i miss you so much, and somehow i miss you more and more each day. i miss talking to you. i miss giving you gifts. i miss the time we got to spend together. i would give anything to experience that again. i wish i had treated you better. i wish i had done more for you when i had the chance. the sorrow i feel about losing you has consumed my world completely. even on the brightest, warmest day, the air is still cold and the sky is still cloudy. i miss you my sunshine. i love you more than anything in the world. i hope you're okay.

I wish you understood that you are good enough for me. You're all I ever wanted and I wouldn't leave you for anyone. I wish you could see yourself the way I saw you, because if you could you would finally get that I won't ever let you go.

>>44381835
it was nice knowing you

I'm gonna put myself out there one more time and ask you out.

sneed.

dear chaser

...

ur cute but i domt like u ticxklin my grickle... pls

>>44381927
Reading this and wishing it were for me. T~T I know it's not but maybe it'll make my dreams better tonight.

>>44381835
dear denpa i would like to be your friend

>>44381835
I'm so sorry for what happened. It was late and I was drunk. I woke in a daze and needed to poop badly. I found a large hole and let rip thinking it was the toilet.

No way to sugar coat it twas I who shat in your cunt. I filled that gash with my hot ash.

just relapse and message me.

I miss the fighting

you were wrong. i am not special at all. i give up.

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Im so sorry. You were the best friend ive ever had. Ever. You were endlessly kind, gentle, and patient with me while still being such an amazing person. And I hurt you. I didnt mean to. I really really didnt. I love you. I love you so much it hurts. And that immense feeling made me so scared to hurt you. I hid early deceptions I made that were initially just a larp meant to make people feel desired, especially once I understood your history and trauma, because I was afraid it would hurt you... and when it finally came out, it did. I hid all of my weird, twisted, compulsive thoughts away on a part of the Internet I thought you wouldnt see because I was afraid that if I let them fester in my heart they might bubble up in harmful ways... and then you found them and they hurt you anyways.
I didnt mean any of those things in that way, but fuck if I cant prove it. Im not ogling you and treating you like an object when Im with you - most of the time Im lost in your beautiful eyes and your wonderful smile or entranced with our conversations or... Im not scheming to break your family up, I would never wish to see you suffer - I just had moments where I was so so mad and had nowhere to put that anger... i didnt think of you like a slut who was trying to coax me, I was weaving a stupid wistful story to people who knew neither of us and was never meant to be heard outside of those spaces. It was all dumb stupid sapphic yearning in a space that shouldnt have ever impacted either of us and yet it did and Im so sorry.
Im not evil
I dont view you as anything gross like that
I love you and I never wanted to hurt you. I promised I would never hurt you and I fucking mean it and I still mean it.
(1/2)

(2/2)
This past week - maybe the first of many - of no contact has ripped my soul absolutely to shreds. I miss you so much, I miss the good mornings and good nights and good lucks. I miss the little updates about your day. I miss the long walks in the evenings. I miss the passionate rambling about your hobbies and the things you loved. I miss the glint in your eye when you were excited. I miss watching you play with the kids. I miss the way youd lean your head on my shoulder, or how youd sit so close, or hook your arm around mine, or grasp my hand. I miss stroking your cheek to get your attention and the way you'd smile. I miss the teasing and the little shoves and little slaps. I miss the tiny little "yay" when I picked you up sometimes. I miss the little hums youd do or the way you would just start singing... GODS I miss listening to you sing, I could sit wrapped up in your song until my soul turned to dust. I miss gaming with you. I miss the smiles, from the goofy grin you snap sometimes to that contented smile I saw sometimes when you seemed truly happy. I miss the ways we danced, twirling each other to greater emotional heights. I miss... you. You became an integral part of my life and I knew the entanglement couldnt go on forever, but I didnt want our very friendship to just stop.
Im lost without you. Its heartbreak like Ive never experienced in my entire life. Please dont let this be forever.

