The thread formerly known as vent.Pain edition.A thread to vent, have someone to talk to, commiserate, or just post into the void.Previous thread:>>44397796
Nothing like accidentally revealing that your friend is self-harming and not being able to help. I fucking. Hate. My. Life. So. Much. End. Me. Please.GODSFUCKIm okayImOkayIm okayIm not okay but Im okayIn the likeIm going to cry a lotBut Im not going to do anything drasticI cant save myselfAnd I cant even save anyone elseIm so fucking worthless.Fuck.FUCK!!!!!
my parents are supportive of me being a tranny and my mom even said my dad always wanted a daughter but they dont even call or text to check in with me and i just learned yesterday that they keep in touch with one of my old classmates (not even a friend) more frequently than they do me.
>>44448667I'm not doing shit. calm down
>>44448773Im fine. Im not as panicked at that message implied. Just. Screaming my frustrations into the void.AndGood. Be good to yourself, please.
The hardest love confession one must make is to themselves, I don't know if I'll ever be able to do it. But in the meantime, I love all of you, every last one of you, even if no one else does, I will forever.
>>44448643Anorexia so so exhausting... I am so tired man. Genuinely I am so tired. I am so tired of fighting it, so tired of trying so hard to not let it win. I know that one day it will win and when it does just... it'll be bad. It feels like i'm holding back an avalanch some days.
I hate my chest. I hate my stupid boobs. I wish I can just rip them off. I wish Top surgery wasn't so fucking expensive and I wish wearing binders wouldn't cause me to literally pass out. I thought about dieting to maybe get a smaller chest size but I feel like I would just look like a thin girl or that building muscle will make them bigger.
>>44448643All of my ex boyfriends are crazy and I am the sane one. Gay bottoms have to many personality disorders
Wasnt able to lay down when I wanted to, between a small anxiety attack and realizing I hadn't taken my hormone shot today (not mental health issues, just such a long day that I forgor). Messed up again. Go me. And then panicked about it for a few reasons. But too tired to truly spiral. Just some tears from a mix of empathic pain, worry, and self-hate for not being able to keep to myself when I probably shoulda. Hope what I did at least... helped, somehow. Probably made myself look unstable again tho. Whoooo. Frick.Anyways. Time to stab myself with girl juice, I suppose.>>44448993I believe in you, love-anon. If you can love everyone else, forever, then you can love yourself. Maybe try saying something nice about yourself in the mirror tonight before bed.Also, be careful, say that enough times and I might develop a crush /lh /jk>>44449115Binders are such a fucking joke curse of an object. I watch my spouse struggle with them often. Mastectomy should be free, for anyone who might want it. ~.~'>>44449055Big hugs, nona. Eating disorders are a little slice of hell.>>44448687Ouch...
>>44443348i stopped hrt for three months and for what? nothing. fmstl
I came out to my family when I was 14 and they kept me from hrt. They just didn't fucking care. I could have had a chance at life but it was stolen from me. And now that I'm 20 they're "supportive" but they refuse to accept responsibility for ruining my life. They blame their own willful ignorance and transphobia on society. They just never gave a fuck, they didn't do an ounce of research and they didn't listen to me, and so I had to wait years and years and now I'm irreparably ruined. I'm just fucked. There's nothing I can do now. Starting hrt at 20 I mean are you fucking kidding me. I'll always look like an ugly man now. I could have had years of development already but I'm in this horrific fuck ugly limbo second puberty, almost a year in and the only thing to show for it is tiny ugly tits. I'm literally a fucking hon caricature and I have to see all of my girl friends get to live the life I could have had. I don't know why I'm even alive anymore. I'm in fucking hell. I just persist so as not to hurt the people close to me. But I'm a useless shell of a person and I'll never be a woman in any way that matters
>>44445473Well the hives have now covered completely over my chest and body, I wish in the next life I’ll just be a normal person and not this mess
It's been 2.5 years since she cheated on me. I was right about everything, before and after. It's still all I think about. Part of me wants to be the one to take her out before she can ruin anyone else. Another would retardedly want to hear her out if she tried to contact me again. The person I loved probably never existed. And for awhile now I've settled on the belief that no one like that can ever be real. I've been completely checked out and people keep asking me when I'm going to "decide what I want to do with my life". Think I should start asking them to buy me a gun already if it bothers them that much.
i deeply yearn for a sense of connection and community with people but at the same i deeply despise and feel unhappy whenever i see people achieve anything that makes them happy even if its small, iv dealth with this for years and im tired of being so isolated from everyone, how can i become normal :{
i hate food
>>44449115>I wish wearing binders wouldn't cause me to literally pass outI wear one every day and only take it off to shower and sleep and have never once passed out from it. With that said, will get surgery this year or kill myself.
Still reeling from seeing that woman who just looked like me if I’d started E when I was like 18. Actually made me cry
