I don't know where else I can get advice on this, so here I am.I'm 27, mtf, hrt for almost 3 years. Supposed passoid. The tranny gene is real. My dad is John50. Narcissistic, racist, homophobe, transphobe, religious bigot, ex cop POS. Haven't seen him in almost 3 years. Occasional phone call now.We always knew there was something. He got caught with a wig once. Nobody wanted to think too much about it. We found a dildo in his apartment once, a few years later.When he was a teen, he had long beautiful hair. The story was always that it was to be more like the 80s rock bands... Always seemed like he was compensating in some way, hence all of the phobias. He wasn't all bad. He was loving in a way my mother never was. He was funny. He just gets worse every year.My transitioning ofc isn't helping. I represent his shame and simultaneously the life he wishes he had, possibly even fit a fetish he has.A sibling recently found a scrap of paper with "BBC Feminization" just written on it, with a spade drawing. Like... Any time he is confronted he just denies and gaslights. We all know at this point, but behave as if we don't. Small things like that have happened for years. Getting worse and more sloppy about hiding it.He was pretty heavy with the disrespect the first two years of my transition. He has come around the last 8 months so. We occasionally talk on the phone. Some calls are better than others. I miss having a father.Recently, I was considering having lunch with him and one of my siblings, but I just don't know. It feels like even in a public setting, I'm in danger. With the religion angle, he could somehow harm me and think he was helping. Hit me, stick me with testosterone, who knows?Not even going into how his being a repper made my own transition 10x more mentally taxing and shameful than it needed to be. I had to look at my mom and tell her I'm a tranny, while this guy is her ex husband...What should I do, in general? It's all fucked.
you're either going to have to approach with a deep compassion, that she didn't get the same opportunities as you re:transitioning, understand her resentment which is an outgrowth of shame and envy, and being the bigger woman about it (forget about what your "father" owes you), OR, just not engage
he might just be a fetishist and not a full on tranny
>>44407359This is a distinct possibility. Unfortunately that would make all of the shitty parts of his personality be even less understandable.
>>44407328I think I have plenty of compassion for this situation. If I could just trust his intentions, I'd be more willing to engage. Repping is extremely sad. There is also the fact that we all have to play along with him larping as an old straight guy. I know he'll be envious, but we can't even began to broach that considering he is NEVER coming out. I normally strive to gender people correctly, but if he can't even acknowledge that ANYTHING is going on, what's the point?
>>44406987>What should I do, in general?"Forget" some T blockers and E at his house. If he tells you about it, tell him you'll pick it up later (dont ever show-up)His curiosity will get the best of him, he will take the pills and have a realization.
>>44407523I'd have to be comfortable enough to actually go to his house first .
>>44406987>stick with testosteronetestosterone is not as easy to get as estrogen in many places due to sports laws, so I doubt this is likely to happen, especially in a public place, but if you are worried about it, wear a jacket and long pants, make sure you know where the exits are, comfortable shoes you can run in, etc
>>44407631That's a good point, thank you. Hopefully it doesn't come to that. I might delay it till I'm more comfortable.
I've cut off all connection to my father because he's an absolute piece of shit. I recommend you do the same, it is not at all worth it.
>>44406987>ex cop>50s>agp fetishistdoes he like star trek, by any chance?
>>44407328jungbrained perspective. i can tell you as a former repper that reppers deserve nothing but the unleashed truth (and most of them would probably enjoy it)
>>44407691That's how it's seeming... so unfortunate :(
>>44407704Afraid not. He has no hobbies. Too busy being miserable.
>>44406987>stick me with testosteronenigga nobody is going to jab you with a testosterone injection in public
>>44407746I don't think you're wrong necessarily, but I feel like his denial might be too strong and lead to something really bad.
>>44407833The only reason I think it could get to that point is because, for reasons not stated in my post, he is at a really low point in life. I wouldn't put it past him to not care about the consequences of a drastic action.
>>44407846then the other nona is correct. you'll still have to decide whether or not you want to engage at all
Wtf her dad is Kris
>>44407858no human being in history has ever thought "I should inject my tranny daughter(son) with testosterone"and honestly even if he did, one injection of T isn't going to do much of anything to you. especially if you're on antiandrogens.
> BBC FeminizationOh, is THAT who watches blacked?
>>44406987Sounds like your average boomer sissy posting smut on Reddit
>>44407359This seems more likely than anything else desu, like... he might've been genuine at one point but that ship has long since passed him, it turned into a fetish for him because that all it could ever be for him, thus is the fate of reppers.
>>44407870>>44407471It really depends on what YOU want from this situation. Do you want your parent back, mother or father? Do you want to her to transition and enjoy her twilight bloom? Would you be okay with mourning the spiritual death of your father?because if it's the latter two statements, then the other Nona is right. You might just have to tear down those years of repping self defence ego.but you are compelled to make a decision (or non-decision), so it's best to ask first, what do you want from all of this. you have to live with you at the end of the day.