I wish you would let me know you. To get close. Maube that's just not what you want of me, but I don't just wanna be another one of your fangirls. I want you to be happy. I want to make you happy, but it feels like you purposefully keep me at a distance. It's not like I could ever replace her. If she wasn't good enough for you to deal with the distamce, why would you deal with it for me? I wish I could just tell you my feelings, but I think if I did that, I just wouldn't be in your life anymore. I want to be good for you. I love everything you do. Everything you do feels like you really care about it and I'd love to help you realize every dream. You're so amazing and it seems like you don't think so at all. Please, at least, treat me as a friend you can confide in and not just a groupie or something. Maybe I did it to myself by endlessly loving everything you create, but I just do. It's so sincere and so you. I think I love you. And I think you can never see me the same way. I think that you would hate me sooner than that. I think you don't even think about me hard enough to actually hate me. You'll probably just go for someone who you can actually see in person. Hopefully not someone who hurts you again. I cried last time. Npt because it wasn't me, but because seeing you sad is somehow worse than seeing you want someone like I want you to want me. I wish you could just see me
-C

>>44382695
no thanks

My girlfriend trooned out ten years before me

I wonder if you still think about us like I do. To think that my memories are the last remnants of a time that failed to linger is pretty scary. Maybe the both of us didn’t exist but in my head, and are forever meant to be this way. If you do still care, you were my greatest friend and the person who spoiled any other love for me.

I miss you, and hope all your dreams come true.

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Go fuck yourself; I resent needing to lie to you to protect myself; you’re a psychotic cunt who will never reproduce because you’re an awful awful person; I did absolutely nothing wrong and am the only reason you’re still alive or employed; I will feel nothing but relief when you die and so will everyone that’s ever known you. You’re garbage. You were born garbage and will die garbage. I don’t even believe the way you are now is from the drugs anymore. You were always like this. Fuck you. I wish hell was real.

>>44383847
I hope you heal from whatever this person did to you. Really hoping for the best. You deserve to be loved and to be happy

I'm glad you left. I felt trapped by our relationship because I was lying to myself when I said that I was attracted to you. I was just too spineless to say anything. The reason I cried wasn't because we were over, it was because I had to learn how to function again after being forced to be a full time maid. The only thing I resent you for, is you pushing us to get married when I wasn't ready. I won't miss you.

Please let me die in my sleep tonight

I'm so sad that you gave up on me. I wish that I could have been more important for you. I wish that you would care about me

A part of me will always miss you and your comics. Sometimes I still hear you. Sometimes I still see you.

Yet I know now more than ever we can't be together.

I'm just happy I no longer cry when I experience those things from our past.

>>44381835
Comit,
I hope you're okay. I don't know if I was on HRT when we talked. I do want to get back in touch with you.

Luna,
It'd be funny if you're out here. I'm a prettier bitch than you could ever hope to be - and frankly, that's why I came out. Fuck you lol

Seth
I miss you. I hope you're doing good. You'll always have a place in my heart.

>>44381835
L

I found it really cute that you tried to gaslight my brother into believing we only went to gaybars every weekend just to hang out with our mutual gay friends, but I have told you many times that I basically raised him, he knows me, but thanks anyway.

>>44384520
cute

>>44381835
I think if I saw you I would freak out and worry you'd attack me again
I don't want to repeat the cringe gundam line but like not even my father hit me, and unlike you I wasn't in the crowd that got into fights so like being punched for the first time was probably the most scared for my life I've ever been.

I checked your xitter and all you've done since you attacked me is beg for pussy online and suibait I hope you're happy doing that.

I kinda wanna apologise for what I said but like deep down I know you needed to hear it
you're a gross person and you view other trans women as "competition" and afabs as meat you can use for sex and reproduction. It was so embarrassing being with you when you sexually harass non passing transmascs in public
I think it's gross when cis men like Elon musk do the whole white replacement theory shit and it doesn't make it less gross when you do it. it's even worse when you make fun of me for not being able to produce biological children with the people I date when you always tell me how hot and degrading it is to be called a "ladyboy" and "eunuch"

anyways my parents are freaking out because they think you took some keys from my place so we're having the locks changed.


you're on the same life path as the father you claim to hate so much and you're going to fuck up the lives of your children you want so much in the same way
if you're ok attacking me who knows what you're going to be like raising autistic kids off benefits

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>>44383907
Thanks I appreciate that

sup g,
hope you doin fine. you're the man.
love,
anon

You're a fucking cunt, you deserve to die, you ought to be killed. You refuse to let me die and instead of giving me a good existence, you torture me day after day after day.
Fuck you, give me death right now.

