how far have u made it 3 years since first starting hrt, for me i was>on a hondose for 3 months>doctors refuse bloods, parents catch me and threaten me, get bad brain fog>rep again for 1.5 years cuz i was still unsure if i was even trans atp>go back on hrt>get 0 changes on what would be a normal dose for most troons>finally get changes on a super high dose for like 2 months>caught by my parents again, they're more chill this time but want me to go to therapy instead of transitioning >refuse therapy because it's not what i need>pisses them off>come out to my siblings behind their backs because I didn't want them speaking over me or influencing things>they're upset at the news and tell my parents and I'm threatened w homelessness if i dare come out to my friends or girlmode, and my sisters make us all pretend it never happened >forced to go from diy to a clinic>clinic delays initial appointment >run out of diy>wait 3 weeks for my gp only for them to refuse again even tho it's a clinic cuz it's private?!?>wait 4 weeks for 2nd appointment >meanwhile my parents sign me up for a psychologist to "help me discover myself">find out it's a fucking terf yt channel running conversion therapist>wait 2 weeks for email to confirm address for prescription >waiting another 2 weeksit's been 3 years since i started hrt and i have had maybe 2 months of breast growth that has reversed since i was forced back off hrt, no other changes. i thought I'd be girlmoding at the start of college originally, then i thought the half way point recently, now we're over halfway through and the only ppl I'm out to hate me for it, i go to conversion therapy, when I'm back on hrt it'll be another hondose that gives me no changes. every other troon is a different person 3 years in, I'm at fucking square one. soz for the sob story but i just fucking hate my retarded self for being the worst person at transitioning ever. i feel I'm going crazy, I have 0 control or agency in my life
>>44399297makes me wonder why do cis people have to be such cunts
Get a job, any job, or seek trans shelters. Rip off your parents and siphon as much money off them as possible before leaving. They are ruining your life and nothing is worth staying with them
lol funny picture
>>44399549second this.
>>44399297At least youre not as bad like me anon>>44393760
>>44399396i don't know >>44399549idk i still love them but it does feel this way, i think I'm just scared to let go. and they do provide for me, I'm working but i still live w them for now, I'm hoping to save up enough to be able to move out by January hopefully in a way such that they don't realise it's to escape them because yeah they pay for my college and housing is expensive asf here>>44400072I've had it used in reply to me so many times cuz my body unironically looks somewhat like it>>44401469nona, I'm so sorry that sounds like an awful experience :(
>>44402404it's depths of horrors a lot of souls probably have sui over
>>44399297 whats the yt channel i wanna laugh at it
>>44402475i won't say cuz like idk I don't want it to somehow get back to him or he gets harassed cuz of me and then i get in trouble somehow and get kicked out idk I'm v anxious atp
You're right, that is a lame sob story.
>>44402404>idk i still love themthen fuck you, cuckEnjoy the body they molded you into
anon can you at least post my thread too I don't have redditt. 10 years manmoding>>44393760
>>44403505I'm trying to learn not to it's just fucking hard idk it's fucking weird it shouldn't be like this>>44403553sure ig why not make ur own tho how do u see mine there but not have one??
>>44403584You should get back on HRT ASAP !!! And make an exit plan to rip off your parents, stop letting testosterone rape you
>>44403584redlib instances.I don't maintain a reddit account.I just don't want to make one just to be hit by age/karma requirements
>>44403620I'll be back on it w my shitty hondose clinic v soon tho I've been saying that for 2 months now so...don't want to no contact my parents cuz they're rich and on some level i still love them/want their love, I'm hoping to move out come January under the guise of just wanting to move out for college, issue is my sister goes to the same college so if i try honmode there i could get ratted>>44403634ah fair enough I'll do it there soon
>>44403804thankies anon i appreciate it now there would be three shitty threads now
>>44403933ok it's done
>>44404387tysm anon, have a bump as a grateful gesture
>>44403804Retarded faggot just DIY already
>>44406196i alr did and got caught I'm just gonna go to the clinic to appease until i can move out
bump
>>44407001Really think you should open your electrical outlet and hide your vials there
>>44408984i mean the vials r easy but it's all the injection supplies and idk it just doesn't feel worth the risk atp esp cuz I just feel certain I'd be dumb enough to get caught again
>>44411919Can you buy single syringes with fixed needles at your local pharmacy?I assume you can just buy isoprophyl rubbing alcohol without suspicion.If so, here's what I used to do.I would buy syringe at day of injection, then lock myself in my room or toilet or I did once at public toilet, then wet a tissue with the alcohol, disinfect and inject. Afterwards I would buy a drink with a glass bottle at the bodega, then bin the needle inside the glass bottle then bin the glass bottle in the proper refuse, the plastic syringe can go into the usual refuse bin.
>>44399396I think they just don't have much empathy to begin with really :<
>>44411938I'm not sure i can get those injection supplies at the pharmacy there might be like one of those drugs harm reduction places nearby tho? my main concern would just be yeah disposal, nothing in glass bottles here rly
>>44414756uh basically the rationale with glass bottles is thatif someone get to pulverize it, like it will be equally as dangerous as a used needle, so hopefully whoever handled the glass refuse would take care of not cutting themselves.in that case maybe cans would do for you?in my place you can get fixed syringes from the pharmacy, but what I am going to drill into your head is sometimes you have to swallow your pride and ask anyways.damned if you do not do it (you won't get needles and left wondering what if you had the courage to ask for needles) with an upside that you now know how to get needles.t. 10 years still have to figure shit out
