Im on 1y E soon and im really starting to suspect maybe just twink-ing it out with finasteride or whatever would have been a better call but im not sure.The thing is that i never wanted boobs, like explicitly. I was assuming id just not care, get used to them or ideally, grow to like them. I had a few signs into that direction, i never once cared about having a flat chest but i did sometimes get envious of boobs a small amount. I also had phases pre E where i wore (unpadded) sports bras nearly 24/7 and felt a bit weird without.Instead im starting to think boobs are weird. Like they are just kinda odd flesh sacks on ur chest that might get in the way of ur arms lol. So i started getting scared id hate having them :cThe problem is that this is not a certainty either, rn i dont even have an A cup, but its not nothing. And, unfortunately for my desire to be certain of what i want, sometimes i think they are fucking great lol.Like i have moments where im happy about them and like how they give me more curves or make clothes look a bit more fem by denting them out. Im also a fan of the larger areola/nipples, male chests almost look a bit weird with how small they are.On top of that i also never hate my breast growth, i might think its odd or looks bad on me, but not like visceral hatred. Plus i like everything else hrt is doing, especially skin, face and hair changes, as well as hoping for some fat redistribution.So im in this weird limbo, i dont despise masculinity enough to force myself to grow boobs, and i also dont desire them enough to be sure its a good idea. Im like, ambivalent with occasional leanings towards liking them but also serious concern i maybe dont.How do i resolve this? Ideally id just want to be a normal tranny with small boobs desu, but its starting to feel like im not and im just nb with a preference for femaleness so slight im not sure its worth growing boobs over :/
idk but if you decide to only block dht then go with duta instead of fin
you can also microdose estrogen in a way that wont grow your breasts or disrupt testosterone production
>>44294090yeah I heard abt that before>>44294095i guess, tho I'd actually be very fine disrupting my testosterone lol. when is aid that I like everything Hrt does except being unsure about boobs I did mean basically everything.including the genital atrophy and erectile dysfunction. those are actually kinda neat lol. as much as I'm unsure about boobs I'm weirdly kinda semi certain I dont like having a dick.
>>44294072dutasteride doesnt change you much. it might cause lighter, "glass" skin as t/dht can cause darker, redder, inflamed skin. it did that for me but others say it didnt. you can notice this effect in MTFs (and FTMs in reverse) so its standard with HRT but i guess not everyone gets it from dutasteride alone. but most of what dutasteride will do is simply halt the progression of masculinization. idk how old you are but lets say you take two 19 yr old twinks. one goes on dut, the other doesnt. 10 years pass. the one on dut will still be a twink, the one who isnt will be an average 30 yr old dude. the point being it takes 10 years and comparison to others to notice that it worked.
>>44294423just try raloxifene
>>44294564ooof OK that makes hrt sound better again IG. I'm already mid 20s unfortunately :/. And even besides that I do enjoy a lot of the feminization I got from hrt, I'm just conflicted about breasts. Could switching to dut now at least "lock in" the skin and face changes I got from hrt?>>44294653i might IG. but I hear ppl saying it either doesn't work or barely works a lot.plus half my problem is that idk to what degree I even (dis)like having breasts.sometimes I even think I only dislike them now because they look immature and dont have a proper shape yet. and if thats the case I dont wanna risk hindering their long term growth by going on ralox for a bit (tho desu idk if that is a thing, I just fear it might be)
>>44295157if your boobs were perfect every time you saw them would you still feel weird about them?
>>44295434thing is idk lol. Maybe? Problem is idk if thats possible, like what if I never get over thinking boobs look slightly odd? What if my ribcage and shoulders are just too masc to ever have boobs look good?hell even if I had my ideal body (androgynous slim woman with small boobs) idk. Cuz I'm mostly just scared I can't handle them just being there. Like will I ever get used to my hands randomly brushing up against them? (eg when I wash my face or cross my hands) Or will it always feel odd even if I'm happy with how they make me look?so yeah if they looked perfect (according to my ideal), I might worry less but I'd prob still worry.i wish I was a normal (binary) tranny desu, why does it have to be so complicated for me :c
>>44295943>Like will I ever get used to my hands randomly brushing up against them? (eg when I wash my face or cross my hands) Or will it always feel odd even if I'm happy with how they make me look?idk i dont have boobs but did you ever get used to your bulge? i didnt>>44295157mid 20s is still good time to start dut. it doesnt hurt
>>44296768idk I'm kinda used to my bulge but its still annoying to me sometimes idk.difference is tho that I was never happy with it in any way I think. my buldge looks weird feels odd sometimes and I've never really been a fan of it I think. boobs I'm occasionally happy about at least visually.but idk I'm still weirded out by it at times as well? idk, it's stupid lol
