why do straight people assume im some fag for wanting to completely destroy my libido for good? it's a cancer, never helped me in life. yet it still persists despite my bmi plunging to ~16 plus psych meds. no, i'm not some punkass "ace" fart-huffer. i have a sex drive, and i simply do not want it. comparing sex to food/water fucking enrages me. if i were a sixth SS panzer army soldier dying in the hungarian muck in march '45, would i be thinking about sex? no. it hijacks my brain with no warning, no compartmentalization is enough to kill it. even with zero morning boners in like 9 months i cant shut this shit off. and i'm not religious either, mind you.
>>44448684this person has a superiority complex for an amazing reason
because they have been bullying you for being gay your whole life and they are now realizing their bullying worked
>>44448684you have to seek a greater purpose a masterwork to get your mind focused
same but i just want to blow my skull off. im unclean and impure and nothing i do makes it go away
>>44448684If you've already done that stuff, then I can assume you've done or attempted all of the basic things, so I'm not gonna mention those. I know of some more advanced ways to completely and utterly kill off your libido, though they may be a bit too extreme even for you. It would take a great deal of effort that can guarantee that, by the end of it, you would have zero libido. You might as well become one of those nullo people.
>>44448684>psych medsOP and others like xem is the outcome of an entire generation put on SSRIS before they even enter high school.
>>44448684I love you anon, similar thought process for me. Libido is a cancer and sexhavers are subhuman.>>44449086I only started taking SSRIs after I was already an adult. Some of us just genuinely do not like having this drive.
>>44449121>>44449121Are you trans or cis? If the former how does it affect your HRT
>>44449152I'm a straight cis man with tocd/a repper I honestly don't know anymore.
>>44449192What hormones do you take/want to take
>>44449204I'm not on hrt, I'm the dumbass who injected high proof alcohol into his balls as an attempt to castrate myself. I also take dutasteride and prozac daily.
>>44449230What happened to your balls as a result? If I saw you in public would I assume ur female?
>>44449235>would I assume ur femaleLmao no absolutely not, at best you'd think I was a faggy guy but that's mostly down to my haircut. Anyway I don't recommend anyone else follow my specific route, I'm mentally ill and desperate. Being a regular repper or diying hrt is better than what I resorted to doing.
>>44449268long term its smarter because hrt is going to be harder to get in the future
>>44449271That's the first time anyone has called me 'smart' for admitting I injected alcohol into my balls. I don't think that's actually true what you said; think about how difficult it was to get on hrt pre internet, I think there'll be a temporary hang-up but if anything it'll get easier to get on hrt in the future.
>>44449381the internet is going to get locked down and monitored to such a degree that it will go back to pre-internet dark ages of trying to get hrt
>>44449405Onion links and ip2 exist, I think you're just dooming. The government doesn't have the resources, skills, or desire to truly crack down on the diy market, they can't even get the regular drug trade under control lol.
>>44449415*I2p
>>44449415hardware level kyc
>>44449425Again think about how even the American and EU governments can't crack down on the illegal drug market. Sure it's technically possible that they maybe could, at least until someone finds an exploit lol.
>>44449415>>44449450why do people think this? the illicit drug trade has historically been propped up to sheer corruption and political motives. there is incentive NOT to crack down on it. governments have a lot of money and power to be seized in the regular drug market, and even then, within governments are independent departments sometimes have conflicts of interests with the others. DEA wants to crack down on drugs, CIA props up opium in afghanistan. estrogen? a few dozen trannies who really just act as distributors and aren't really doing any meaningful chemical synthesis themselves - just mixing shit that they order from manufacturers? that's trivial to get shut down, and there's not meaningful incentive for governments to try and get a finger in the pie. a headline of "we shut down this tranny who was selling DIY" is more valuable to them politically than any deal they might cut with those tranniesgovernments might be incompetent, but the sheer force they can exert over the world can overcompensate for that by several orders of magnitudes. the no fly list got leaked, and there was no meaningful consequences for the US government because... they're a world government, they don't fucking care, they're above and beyond reproach. the US basically just colonised venezuela, they assassinated the iranian head of state, wtf makes you think they can't get rid of a few dozen trannies who mix up bathtub estrogen. people just think up bollocks and believe it because it's comforting
>>44448684I'm a straight (cis) man and I would prefer not to have a sex drive. The intrusive thoughts and distracting urges are annoying. Orgasms and sex and all that feels good in the moment, but how much nicer to never have an itch to scratch in the first place, you know?
