>bf uses my closeted christianity to make me fall deeper for him by restraining me and sweet talking to me about how he's sent by god to own me and by teasing me about me treating him like a sacred higher beingi'm a fucking retard genuinely for being like thishe's not even religious he just uses things that i respond to heavily to lure me into his grasp and it works
>>44482958waowawwwwowowhappy for you
>>44482967i hope he doesnt view it as too weird desu since a lot of people even many other christians think that the faith i was raised in is too strange and offputtingtoday i told him when he was tormenting me that i sometimes cry about how happy i am to know that i'll get to spend eternity with him
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>>44482958Yeah anonette I got bad news for you.You are gonna one day step into a church in a white wedding dress, have a golden ring put on your finger and unfortunately get kissed in front of all your loved ones marking yourself and your boyfriend as one. On top of all that he will bridal carry you in his strong arms to a double bed with a heart shape made with flowers and you both will unite in one flesh...
This is the dynamic I want. I'm not even religious myself but sadly each time I talk to a trans woman from here they're always atheists
>>44483135i couldn't bear it honestlyi'm happy to be his bride but i don't want what we have to be a public thing>>44483163you should convert and get a submissive christian trans girl and treat her well
>>44483214No, I'll just pretend to be Christian to find a Christian girl. I'll tell her the truth when she's in too deep
>>44483163I mean I know quite a few trans women (myself included) that had a strong religious upbringing with lingering religious sentiments despite being atheists at present.
>>44483336Yes, so do I. I'd prefer an atheist over someone who was raised in a religious household but became atheist (because of the implication)
>>44483352Religious stuff gets buried deep. Idk I had religious-themed PTSD episodes for a while and some of the other girls I know have similar experiences. It stays with you.
>>44483380Exactly. So you (i.e. me) get the worst of both worlds essentially. An atheist girl who has religious trauma.
>>44483335sigh, don't pretend that's awful
>>44483401Oh I thought you were the moid
>>44483413See gif>>44483421I AM! "you" was just doing its polysemous duty. Read the post from my perspective.
>>44483433it's not good to be disingenuous
>>44483444It's fine as long as it's done for good reasons.
>>44482958Bottoms truly deserve the worst, but thankfully tops are right there to deliver.
>>44483448what you're after is not a good reason
>>44483433I mean I have been tempted to go back to church but that's neither here not there. I was actually invited to one by some Mormons who thankfully didn't clock me.
>>44483467It is.I want to take care of a good Christian woman.An actual Christian who is into trans women is very clearly a closeted homosexual who doesn't see her as a woman. An average atheist won't respect her religious identity.A man like me who respects all of her identities is her best bet. Playing pretend with her so she gets the best outcome for herself is not cruel.This world is not a good place for trannies. A good man should put on some blinders from time to time to spare her from this world's cruelty.
>>44483482>mormonsnoooo dont do itwhat's your denomination background?>>44483505idk it still hits me the wrong way, a lot of men pretend to be christians and i think it's cruel to heryou should just be open about it and she'll like you
>>44483482Going back for the aesthetic?>>44483522Of course it hits you the wrong way. That's normal. Still, I'm right and I know what I'm doing.
>>44483522Oh I would go to an Episcopalian church if I went to one unless I was complete stealth but I don't see that happening any time soon. >>44483545Maybe to get over religious trauma.
>>44483621How are you, any way? Still with your boyfriend?
>>44483637Yup! Looking to move in with him, probably around the end of the year. Visiting him for Labor Day weekend and actually managed to score an FFS consult in the area while I'm there.
>>44483663That's great. I'm glad to hear. You didn't directly answer my first question though. Is the answer implied from what you said?
>>44483545sigh>>44483621just attend service or worship in a church where the crowd sings hymns nona
>>44483692Mmmm sometimes I get the urge to be religious again. Not really for the aesthetic. It would have to be sincere. >>44483698Honestly it sucks because I used to be a choirboy and I struggle not to sing along and reveal my moidvoice. >.>
>>44483960I meant the first one here >>44483637Are you doing well? Are you happyWord on the street is that you've got a good singing voice.
>>44483992Oh I'm doing well! My singing voice is moidly. I spent a lot of time repping by training as a bass because it made me feel more secure in that regard (and also AAP feelings), but I'm out of practice and my current voice is more like teenage choir boy again.
