> knew ill kill myself before 30 since i was 17> found hope in trooning> repressed until 22> actually believed it might get better> instantly realize how hopeless my body is the moment I start hrt> all the dissociation gone> dysphoria skyrockets> now at 9m hrt> i cant fucking look at the freak in the mirror anymore> lost all hope in ever being a woman> realize that nothing changed and im gonna kill myself before 30 anywayim done im done im done im done im a 182 cm monster, estrogenized freak,.not even human, thrid gender abomination, acting manly is torture and feels wrong, but acting feminine feels fake as if im wearing the skin of a real woman, a flesh maskwhat do i do
>>44294955im exact same. i have no idea. everyone around me keeps trying to get me to have hope or try to recover or be patient or whatever but ive never felt more hopeless in my life and theres literally no path to success with my body. i dont know. im sorry
>>44294955There's no good answer, i know i'll eventually die from lung cancer at some point.We're all in this shi.