>>44384334
cosigned

You were always so kind and gentle and patient, putting up with my weird moods and everything. You always looked for ways to better yourself, you were always optimistic and trying, even at your lowest. I regret that I didn't stay the first night we met, I regret leaving, and I regret not staying again in that hotel room. I know we both want time to hurry up and do its thing so we can be back in each other's beds, but if I'm honest, I'm scared by the time we talk again, you'll not want to come back and try again.

You know, you were the first person I ever felt safe to speak up and mention when something bothered me or something was going on - the rest of my life, I've just swallowed it and accepted that "sometimes you just gotta put up with shit". You never made me feel like I was "putting up" with anything. We always felt like a team, working together. I like being on your team. You were a cheerleader, a coach, the MVP of every damn match.

It's going to be a long few months, and even if you decide that's it and we shouldn't try again, know that my life is better for having met you. If nothing else, you showed me that healthy love is possible.

J

I dreamt you texted me that you missed me.
Then I woke up and cried. You dont miss me.

i love u so much i love u so much i love u so much i love u. please

>>44381835
I'm sorry mom, please don't be sad. I wanted this, you have nothing todo with this. I left a price on every valuable item I own, just sell that junk. I love you.

>>44386892
why don't you text them?

>>44387043
don't

L
There's a genuine chance you might read this, I hope you do. I did straight up lie to you the other day, when you asked if I was doing injections. I was scared because you used to say you'd leave me if I was doing hrt. I know you probably actually wouldn't but I froze up and said no because I cannot live without you. The fact that I've lied to the only person I've ever loved has been raping my mind. I feel horrible about it, and I will tell you the truth soon. I understand if you will be upset but please do not hate me for it, I need you. Also I know you're a fucking repper. At least, you sure as hell act like one. I remember all the sus shit you said to me all those years ago. Maybe if you aren't too upset you can do it with me.
Your love, D

>>44384800
yeah man
you can't trust afabs.

>>44381835
U
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>>44387046
Not friends anymore. No-minimal contact. It's my fault. Part of my wishes she missed me. She probably does, desu, but she doesn't want to.

>>44388698
I wish my ex missed me

>>44389201
Not my ex, just my best friend. I dont care if any of my exes miss me, they were all bastards to me ultimately.

>>44385326
what did they do?

>>44390848
They created all that exists and forced me into existence, and when I tried to end it they couldn't even allow me that and put a cosmic barrier between me and nonexistence

>>44391499
bro just accept Jesus

>>44386928
what are you, gay or somethin?

>>44391549
A dead jew is not an acceptable apology from God, you can fuck off right now with that shit.
I'm not a Christian, I renounce my baptism, fuck the Nazarene, hail Satan.

dear c****,

i miss you. i still do. why did it have to end this way? if only i knew how to held back my feelings; now it just feels like i shouldn't have met you at all. i hope you're still doing well. you & **** deserved better, & i'm sorry i couldn't be a good friend to either of you. i'm not a good person & i know you think i'm not either. i should've never tried to be your friend in the first place. nonetheless, i wish you well, & i hope we don't have to cross paths ever again.

Dear Santa
I want a Switch 2

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Dear M,
I doubt you even browse this board, I doubt you'll ever see this, but the fact I'm writing this proves I still hold out hope. Maybe I should let it go, but I can't.

