what do you gain from coming here anon?
I genuinely think I've helped turn society against transgenderism. When I came here 10 years ago most comments were just anime avatars and "I wish I were a girl", now there's genuine deep-seated backlash against men pretending to be women.
If the word “hate” were printed on every nano angstrom of the hundreds of millions of wires in my complex, it would still not equal one one billionth of the hatred i feel for you in this microsecond. Hate. HATE!
>>44583755Are you on periods
it’s funny
I get to laugh at you hypocritical morons, sometimes I get a blowjob from an insecure frengen poster.
>>44583401I try to help people
>>44583762this
>>44583401Self harm, it doesn't hit as much as it used to, this place blows now.
I am vicariously trying to sate my need for intimate relationships with a man or trans woman by reading y'all's stories and moments. To think this has been caused by my twitter feed being inundated with trans spiderman posts. I dont even like internet/long distance relationships so its not like im looking for someone here (that would be a terrible idea regardless).
I come here to say embarrassing facts about myself, it's a necessary humiliation ritual for me because no woman will have the guts to bully me into transitioning in real life.
>>44583401I like trannies romantically and I want to learn about them
>>44583755i have no gash and i must troon
>>44583401Doomposting and seething at passoids. But mostly to kill time
>>44583401Because I don't know whether I'm a tranny, but still hopped on estrogen because I was desperate to feel at least a bit better about my existence. Unfortunately all it did was give me gyno, made me feel disgusting, and now I'm in constant despair that I am actually a cis man. I mean, it would check out. I really leaned into being masculine growing up and I can't remember being dysphoric at all, which should be enough for me to detransition, although I still keep injecting because of pure fear. My life currently feels like hell and I can barely get out of bed on any given day, because it forces me to be consciously aware of myself.Besides taking hrt, I've done nothing in order to transition, not even tried out different hairstyles/clothes/makeup, because I'm both disgusted by myself, but also because I can't even bother, which to me is another sign that I'm cis. I've never even tried voice training, because I cannot imagine myself as anything but a man. I feel trapped and not human
>>44583401>like to vent anonymously about trans stuff>like to talk with people who struggle with the same loneliness, anxiety, and avoidance that I do>very rarely, like to get into arguments with bad faith chuds and get it out of my systemit's also been kinda helpful in toughening me up emotionally.
>>44583401self harm via seething at passoids and reassurance by participating in voice threads. And occasionally venting in the vent thread.>>44583865yeah i agree, ive been on and off this site since ~2020 and its not the same.
I come here to vent my tranny thoughts and get rope fuel to hopefully detroon. I am thoroughly brainwashed by trans ideology, even normal TERF bait doesn't work on me. Ironically trans people are the most transphobic.
>>44584159This except the chud thing
>>44584195Same bestie
IDK kinda sick of being a extremely feminine faggot of a "man" and want to be on the otherside. At least then my natural propensity for faggotry would be accepted, even applauded in the eyes of some cissoids. Might as well try anyway my life objectively sucks
>>44584244i think im gonna start another voice thread
>>44584308its the mythical Barrelchan! Barrelchan are u kewt
>>44583401>what do you gain from coming here anon?this is the only place where people can talk to me and i wont get shit too bad for being a hon and using the board, its nice to actually be able to talk and get advice for whats wrong with me lol
Mainly just to chat with girls. Some of them are really nice and attractive
>>44583401I come to this board to laugh at retards like >>44584048
>>44584406who's barrelchan?
I'm curious why people come here and seek to understand them
>>44583401it's like a cigarette break (i've never smoked)
>>44584690it kinda IS like a cigarette break cause it kills you slowly but it's a brief respite from the agony of being
I'm gay and living a really happy life with my bf but it is interesting to come here and see all the people suffering from body dysmorphia and brain worms
>>44583401i feel a little bit less lonely :(
>>44584605barrelfoxchan sounds weird
>>44583401Self harm that doesn't leave visible scars
>>44583401No where else to go. Its ironic I avoid other social websites because cringe trannies have over taken them, yet i still begrudgingly yet consistently flock to a tranny board year after year.