>>44408010>Do you want to her to transition and enjoy her twilight bloom?He shouldn't transition. Every boomerhon is an optics nuke, but ESPECIALLY ones with a BBC sissy fetish. They should just be euthanized.
>>44406987>A sibling recently found a scrap of paper with "BBC Feminization" just written on it, with a spade drawingfmstl momentdon't hang out with him till he troons out. as long as test is in xer brain xe will always be a rapemoid
it's not your responsibility to fix your grown ass parents OPstay safe
>>44407923Yeaaa, we found em...
>>44407963True, but with the fun twist of having a trans daughter. There is no blueprint for this. Ugh
>>44407967I think this is exactly it. I just don't know what on earth to do.
>>44408072Unfathomable optics nuke.
>>44408135I hate this... ugh..
>>44408145You're right... I just don't have a lot of people atp.. :(
>>44408010I just don't know if transitioning will even remotely fix the several other issues he has. If not, why bother?
Even if this guy fully trooned out (not gonna happen) and passed 100 percent (definitely not gonna happen) he would still have the mental and emotional problems you're describing
>>44407704uh oh --- I don't feel so good --- please --- no one post the video of --- should I --- oh no --- its coming ---
>>44408312Exactly 10000%. That's the worst part.
>your dad trooned out you should set things right
>>44408351Huh? Lol
>>44408260so then what are YOU hoping to come out of this conversation? what is it you want for yourself in this conversation?
>>44408374I just want a parent that cares about me. That's it.
>>44408135i think he must've been researching ops condition and found some funny shit and wrote it on a paper to remember otherwise who writes this shit on a paper
>>44408373RUN FOR YOUR LIFE - THE AGP BOOMERHON SISSYSLOP BBC COP VIDEO - ITS GONNA BE POSTED - TAKE COVER!!!
>A sibling recently found a scrap of paper with "BBC Feminization" just written on it, with a spade drawingSo everyone here in the lgbt community just accepts this disgusting shit is part of being in the trans community?No wonder they want all of you dead.
>>44408410Nazis got wiggers, we got John50 Boomerhons.
>>44408410Who said anything about accepting it? I'm OP. It's unacceptable.
>>44408391and that's very fair, Nona. I'm sorry that you've found yourself in this situation, that you feel that you must alleviate your father's suffering so that he can love you in the way you want and need. Its truly is awful.like others have said, it's not your responsibility to save her or him. But I understand why you would want to. move in compassion for not only your father but for YOURSELF. you may have to mourn the fact that the father you once had is gone, maybe a repper, a fetishist, emotionally unavailable...
>>44408525my 2 cents, approach a conversation with non-judgement, compassion, etc...... make the suggestion that they might be trans, you know how difficult that might be, and they'll have to confront their shame of either repressed tranny which will win over the Gooner shame of BNWO shit. at least it shows you care in a non-judgemental way
imagine being a alcoholic father divorced father who sees his daughter transition into a cute girl lmao i would rope do reppers really
>>44408588This whole thing sucks.
>>44406987>I miss having a fatherAnd he misses his son
>>44406987My dad is the same way Nona... as was my grandpa... maybe the tranny gene is real? Or is this some sort of government psyop? Like this cant be possible to have multiple generations of trannies right?
>>44408777Oh well. I'll be dead before he gets 'him' back.
>>44408797It's the tranny gene. I'm convinced at this point. It's a fucking genetic curse. Wtf did my great great great great grandfather do to deserve this? A genetic "fuck you".
>>44408797>>44408954Kinda hot that genetically troon women will always exist
>>44406987>BBC FeminizationI was with you till I saw this.Larp.
>>44410240Huh. Only ever saw this thing in its current incarnation. Wasn't aware it was a former cop. Man, oldhead reppers really should just rope for the benefit of the community.
>>44406987The possible scenarios are:>You ignore this, he represses and eventually dies as a man.>You raise the topic, he denies and makes a huge stink, maybe causing some reputation or property damage, the relationship becomes even worse.>You reach out to him and the egg cracks, your father discards all of his social standing to become a hon for the rest of her life with drastically reduced quality of living, discriminated and hated.Not worth it. Let him die as a repressor and remember to not have biological children.
>>44410369>and remember to not have biological childrenDo not listen to this poster, OP.
>>44406987Well. I don't honestly see you somehow cracking that egg. As for him somehow harming you because he's a religious wacko... even if he thinks he has some kind of moral obligation due to religious reasons, assault is assault. He knows damn well that the law is not going to side with him.
>>44410240NNNNNOOOOOO - I WARNED YOU ALL !!! - AAAAAHHHHHH THE HORRORS !!! -
>>44410403>spread tranny gene and sentence your child to debilitating mental disorder and/or lifelong discriminationEvil.
>>44406987worst part of this story is 27 3 years hrt passoid, it really isnt fair is it
>>44407359>>44407967a "fetishist" is anyone less attractive than youthis is why I disapprove of allowing children under the age of 65 to have access to experimental dangerous hormones
>>44406987inject her in her sleep
>>44406987>stick me with testosteronenothing a bonesaw can't fix