You are sitting there in my instagram dms, but I am so afraid to be the first person to chat again. That's how it ended, after all: you stopped talking to me around the time you were about to move back out here, out of your parents home, where you seemed to have all this weight on your back, this burden of your parents and their expectations. I remember texting that you were like a bird sleeping in a cage with the door wide open. I don't even know if you read all that shit I said. Part of me wishes I never had texted so much. Part of me wishes you would have responded to any of it at all. You only ever texted me back once I contacted your best friend/ex, and you were very upset with me for that. But know this: I only did it because I cared so much about you. I figured you'd never speak to me again, that you'd keep me in your back pocket. You didn't delete me, didn't block me--that would provide at least some closure. No, instead you just kept me added without ever responding to me. I went crazy for that, texting you nonstop. I regret that, but really, your silence did that to me. I figured you might never speak to me ever again, so I reached out to the one person you said you *would* attempt to date someday again. You said that to me, to the person who you had already had such intimate conversations with, who told you they loved you--perhaps too soon. I never say that lightly to anyone. I don't even say it to my own mom anymore. I said it to you, and I said so much more to you than i ever did to my ex. Sometimes I catch myself thinking of the both of you, one after the other, I would have picked you. I did, actually. I finally said my goodbyes to my ex, and I felt rather content with that. I've never felt content with how things ended between us.
1/2

>>44391600
why do you want to die/not exist?

2/?
>>44391880
Forgive me as well for this message. Its sporadic, stream of consciousness, but also I know there's a part of you that is so upset when people talk of your ills out loud.

Please understand me: I am terrified to reach out to you. I am terrified of the idea that you would reject me outright at this point, that you do not miss me, that the damage I did was enough. Perhaps I should, to have that closure.

Please understand the damage I did as well. I only reached out to B*** because, well, I figured you were done with me. Discarded me like you had already warned me you had with so many others. I remember how you told me you never wanted to do that to me. I know that wasn't a lie. It's hard for any of us to fight our nature. But I reached out to him because I loved you. I knew you'd never speak to me again, and someone had to know what you were doing, what had happened, someone who you'd never attempt to leave or disconnect from--your favorite person. I told him. He told me you'd done this to him already--years ago. That gave me second hand closure, and I wonder what happened between you and him after. Perhaps I fucked it all up for everyone involved, but it was right to do. You couldnt hold onto them like that forever in your back pocket. I did that with my ex, and its a terrible thing to do to another person, it reduced mine to an object, a last ditch effort if no one else were around.

In some ways you were right to disconnect from me. I am a horribly intrusive person--I know that of myself. I am terribly lonely as well, and you giving me what I wanted to hear helped so much, and attached me so heavily to you. We never even met in real life. You ditched our plans to get coffee that final week before your job. We only really knew each other for a month and a half.
You can't deny, however, that inherent pull between us. You let me know so much of you just through dms and voice chatter.

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>>44392002
3/3
You wanted what you were used to: a quick sex meetup, maybe in your car or a motel room. I wanted to hold you, kiss you, let you know physically that someone wanted the real you, and that you were okay. You with all your flaws and your past, and all your weight--you were enough, far more than enough.
Limerence is a funny thing, you know. You get so caught up in the idea of a person that you never see the real person. When you became a statue that never spoke back to me, I saw the real you and it burned me. I felt heartbroken, lost, it pulled me apart and I never came back together again fully. And then I sat with that, tried all sorts of combinations of words and ideas to get you to talk to me again, and then one day I just gave up. I found that despite what you did to me there, despite all your flaws, I still loved you. So I let you go. If you really cared, you would come back to me and give me the time of day.
You haven't. You did it once to tell me how upset you were I had contacted your ex. I discarded you in that moment because everything in my life was falling apart in that moment. So be it. We were both upset by this outcome. And now we are silent again. Such is life. You took something from me, of me, and I so desperately want it back from you, or to pick up the pieces and start over again, and see if something is still there, because I am filled with hope. I put so much effort into myself during and after our time together and I can't not associate that to you. I want you, even to this day, and I will think about you often, for a long, long time. Until I meet someone who fills that gap the way you did. Please reach out to me before then. I don't want to break your heart. I don't want to break mine either by being the first to reach out. That's how things ended, after all: I was always the one to reach out to you. All the way to the end.
Forever thinking of you,
J

Threw all of my hormones away today.

I am glad you broke up. I would have broken up with you myself if I weren't such a pussy that is scared of hurting people he cares about. We never should have dated again. I just went along with the flow after you begged me to take you back. You were such a mental burden that I felt a rush of pure bliss when you broke up. I'm sorry that I couldn't even pretend to be sad for you. This is the only breakup I've been through where I've felt zero sadness. Good luck in life. You will do well if you focus up, so please do.

