>when I was 14 mom stalked my twitter and asked me flat out if I'm lesbian, I said yeah>she told me no way and "she knows me better">19 now>any chance I get in those 5 years try to remind her I'm still lesbian, explain how I checked and i'm not attracted to guys, always bring it up when she tries to set me up with guys (and she often does)>home from college for summer>no friends in hometown>basically only talk to mom for two months >losing my sanity>there's this friend im in love with back in college city, depressed cause she doesn't seem to find me attractive, miss her>she was kinda touchy with me and really nice and making sexual/relationship jokes but cant tell if it means anything or is regular straight female camaraderie>still eats me alive but scared to ask and lose her>give up and vent to mom >"I have a crush but im ugly">"what did you expect you dont wear makeup you look like a child and dont flirt">"start wearing makeup dressing more sexily and tell him youre interested">"is it [male bff]?">no mom its a girl>"oh then you're hopeless. all girls are straight. i feel so bad for you since your dating pool is nonexistent">cant even argue cause its fucking true>in eastern europe theres no such shit as "lesbian bars" or whatev im already a freak in college im gonna die alone>"would be so much easier if you tried men anonette">yeah mom it would >like genuinelynow I ropeI hate the "wlw" culture I hate lesbianism I hate this braiding each other's hair shit. theres nothing good about this i wish I was straight so I could just fuck men and get validation from that but I don't even get hatecrimed I get nothing at all. useless numb retarded disgusting carpet muncher life. I want a space to vent about how much it sucks being a lesbian but all subreddits are about how awesome and valid wuhluhwuh is when its a fucking psyop. im a laughingstock to my family. they dont understand why i choose to be miserable and I dont either.
>>44347066Kiss your friend бoлбoёб
>>44347144nnnnoppppeeeee she doesnt like me like that i know
>>44347066Ugly ones*
>>44347166you're not wrong
>>44347161KISSHER
lesbians are raping me + kiss your friend
Dykes deserve to have the bottoms of their feet cut off.
>>44347320ill rope if she rejects me, ive loved her for three years, i wont live otherwise but thank you for allowing me to be delusional for a sec. it's дoлбoёб btw
>>44347066Is there a type of a guy you could imagine being into? I have a couple of friends who are bi, but they're into like very few guys and mostly into girls.
>>44347421nope, none unfortunatelyi only envy some guys i find handsome
>>44347399It sounds like she likes you as is nona and you have to live before you can truly die.
>>44347399>it's дoлбoёб btwI made a typo mbalso I'm sorry I shouldn't have called you that I was just annoyed because you sounded like a brainwormed larper but now I see you're genuine and I want to see you succeed and be happyyou shouldn't kiss your friend as a surprise but you should ask her if she feels the way she jokes about but for realif she says yes then you can kiss herif she says no then you can play it off like you didn't think she was and it was silly for her to joke about it
>>44347523awe it's okay thank you it's a tricky situation because i'm afraid of scaring her off. i know almost certainly that if i ask her she'll say she doesn't mean it (either that or i don't know her at all). she doesn't like relationships, used to identify as aroace back in high school. since then she's pointed out to me a few men and women she found attractive. i asked, so are you bi? she replied she didn't like labels and talking about it. i want to respect this, i truly do, so i don't ask, but man the things she does to me kill me. holding my hand while we stroll and putting her legs over mine at the cinema, I dont know what to make of this. and im yearning too hard to cut it off for my own good. there was this cringe thing where she'd "lean in for a kiss" like ive seen her do with her other girlfriends and ask me why i wouldn't do the same and go along with the joke. i said i didnt find it funny. she makes all sorts of weird exceptions for me. (she stayed for my birthday party when she Doesn't Attend Parties and previously insisted she'd hand the gift and go.) i don't want to...give myself too much credit? by assuming she's got internalized homophobia. but im lowkey hoping for it cause im desperate.
>>44347497such beautiful words thank you i hope i get to live
>>44347066>Eastern EuropeYikes, sorry nona
>>44347989thanks<3 its eastern Ukraine honestly should have bigger things to worry bout
>>44348022That's gotta be scary
>>44348083eh, sorta. used to it but one grim thing that impressed me lately was how all gas stations on the highway from my city to the nearest were destroyed by killer drones. there are almost no rockets anymore just drones from iran
>>44347868learn to like being edged
>>44347066lmao im a gay guy and my mom’s the same way
>>44348134Grim, stay safe.
>>44348662im almost thereat least it makes me feel something
>>44347066What you've described is what every goon retard tranny on this board dreams of.
>>44348022then you're better off as a lesbian
>>44348790it's infinitely better than being hated but the fucking "i feel sorry for you" like im some poor idiot gets me every time. stay safe dude
>>44348841ty I will, you too
>>44347066your mom's kind of a bitch sorry
>>44349021nah she is. she used to try convince me im attracted to boys cause she "saw me reacting to their presence", infinitely fucked me over. i try not to react to her slop now
