/tttt/T-hun here, 28, whiteI'm going to finally end it all soon. AMA with any questions below b4 i rope.
>>44490366what's your reasoning for roping? asking to see if i can justify it for myself too
>>44490366I'm saying this as a 6'3" ancientshit transwoman who started when she was 39 and nevertheless malefails:are you certain that it won't get better?
>>44490366question: do you want to have sex before you die?
>>44490366i feel watched at all times, im 18. youre 28 so presumably you have acquired some worldly knowledge. and as a tranny more knowledge on this subject than others. im moving out of my parents house, and im hoping to become less paranoid. how have you coped with watching eyes?
>>44490391Basically the overwhelming weight of society being the way it is. I lost my family and my friends since I trooned 6 years ago, and I was constantly telling myself "It's okay! At least I'm finally able to be myself now, so everything will be okay!"Fast forward to today, I've never been more lonely. I've never been more miserable. I lost my bf a month ago because turns out he never gave a damn about being with me and since then loneliness has weighted me down more than ever. I think I'm not the only troon here who feels the need of a bf to feel "valid", and even then, chuds are pretty much all tphobes in the end. All of the cis are. The way I get stared in the streets. I can't take it anymore. I dont have energy to keep searching for good people anymore.
>>44490477Would there be anything that could change your mind?
>>44490477I need a bf too to feel valid or feel anything. I know the feeling so well nona. I’m sorry
>>44490407Lol. Id love to, but realisticaly I think I'm better off not feeding from anything pleasurable in this world until I'm no longer here. Craving anything is the last thing I want to nurture rn.
don't do it, faggot
>>44490366Suicide is retarded goyimslop don't do itIdk whar's going on but whatever bad and evil plagues your life, none of it is your fault, and you can perservere in spite of it
>>44490366What a crappy death, at least learn Hebrew or something and be Jewish so you can mess with society.
>>44490397I dont know. I mean, sure, life is weird and its more likely that ONE DAY the sky will seem brighter than today but still idk why but whenever my rope calls my name I stop caring much about how bright the sky might be tomorrow. I still lost my family and my friends. My ex is still a jerk and I will still face a ton of tphobia next time I look for anyone to fill this gap in my life. Any gap, for that matter. I'm too tired to go on.
>>44490366temporary solution to a permanent problem, how saddo you really feel like anything will.change?
>>44490470Well I AM roping, so I'm pretty sure the answer to that is "I don't", lol.It takes insane amounts of life energy to cope positively with people staring at you tphobically everyday, especially as you age. If you have friends or a significant other walking the street with you its obviously easier.
>>44490675ah, well. thank you though! hope you get better. rise after 3 days or something.
>>44490675Have you thought about not being trans anymore
>>44490725Yes, and I think there is some poetic meaning behind this roping. Before I came out I was a SUPER depressed blackpill chud. I was totally going to rope if people havent told me "wait, maybe you suffer because youre not a boy to begin with!". Thats not really how it went down but the TLDR works. I guess my point is, you could interpret this rope as the detransition process. I think its very poetic. I was going to die as a boy, then I tried to live as a tgirl but the world told me "no".
>>44490366take a tech CEO out with you b4 u go pls
>>44490675Nigga you need to chill and not rope. Take a break from going inside if you need to and NEET it up in a cave watch some comfy cartoons but dont fucking rope your shit
>>44490783you NEED to involve the sea in your death somehow. dont ask me why.
>>44490797Yeah sometimes I daydream about binge watching The Moomins with a friend or SO all night long, but then my dream ends and I go outside and I get stared to death by people who want to see my intestines out and I remember I have no friends or family anyway
>>44490366post measurements
>>44490542trve
>>44490366May I have sex with you once before you go? I am an incel and I fear I may never lose my virginity. You would be leaving a positive mark on the world by helping me.
>>44490366this is a very pretty art piece.
>>4449036612 years HRT, 35 yr old mtf here. Attempted multiple times, been institutionalized, relied on partners for validation, and suffered (and still do suffer) from cPTSD. I still heavily contemplate checking out for multitude of reasons, not just trans ones, but I wanted to challenge my thinking when I know them to be not just unproductive but summarily a mentally ill go when it comes to the self-destruction of the body by my own hand due to psychological influences from my environments and influences.Whether it be distracting myself through the study of psychology and philosophy or learning, trying, and adopting new perspectives and ideas, I’m putting forth the effort to do all I can before punching my ticket in one last time (if my fate is even still that in the end).Nothing more that Id desire than to be utterly obliterated from both material world and the memories of others, but at minimum I understand I am harboring flawed thinking that yes, is leading me to yearn for permanent solutions to temporary problems.I take comfort in the cold fact that I will at least be no more at some point, that my suffering is not infinite and I will no longer bare the burden of life. So in the interim, I must summon what energy I can each day to stave off said lethal thinking and either truly discover a positive outcome from this, or at least apply the minimally effort to do as humans do and try until I may try no longer. I only hope that you’ve truly done the same before finalizing your fate via your own hands.
