is this the only way for a midshit twinkhon to "live"?
>>44401635HRT fixed my dissociation and I would never want to go back lol
>>44401751same, when i wasnt dissociating in school i used to just put my head down and try to zone out until it was over or just sit on the floor and stare into space
Dissociating feels great
the problem is dissociation is only good if you do it in the right way
>>44401635yeah the issue with this is that i see real people and go "fuck why can't i be like that" and then eventually interfacing with said real people caused the whole facade to shatter. if you live away from society it's probably gas tho
>>44401635Dissociation is how I navigate through life as a repper/cis man with tocd.
idk how to explain it but theres a action focused dissociation and a self focused dissociationany amount of like political hope or madoka complex (desire to save other trannies) will over time make dissociation worse in quality
>>44401635Dissociation is pseudo life. Life begins when you realise your body is not an interface, but is you, a big janky machine of which your brain is just a part. What puts you into the world and the world into you. There is no other way and you're gonna make it nona.
when not dissociating i feel overwhelming dread, I wonder if it is possible to fix, but i dont really care, as long as stay out i never feel the effects
noe life is a mirage, i do wonder what death will be like tho
>>44401635I am an instrument of god (hirler)
>>44401858>>44401893>>44401635>>44401914>>44402006that's not dissociating you niggerdissociation is an extremely horrible feeling that no one who has actually experienced it wants to go through again. It's feeling your reality 24/7 is wrong, like living hell and seeing life through some kind of glass. It's like borderline having schizophrenia but being aware something's wrong with you or your surroundings.Its not some discord depression e-boy mood, fuck off. I actually went through this trash cause of drugs and I'm not going to let anyone make light of my suffering
>>44402127>Its not some discord depression e-boy mood, fuck off.You're actually so far up your own ass that you don't understand what they're saying. They're saying dissociating as in lowering inhibitions and disconnecting from their actions. Not drug induced overthinking.
>>44402127>specifically as bad as it can get before the diagnosis i consider to debilitate your sense of knowing how bad things arei have never understood why autists get favored over schizos
>>44401635i started feeling better when i started thinking the opposite. that i’m not some vague ethereal being trapped around a mortal prison but a pretty simple flesh robot that can be made to be happy by pressing the happy buttons and not pressing the sad buttons.
>>44401635>marina avatarChecks out.
>>44402127>>44402146Not drug induced overthinking or dissociation, it’s derealization and something else entirely
>>44401635How do I know if I'm genuinely dissociating. I've felt like an observer for a decade and can't imagine that not being normal
>>44402127i feel like that but i think it's from over-stimulation or something like everything giving you a visceral repulsion >>44402146>lowering inhibitionsnever feel this more like other way around then again i'd need to know the context
>>44401635people will pathologize every way of feeling good and then wonder why they don't feel good except when they are sick in their head, crazy
>>44402127yeah so i have definitely dissociated and it feels great. stfu at least it made my boring life interesting
>>44402596idk is there a psychiatrist near u
>>44404668>>44404652>it feels greatthat's a new one