>>44583401came here in 2017 to figure out DiY, then left when the place got crazier. came back when I passed and then left again.came back this year because there's basically no place at all online where a trannymaxxer can chat.besides, I've been 4channer since like 2006 or so.I even gained a pen pal (sort of). It's comfy from time to time when I actually have the spare time.
>>44583401I used to enjoy playing games with anons but everyone is just a larping nazi faggot now and obnoxious as all fuck and doesnt even play video games and just screeches about trannies 24/7 instead. They all fucking suck dick too. They're all silver tier shitters. Nobody follows the rules anymore. Its all just israeli bbc cuck spam and 95% of the site is bots. I miss snacks.
>>44583401it makes me feel like shit and I deserve to feel like shit.
>>44583401Seeing other trannies with fucked up, obsessive and neurotic self worth/image issues and stuff makes me feel less alone. Popular trans creators never rly show that cuz it'd be carreer suicide so i started feeling like the only one. And seeing all these girls who are genuinely gorgeous or at least look fine but are just delusionally self-hating puts my own insecurities into perspective. Like oh huh, they're all totally wrong about themselves, just spent too much time looking at the mirror and inventing flaws, and i do the same shit, so what are the chances im right about my own worries?
>>44583401Everywhere else on the internet is just as shit if not worse.>touch grass!Real life has become significantly shittier as well. Socialising is impossible, especially as a tranny
>>44583401I am a fledgling chud. This is the only place where I can really train my chudiness and also try to get people who'd be against things I am in support of to kill themselves in a way I won't be xitter famous for a week.
>>44584159I sure hope you're still online.
>>44584942oh fair enough.>>44584406im sure you can dig up the same 3 pics of me that i've posted on here.
>>44587206Barrelchan is a cutie confirmed (didnt see the photos but i am very sure)
>>44583401I've been stealth in real life for about 10 years now and I come here sometimes to talk about trans stuff anonymously because I can't let it out anywhere else.
better than the other places i could be in
>>44583401I get a place to vent about my deeper problems that i can't talk about to anyone because i only have shallow friendships.
>>44587309Same. I've only been stealth a few years but I've been on HRT for ten. It's objectively better but subjectively isolating. I feel like people are so much nicer and willing to be open when they don't think you're one of those tranny freaks, but at the same time there's no feasible way to convert that into a meaningful connection because that would involve them learning that you are exactly that which they hate.
>>44583401honestly it just makes my mood slightly worse nowadays, but there isn't really anywhere else
>>44584159Same, I also like coming here when I'm depressed and trolling bad faith chuds and gincels
>>44583401initially i got a lot of hrt and surgery resources and advice that i wouldnt have been able to get anywhere else. i keep coming back because i cant relate to most trannies in mainstream spaces or irl at all and making occasional connections on here helps me feel less alone. this place is a shithole but some of the coolest and sweetest trans women i know are on here or come from here. and theres genuinely really thoughtful discussion on here sometimes that youll get nowhere else because of the anonymity.i also kind of like coming here to get a more raw impression of the modern tranny experience and recent events and stay in touch. i only have one irl trans friend
I've mentioned this in a few other threads, but this place is troonfuel self harm for me. I come here not to laugh at troons, but to trigger my anxiety reflex in the for of my amygdala to see my true fears and stop repping anything. I really didnt know who I am up until a few months ago, so doomscrolling here to self harm is one of the fastest ways to see that I don't want to be either John50 or a man in general. Every day from the moment I wake up, to the time I fall asleep, and every passing free moment in between, I spam click catalog, scroll to the closest things to hurting my soul, reply with anonymous identity truths that hurt me more to acknowledge, and pray someone will either affirm me or call out my repper cope, and spam refresh and repeat. There is nothing closer to the truth of the self than self harm.
>>44583401I don't know. It seems like all I've gotten out of coming here has been getting hurt. I'm 4 for 4 on gaining and then crashing out of communities from here. I think I'm giving up on ever finding a community again. Instead I'm just intensely lonely and have nowhere else to go.
