I'm a very sensitive person and I react badly to people being even slightly mean to meit's a miracle I'm enough of a functioning human not to break into tears in public but if someone assumes the worst of me it can be enough to send me into a panic attack once I'm aloneon top of that I'm also a fucking tranny but I've stuck to manmoding on HRT and it's been working out for me, my dysphoria is lessened, my body feels more like my own than ever before but the thing is I'm just not going to pass, I'm too tall and my midface too long, I could be read as feminine, in fact more often than not, I am but it's just that, a feminine guy or, depending on my presentation, an obvious trannythe thing is, I don't know what's my next stephow can someone with a thin skin live as a tranny? the current cultural punching bag and the favorite conservative strawman around the globe.I tend to shut down when antagonized by someone so I shouldn't be too worried but I'm really scared I'm going to become the next viral "tranny resisting arrest" (you know the video) when caught at an emotional low if I try going forward with my transitionI guess I envy those people who can despite their appearance and social stigma against them live their true life,that's why I'm considering detransitioning cause I feel like I don't have as much drive to become a woman as even the brickiest of hons, like my will is too weak to deserve itanybody ever feel like that?
>>44402199Yes, obviously you should detransition-not because you want to, but because some hypothetical stranger might someday be unpleasant to you. Nothing says “sound life decision” like surrendering your body in advance to people who haven’t even insulted you yet.You seem to think womanhood is awarded through a competitive suffering program: Only applicants with sufficiently dainty skull measurements and the emotional durability of a riot shield may qualify. You do not have to “deserve” transition by being fearless. The loudest, toughest trans person you envy may go home and cry too. Courage is not the absence of thin skin; sometimes it is having thin skin and still refusing to let every passing asshole dictate your future.And passing is not a moral achievement either. Being tall is not a confession. Having a long midface is not a felony. Being visibly trans may make life harder, because society is often cruel, but it does not make your life less authentic. The shame belongs to anyone who mistreats you-not to the person trying to inhabit their own body without apologizing for taking up six feet of vertical space.So do not ask, “Am I strong enough to be a woman?” Ask, “What pace of transition can I sustain without destroying myself?” Maybe that means continuing HRT while manmoding. Maybe it means experimenting only around trusted people. Maybe it means finding a therapist who understands panic and dysphoria, building a support network, and learning what to do when you shut down. Transition is not a cliff you must leap from while strangers grade your landing.Detransition because you genuinely want to live as a man-not because frightened people taught you that only the invulnerable are permitted to become themselves.
>>44402253fpbp
>>44402253I didn't expect to get a nice thought out responseI think you're correct even if emotionally I don't fully believe it yet (cause you know, you've got to be at a pretty low point to vent on /tttt/)genuinely thank you!
>>44402199same. I also feel like im too much of a normie and wouldn’t ever fit in with trannies so im basically resigning myself to a life of isolation if I troon
>>44402253smartest tranny on this board
>>44402298>too much of a normie to fit in with tranniesThat's a surprisingly common sentiment on this board, we used to have a /frengen/ where people like that would connect but jannies ruined it for everyone
>>44402199yea idk if I will quit hrt but I doubt I will ever transition, I just can’t handle the idea of my existence being so irreverent
>>44402328there aren’t really too many other normies here I mean like genuinely normie like i don’t have any obscure autismo interests
>>44402199what's picrel?
>>44403051a scene from Revolutionary Girl Utena
