I've been thinking a lot about who I was when I was younger. I took a break from this place for a day and the mainstream Internet today. I've just been watching nostalgic cartoons instead of consuming modern Internet sludge. a part of me always thought I might just be a "fake girl" but thinking back to my childhood, I really do have and have always had a woman brain. idk, I realize now that I was never comfortable being a boy. I just never had the words or knowledge to vocalize it until recent years..I don't know if I wanna interact with the modern Internet or the people that use it anymore. ever since 2015, the Internet has been stealing my soul under the guise of "entertainment". it's brought me more pain then happiness and idk if I want to live my life like that. I want to create and be happy like I was pre 2015. so idk. maybe being told "ywnbaw" on a daily basis by all of you and the mainstream media isn't actually very healthy or productive. so in short, why am I even in these modern Internet spaces if everything about them gives me dysphoria and makes me unhappy? idk, ily and hope you succeed in life, but I've drifted away from you.my memories and thoughts have always aligned with being a girl. The Internet just makes me feel otherwise.
