I'm a cis straight woman and it's been years since we broke up but i still love him. I hope he never recognizes that this is me because I'm blocked on everything and he hates my guts, but I'll always miss him. I don't know what it is about him but he's the only guy that's ever made me feel this way even if I've had crushes close to 'love' before. My friend says I only feel like this because I don't have alot of experience but I've tried talking to alot of other guys and it just doesn't hit the same. Sometimes i look through these types of communities and admire guys that act similar to him from afar, because if I ever contacted them it'd be weird and they'd probably think im a chaser... This is the first post I'm ever making here, because I don't know where else to say this. He uses reddit too frequently for me to post there without overthinking, even now I'm anxious he'll see right through me. I just miss him. I want a guy exactly like him because I know he won't come back because i was toxic and I said so many hurtful things to him but he's always gonna be the only guy I've loved.
why are you blocked on everything? you cheated right
>>44344404>I'm a cis straight womanbs, you're a gay woman who is homophobic
>>44344404>cis straight womanwhy are you even here
>>44344427I didn't cheat nor did I have any urge to was just a bitch in basically every other way
>>44344515I can't think of any other community to post this in, i don't have friends i can confide to about this either
have you thought about apologizing
>>44344588Have countless times and have begged him to get back together so many times, he knows I want to get better and be with him and last time we spoke he said he loved me but puts his feelings aside because he wants to be just friends. A few days after i was blocked. I don't really blame him for doing so but I miss him more than anything
>>44344641>want to get betterhow bout you actually get better first then try to fix things
>>44344659Don't have motivation for it because he's not coming back anyway. I don't think it's possible for me to fully get better, but I don't think it's possible for him either.
>>44344708in that case stay away from him. stop being a retard
>>44344765I left him alone but my love for him still torments me no matter how long we don't talk. That's why I posted here
>>44344404Pooner fanfic
>>44344829I wish it was
