Currently I'm 19, 10 months hrt, started 3 months after my 18th anniversary. I'm still boymoding, idk if I have passing potential or not, maybe if I get laser and put in some effort, but I'm not really sure.I've started college this week, and I don't know what to do now. I used to think I'd kill myself before turning 18 when I was a child, so I didn't really plan this far. I pitifully tried suicide once at 16 via overdose, obviously didn't work and I just dissociated until I turned 18 and stopped repping. After graduating highschool, I spent this year's first semester just NEETing out for about 4 months until I got a job and just went autopilot. I also planned a suicide attempt a week after my 19th birthday but I pussied out. My parents pushed me into getting into college and I complied, but holy shit, it didn't hit me until classes started.My entire life I was pretty much just the weird loner kid that sat in the corner, never really had any friends until 7th grade where I was approached by some boys and we became friends, a few of which I still kept, but idk what their reaction would be if I came out. I have barely any socialization at all, the one I have is just performative masculinity I learned as a child so other boys wouldn't bully me for being feminine. I don't know how to make friends or maintain them, I don't go outside other than for work and college, I think I'm depressed and have been seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist for a few months now, they're the only people who know I'm a tranny.I don't know anything other than household stuff, I picked computer science as my course, the class is essentially just men and I'm scared and don't want to talk to them because they are actual men and I only know how to handle boys. What do I do.
>>44345471chances are most of the guys in your classes early on will be asocial losers just like you so don't worry about it. If it's anything like when I was in school, you can make friends pretty easily by bringing a power strip to class as there will be a lot more students with laptops than outlets for charging.
>>44345471>I only know how to handle boysum pedo fbi open up
post a catbox and we'll judge your passoid potential
>>44345634A lot of them are, but I don't know how to actually talk or socialize with men. The only times I did so was to avoid being on anyone's bad side.>>44345677Why would I do that in a website whose whole point is anonymity
>>44345471Qwarz is a pedo who grooms children in her discord btw.
>>44345471throw together a schedule and become an effortmonk
You appear to be autistic. Seek like-minded friends, normies won't be fun to hang out with. Most of them will probably be far away unless you live in a huge urban area with queer events and whatnot>>44345650>>44346131weirdos
>>44346381I've asked my therapist about autism and she said I don't seem to have it. I don't know how to make friends, so where do I start? I live in a somewhat big city, but it leans somewhat conservative, I do see queer people quite frequently here, but as far as I know there aren't that many events and being out is mostly frowned upon
BE BORING. SLEEP AT NIGHT. EAT LEAVES SOMETIMES.