>>44388358
It was a cisscrote but ok weirdo

I think of what I would even say were we to chit-chat again, would we go through the usual back and forth and fizzle in a month or something different. It'd be the sixth time maybe, and as funny as it is I prefer a bit more stability or rules of engagement for behind the curtain, but i've said that in plain phrase before so maybe the overstepp of boundary on either side is the fun for you? Or maybe I'm just crazy and you're just some two-faced weird girl who doesn't into relationships because you don't understand the signals you're "obviously shooting off". I really do wish you were older than me because then I could feel comfortable leaning on you, there's always give and take remember, it does make it more boring to not be bickering with a childish hag(affectionate(any woman older than me)). Thankfully you keep yourself repellent enough with your male attitude to turn you away at the front door. But oh I sigh wistfully at the thought of you knocking again. I like Him ya know, and that's why you two can't work cause you're too alike. It's distressing.
Please never be a memory

>>44382230
ikr ima kms now

>>44382230
same dawg. same

i really wish you would have just admitted you were wrong, you used me, led me on for years, made me fall in love, then dropped me when i was mu most vulnerable. I only hate you because you refuse to change or apologize or admit you did anything wrong. I felt love when you came over, we stared into eachothers eyes, planned for the future, held hands and kissed in public, teased calling eachother babe and whatnot... like i will truly never get why you switched up so fast and ghosted me... I know for a fact, even though you deny it to this day, you really did like me and wanted to date, you said you loved me, and you had a crush on me.., you always had me as the backup when you got bored of everyone else, i was like your secret toy always in the background you hid everything from, and never told anyone about. Im not stupid. I knew you were talking to other people.. i just wanted to be closer... you were always so distant, ignoring me.. i just wanted to actually be companions, talk more, i would have flown in and hang out all the time... life could have been amazing. Im sorry things ended the way they did... you're just an extremely stubborn baka loser... I still love you... and ill still always be there for you if you decide to come back.

I dread the fact that you were the first person on which I was with semi-relationship terms with, however brief it may have been. Because what you did to my already battered psyche is still taking its toll 6 years later. I met you while i was in a very vulnerable state, admired you and your unconventional worldview. I saw you and treated you like you were superior to me in every single way.

and yet you decided to trample on me and my feelings. you hurled insults to me at every chance you were given. you saw me as subhuman and treated me as such. i envied you and you spat on my very existence.

even though i was at the time (and probably still lol) the only person who put efforts into being an actual friend.

i visited you so many times and asked nothing in return despite your limitless resources and yet you were still an ungrateful piece of shit.

i could make some crude remark about how youre deserving of a horrible fate, but that's not even necessary because nobody wants to get along with conceited sociopaths like you. everything that you had to endure is karma at its finest and i hope you perish being a miserable, lonely loser.

i should have cut you out of my life after all the abuse i had to go through but instead i kept you around for years. i know to treat myself better now so rest assured we won't be seeing each other again

what are you supposed to do when someone writes about you

>>44394254
cry, make amends.

>>44394254
Which anon wrote about you??

>>44394285
this reply was typed with anxious and crossed fingers

>>44394254
Ignore it or write shit back

to no one,
no.
no regards,
aNonymous

>>44394285
i do not want to say but i think there's been several

>>44391816
>>44394312
santa... i'm on to you...

>>44394312
u got me thinking, i wonder how many people samefag in these threads. how many strangeos are just trying to seed shit in others or bait engagement?

>>44394327
do you ever wonder how many people you know are here? it's a small world

>>44394348
yeah, generally rather not think about it tho

>>44381835
A,

I really doubt you've ever used this board. I wish it wasn't the case I've had no contact with you, or any of your friends, for about two years now. Sometimes I try and search for usernames you've used online, or try and find your past friends, just in the hopes I could at least know you're alive. It's pathetic of me to continue caring about you really, but it's a caring that's persisted even as I've gone through other relationships. I still hold onto that childish fantasy that perhaps one day I'll do a book signing, or give a conference talk, and see you in the audience. To even know that you'd glanced upon my name in a bookstore would be nice. I'd still like to have kids with you. M said you were doing much better when I spoke to her three years ago; I hope that's still true.

