all the stress and bitterness.
What do you do when you need to be rude to people not to get abused but then feel bad because when you defend yourself they start literally weeping and going after your social contacts and basically snitching on the fact that you weren't willing to get verbally molested at every turn.I also don't like being rude but i've noticed that ever since i started defending myself i'm less depressed and more confident so it would be bad to stop now.
>>44261405oney <3 i love the peak series. it's one of their best in a while
>>44261538Achual A-A-ACHUALLY A-ACKCHUALLY AAAAAACHpeak
>>44259226just do what you enjoy and if you're truly passionate about it people will think you're coolyou're going avout this in exactly the wrong way. if you have fake hobbies people will realize this and think you're a fake person
>>44257961>have someone i haven't spoken to in almost 10 years>haven't been friends in 15>still have dreams about them a few times a year>never sexual, maybe romantic, but at least more .... im not sure. intimate? but without being sexual. I have never had sexual feelings about this person>almost without fail, a dream precedes seeing them in the flesh by a couple of days to a couple of weeks.>we lived in different parts of the state for years, so it happened to be when they are back visiting family >even when we lived close, never saw each other unless preceded by a dreamwhat the FUCK is up with this?I posted this on x a few days ago but I'll post again here.
>>44257961i haven't gotten to hang out with someone in person in a couple years now. And before that, it was usually uncomfortable because of multiple different issues. Now I just have kind of an ache thinking about my friends, wanting to be close to them. Wanting to give them a hug. Maybe wanting to do more with one of them. I haven't been touched in a way I enjoyed in so long. And then before that, years longer. I want warmth, I want comfort
>>44257961One of the only real friends I've ever had was my ex and my bf forbid me from staying in contact with her god I'm so alone
>>44264082your bf sucks
I hate being a closed off, touch averse autist so bad I transitioned so long ago and I pass and am not unattractive but it does not save me from that
