>talking to my mom>she brings up how i got top marks in my class on an exam i took when i was 10/11ish but started failing everything just a couple years later before dropping out of high school entirely and asks what happened>now in my mid 20s and can barely hold a conversation with anyone without getting distracted and needing things clarified or repeatedis this common? now and then my friends will tell me i'm clever or perceptive but i feel like i'm looking at the world through frosted glass
>>44429733Yrah, constant stress will do that to you
>>44429733I feel the same way even though I've been on testosterone for over two years. I don't think I've ever been genuinely intelligent or dysphoric though.
>>44429733>Started failing everything just a couple years later before dropping out of high school entirelyA majority of school was designed for a time that no longer exists. All of the work and tests were created to make better factory workers. All jobs in manufacturing/creating are dead.>School should have been more of social engagement and networking training rather than memory tests and attendance basedYou excelled at the latter, kept your head down, were obedient and followed the rules. Everything had a simple and definable answer, you could be right or wrong. Adults held your hand and you never had to actually consider what you might be after the system failed you.Once that system flaws became apparent you left. Sadly High School and College are the same from experience. The adult figures become less and less engaged with the material as their paid more and expect you to do more on your own without instruction. The real world starts to crack through. Once education finishes you realize nothing actually prepared you for the real world. If you were taught how to write a check and manage your finances you were "lucky" or "gifted". If you left the tests and grades behind and excelled socially you were often shunned by authority. >The truth was, the game was rigged from the start.
