>long enough time on hrt to see that ill still need ffs to pass>losing motivation to put in effort, losing motivation to do almost anything>shitty dead end job spinning my wheels>realizing no one will come to save. they will probably rape or leave me or both>barely any friends. i just float around people. hard to maintain relationships >my dreams will never come true. im just a failure>permanent tranny faceshould i just kill myself yall? i could see a therapist but if the conclusion i always come to is that i should die, whats the pointnot even a mental breakdown kind of sad. just an epiphany that im a fucking retard and should probably just die
>>44403118Nothing will improve on its own. You have to push your boundaries. Apply for a new job, look for apartments in a new city. Try to make an actual irl friend.
>>44403230doesnt help when anyone i try to befriend leaves me
If you can't get a better job to pay for ffs then yeah you should kys, sorry nona. Can't therapy away the dysphoria pain
>>44403257Yeah, that doesn't help. But it's a self fulfilling prophecy. When you're miserable and self hating, nobody wants to be around that. Getting a new job is probably the most realistic thing you can change that could have the biggest positive impact. If I were you, I'd focus on that.
