>>44440671
Same. Hrtrepper but my parents would disown me if they knew, which is why I'm never telling them. It hurts a lot but you eventually grow numb to it

>>44440682
ive been out to my mom many years and havent lived at home in a long time.

it still follows me. i never even talk to her anymore yet it still causes me so much emotional pain. it hurts so much. chasing for a mom figure in partners is also fruitless.

it will never happen. i will never have a mom

>>44440671
I still care, but I’ve stopped feeding her more power over me. I understand the initial shock, but if our moms can’t accept us after years of time to process it then that just shows how much they want to protect their ignorance.
You deserve better, nona, and some day you’ll have the strength and resources to assert that

>>44440671
she's had trouble adjusting but seems to be accepting me as her daughter
it really started setting in when she realized I was doing a lot of shit that annoyed her that was the same shit she did that annoyed her mom

>>44440709
i just wish she didnt make me feel like a disgusting freak.

she would nitpick and bully my appearance. especially my hair.

it made and still makes me feel so ugly

>>44440671
My mom knows I'm a repper and the shame of it is a big reason I'll probably never transition.

>>44440750
you probably shouldnt rep. at least get on hrt

>>44440671
yeah it changed something in me I feel like a wild animal now, but I still desire to be a beautiful daughter, it's all somewhat torturous

>>44440792
I'm a detroon repper and have gone through this on and off cycle multiple times, considering hopping back on but the weight of inaction prevents me. I've already completely given up on the idea of transitioning, but I also hate being testosterone poisoned.

>>44440845
wow that's so tragic how the weight of inaction works and all. :(