it's kind of crazy that i could have had a chance at a life if things had gone differently. i knew i was trans at 12, came out to my family at 14, they held me from hrt and i didn't get to start until right after i turned 20. looking at my hideous mutant body everyday is genuinely a fucking nightmare. I had to watch my body morph into the most disgusting mockery of what I'm supposed to be. genuinely what can i do other than kill myself. i have people who care about me so i don't want to hurt them but i am so fucking ugly it's agonizing i can't stand living like this, knowing what could have been. despite having come around now and being supportive or whatever my family blames the way they were on society and won't take personal responsibility for ruining my life. they get mad at me when I confront them with the fact that it's over for me and that it's too late for anything to change, probably because they feel guilty or whatever. my friends all pity me and say that I'm pretty as does my family, my girlfriend hugboxes me, but it's all bullshit I am intensely fucking ugly I look like a caveman and my frame is fucked, women's clothes look so gross on my mutant androgenized frame. my skeleton is genuinely fucking ruined. I just keep repeating in my head over and over everyday that if my family had just listened to me i could have had a chance but they didn't, I didn't have a choice, they robbed me of my life and now I'm dead but I have to keep on living, keep on working. how do lateshit trannies survive this? what can I do to stop feeling so miserable? i can't accept being an ugly hon but I can't be a man either.
It's crazy how people see their body functioning normally and are like "oh it's disgusting this isn't supposed to happen this is wrong!!!"
>>44425041fuck off useless retard
No
>>44425018it's over
>>44425041>implying gender dysphoria is "the body functioning normally"
>>44425350it's so fucking frustrating. the brain is an organ, "mental" illnesses are just illnesses there's a neurological and chemical component just as with other conditions. it isn't as though I want to be like this I hate being like this and wish every day I could just be content being a man but I can't and I've never been able to. I was always always disgusted by the thought of being a man ever since I was a little kid I knew I was a girl and that something was severely wrong with the way I was. I knew what I needed but couldn't get it and now I'm fucked forever. literally just a few years ago I'd have been fine and now I am fucked forever. its so so so so so unfair and so frustrating
it never gets better