>>44484007What about your normal voice? How voicd trained are you?Feel free to expand upon the AAP stuff (my ex also had that, but we never really explored it).
>>44484037I am coasting on fagcent. So, for AAP stuff, it manifests in two ways. When I was repping, it was AAP in the way that I was basically my own boyfriend. Now, there's some AAP as just a gay bottom in the sense that I never really got to be one.
>>44484102Do you indulge in AAP stuff with your boyfriend? Is he aware?
>>44484108I do not. If he was a bichad sure but he's not into guys.
>>44484115Unfortunate. Trans woman who doesn't mind being called a good boy while being fucked is just too peak.
>>44484108But he is aware I am horrible at keeping quiet and it's why I think I'll never be able to go stealth. >>44484128sometimes the idea is hotter than being called a woman or girl...That realization used to freak me out but I've gotten comfortable being a weird lil faggot
>>44484139>But he is aware I am horrible at keeping quiet and it's why I think I'll never be able to go stealth.Is this in reference to voice or AAP stuff?>That realization used to freak me out but I've gotten comfortable being a weird lil faggotWhen my ex told me about her AAP I was also freaked out. Post breakup I've come to terms with it actually being quite hot. As long as it's completely kept in the bedroom.
>>44484174AAP stuff. Oh I definitely would keep it in the bedroom or just in private in general unless my partner wanted it otherwise. To be a transsexual woman is as much a political strategy as it is an identity. Too much internalized transphobia to feel okay just considering myself a normal woman.
>>44484230>I am horrible at keeping quiet and it's why I think I'll never be able to go stealth..And>I definitely would keep it in the bedroom or just in private in generalWhat?
>>44484251First bit is more like "I will probably slip up and out myself as a tranny" because I might accidentally call myself his boyfriend or whatever, but it would be a Freudian slip.
>>44484296Ah, right. Why would that even happen since he's not partaking? Are you raping him by indulging in AAP stuff in your head while you have sex?
>>44484319No it's just that I frequently gender myself as male in my head and that's okay with him. I also joke about being a guy because I hate myself.
>>44484406Dang, that needs to be fixed Imo. He should help with that.But what do I know
>>44484421I think it's just a consequence of boymoding too long/not formally coming out despite fagmoding and just my brain breaking from that. Like this time last year I was internally crashing out being called my birth name at work and now it only occasionally bugs me despite literally everyone knowing I'm a tranny.
>>44484462nona you need thorough boyremoval
>>44484473Ahahahahahaha I'm terrified of sex irl I get panicky
>>44483163In my experience Filipina trans women tend to be really religious. Of course it's really just a "Catholic" veneer over their indigenous culture which never stigmatized homosexuality or transsexuality, like how Hispanic "Catholics" just worship their old pagan demons through the image of Santa Muerte or African "Christianity" just being voodoo
being a repressed christian comes with a whole slew of issues
>I like how my man manipulates me :3Five years later>wtf I can't believe he was such a manipulative bastardAbused people deserve all the abuse they get
Why is religious guilt so common among trannies?
>>44483451tops don't give rightful punishment, thoughever, they always feel bad about the bottom when push comes to shove
I really do hate how much I crave to worship people better than me because of how much it goes against God and believing in him. I wish I could stop seeking out people to worship, but maybe I really am just a pagan and nothing else.
>>44486885He's a good man and I trust him.>>44487257Didn't Paul tell women to basically worship their husbands like they do Christ? Paul was a retarded chud but still
>>44487952>He's a good man and I trust him.That's what they all say about their hubbies before they realize what they've gotten themselves into.
>>44486885>>44487967The women who end up with a negative outcome are the unaware ones who genuinely believe they aren't being manipulated. Aware ones do well
>>44487967He's my master and I'm his slave bride. I trust him and I know him far better than you.
>>44488003also is there anything wrong with manipulation in itself? it just means trying to make the other one do as you want
>>44490021Yes, obviously. The typical case is person A manipulating person B so that A benefits at the cost of B. Atypically B benefits as well. If, however, B is aware, then B gets to make a conscious decision about whether it's worth it or not.
>>44486885It's called seduction, not manipullation. Seduction!
>>44490130I guess that makes sense. I mean it's just a social agreement if it's done with informed consent
