we've been together for almost 4 years now and i love him more than anything, but whenever i try to breach this subject with him he doesn't take me seriously. it's always either him treating me stupid and calling me a retard, telling me no and ending the conversation there, or turning it into a joke. i know that it comes from a place of love but it's making it very difficult and i'm not sure what to do.it's especially complicated because he's ftm (and straight) and we met each other pretty early on in each other's transitions, so i know this would effectively end the relationship. i don't want to, we're crazy about each other, but i don't think it's fair for him to have to be with someone like me.i'm killing myself over thinking of how to have this conversation help me
>>44343336why have you decided to detransition?
>>44343336why are you detransitioning in the first place? That's kind of important to answering this.
>>44343336Uh, you tell him, he tells you no, that he won’t let you ruin your life like that, then forcefems you to be a good girl for him again and starts administering your shots so you don’t skip them.
>>44343336simply don't detransition. it'll ruin your life and relationship for no reason and you'll regret it bc you're trans and the only way to treat dysphoria is to transition. trust me if there was another way I'd take it but repping doesn't work and detransition is fucking miserable
>>44343347>>44343349transition just wasn't the right choice for me. after almost 5 years i still don't really feel like a real woman most of the time (the only time i really do feel comfortable as a woman is around him, which i feel like is unfair to him), i barely pass to anyone, surgery isn't feasible for me, and constantly being perceived as a tranny gives me nightmares to the point that i can barely sleep anymore.i didn't have any of these problems when i was a boy, and i know it isn't that easy to go back but i think anything is easier than this. i boymode like 85% of the time anyway, the writing is already on the wall.
>>44343490fair
>>44343490im sorry you feel like this nonayoure probably going to have to break up with himyou should seriously consider if this is the right choice for you or if you in 5 years is going to regret thisif you decide it is the right thing to do then you need to actually do it, with all the loss that it entails
>>44343490You didn't even transition in the first place then, if you boymode 85% of time
>>44343490>i barely pass to anyone>i boymode like 85% of the time anywayYour boyfriend is right, you are a retard
>>44343490>>44343608this. I detransitioned without exiting boymode (maybe did once or twice) and it ruined my life desu. it can be useful to detrans and build up money but idk. it's like making a deal with the devil.
>>44343490>wasn't the right choiceif you are dysphoric, there was no choice. this is what you are now. socially detransition if you want but stopping hrt will only harm you, it's just not worth it
>>44343695She's a boymoder there is no social detranstioning to even be done lol
>>44343490Just keep boymoding then, tranny thoughts won't go away
>>44343759do you have any proof of this?
>>44343759boymoding is getting harder because my boobs are kind of big now. i get clocked in boymode too much, it doesn't pass for gyno anymore. it just hurts so bad i can't take being in between anymore i feel like i'm going insane
>>44343771Do you think the issues that made you decide to transition in the first place would go away magically? Some huge percentage of detransitioners end up retransitioning, but... don't let people on 4chan decide your life for you. You are still valid however your life ends up going.