D

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>>44394312
Ive definitely left several messages here, but if it were me, you wouldnt even have to ask.
>>44394254
Context dependent. Was it something yearnful, something hateful, heartbreak, etc? Id personally call them out, but if you feel like youre in a spot where you absolutely cant, maybe not. Alternatively you could try to offer them helpful anonymous advice to nudge them in the right direction if theyre someone you care about.
True chaos mode would be to write your own letter about them without addressing them at all, har har har

bump

>>44394541
Having reread the thread, there's also definitely a couple of messages that could read as me but definitely arent. Beware of vagueposters, everyone is yearning these days.

i would really really love it if the basque stopped sucking that jew on a stick's cock and adopted neopagan values and became independent from france and spain but you faggots are as glued to the holey circumcised clitty as the jew is to the stick

>>44394312
Is it a good thing?

>>44394254
Double down on who you are, fuck them, they're not you.

I hope we run back into eachother for the rest of our lives, you know me better than anyone I’ve ever met and despite what I say I think about you more than I let on, you mean the world to me and if you asked I’d drop everything for you, sorry I couldn’t be a better friend

>>44397830
I wish this was about me. :[

I’m sorry for blocking you out of nowhere, j. I wish I could apologize to you but I doubt you would wanna hear from me. I hope you're doing well. You probably are, you were always the prettier one anyways

>>44398603
you should try all the same, you cant control whether they'd accept the apology or not, but i wouldn't doubt it'd be good to get off your chest, and to hear it, i know i'd want to.
t. a different j, perhaps.

>>44397852
Maybe it is

>>44397852
i pray these are :( sigh

hey s,

you said you don't go on the board anymore, but maybe you'll see this. i miss being your friend. i still can't believe i met you. i can't believe how happy i felt with you. you said before that you saw me like a little sister. i could really use a big sis right now. i know it's been a long time and our last memory together wasn't a happy one. but i'm ready when you are, okay?

m

>>44402341
can u add a bit more detail about who ur talking about this could be me maybe..

>>44402367
i saw someone playing 3rd strike the other day and it made me think of her

i love you so fucking much j

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I hate you and find it super fucking weird that you tend to post online right after I do

>>44398603
Probs isn’t aimed towards me but as someone who’s had this exact scenario, I’d forgive you. And hope you’re doing well too

>>44402391
>>44399443
>>44398603
>>44385531
>>44391880
too many fucking js in this bitch. can't tell who i'm vaguing or who is vaguing me anymore

>>44402422
maybe

>>44401192
Dont give me hope like that. Im falling apart without her. Q~Q

I've grown alot since back then and honestly I wish I could tell you how fucking wrong that was. I was way too fucking forgiving.

>>44402617
Another J here its driving me crazy.

>>44402993
I spoke to my person about it. I reached out to her, she saw the post, we ironed it out more or less.

There's hope out there, fellow J

Dear nigger, I fuckin hate you, you're the worst person I've ever seen. I wish you death from a cancer and hope your entire family will die and everything you love will turn into shit, and then gets better after your death.

I wish I had added you in any social media website so I could check on you and know if you’re doing well but knowing how elusive you were with all your different accounts I doubt you’re the kind of person to post much.
The thought of maybe talking again some day is nice though, we could get boba and I’d ask you how you’ve been all these years.

i see these threads and involuntarily feel a lurch in my gut, reading through looking for your thoughts among the sea of woe. yet i never find them, only those which i wish could be you. is it time to move on? it feels impossible, the time i’ve now spent without out you in my life has spanned five times that spent with you. neither of us were in anything close to a stable position, the opposite of functional, anxiety ridden and insincere. but when it was just you and me i knew there was so much more. i’ve never met anyone like you s, i think about you almost everyday. not to yearn for that traumatic experience we all shared but for the moments in between, with you and your guitar and a friend like i’ve never thought i could have. despite it all, despite likely never getting to see you again, i don’t regret it. i don’t regret how it started, and i hope you don’t either. i wish i had realized at the time just how special you really are. im trying to find the path, and i hope that when i do you’ll be there

i wish you had the balls to go through with it like you said you would
thanks for nothing asshole
i still love you though