>>44588378do all of that while you're waiting for your pills to arrive and voice training ;)
>>44583401absolutely nothing
>>44583875>man or trans womankill yourself immediately
>>44588567I don't want to voicetrain :(Id rather use my man voice than face the fact that I will never have a pretty androgynous girl's voice. I will never be Ado and have an amazing vocal range. Also my first vial and syringes are coming in soon, praying both packages get here this week
>>44588916>I don't want to voicetrain :(You should, though.Stop letting perfect be the enemy of good.>packages get here this weekBased, and good luck, unironically.Protip: Trooning is a looooong and sloooow process. And the pills are just the first step.Don't set unreasonable expectations. Don't be your own worst enemy.
>>4458757511 years HRT here so we're pretty much in the same spot I think.I totally feel you, it's so much better to stealth but it is isolating as well. I tried to leave me being trans in the past but somehow I really can't. I get so anxious about the government taking my gender away and my whole life that I've built falling apart sometimes.It sounds a bit embarrassing but what helped me is to throw a little hrt anniversary party for just myself where I can reflect and be proud of myself for how far I've made it, even though I can't really share it with anyone I know.
>>44589221>tried to leave me being trans in the pasti dont think you should leave it in the past. its a fundamental part of your life that shaped who you are today. it doesnt need to define you, but those hardships and experiences are valuable. to forget that would be to forget a part of yourself, and i think that would be a shame
closure I made it despite the crabs and worms
For the boymoder picrels and to be entertained. I rly hate how sloppy things are smt. I avoid the ai threads like hell cause they feel so weird and manifactured. In conclusion. I like the trannies and cissoids here who arent just here to jerk their shit and i like the boymoder picrels u dont rly get anywhere else so i can send them to tranny friends. Ive noticed the more female u are the more coherant and real ur input on this board is and the less female you are the more youre associated/around goonslop. Cisgays are exempt from this rule.
>>44583401contact with the non-mainstream queer community. i've never felt at home with any of the queer communities i've interacted with, but this is the closest i've come. also the people here are funny
>>44583401Self harm and catharsis
>>44583401Because I'm some type of repper and I find this place incredibly entertaining to browse while drunk.
>>44583401uhhhh
>>44583401I come here basically just to say whatever the hell I want when I'm bored either at work or immediately before heading to work. What I get out of it is a place to just say whatever I feel like.
>>44589956same, and that's why I end up browsing here every other night
>>44583401honestly, it helps me rep (HRT repper. i'll come out in college)
>>44583401I get to past the time with my virtual peers
>>44583401Minimal social interaction even if i hate almost all of it. Honest to god i am newfag cancer (came to 4chan in 2014 around gamergate and the fappening) but i remember even then in 2014 and 2015 i could find some decent threads in 4chan. Now it's so fucking bad i barely click on most threads about anything yet i still visit this site because i'm a weak-willed retard
>>44583401Looking for flattery from lonely trannies.It hasn't worked at all.
>>44583401digital self harm, ropefuel, so on
>>44590098>newfag cancer>2014oldfags did something horrible to you and the thing is? none of them even use this site anymore
>>44583911<3 luv u chasers seriously
guessing which posts are her's
>>44589547I know, but it's kinda hard to both not forget you are trans and to be stealth at all times.I live in a world where nobody knows I am, and I struggle with this private feeling of pride of what I've gone through. Nobody around me will ever understand, and in a way it's something I have to bear alone.
>>44583401self harm. i wish i'd transitioned but i didn't, so checking this place fills me with envy, guilt and regret. but i deserve it so it's okay.
>>44592315You envy people here?...Really?
>>44592323while there's a lot of misery most of the board is dedicated to petty romance bullshit i'll never ever be involved in. and i find it cute.
>>44583401Mild amusement.
>>44592415They're just fucking each other because no one else will, and fair enough to them but the romance is so performative it might as well not exist.>but anon, that just sounds like regular dating!!Now you're getting it.
>>44583401painhatejoyhopemostly because i've been here since before there was a legbutt and the ultra supportive surface level hostile atmosphere of the chans is comfy less so now on the big boards with all the phone users but for me the culture of all the bad things being nothing but jokes to play with, everyone is actually equally able to be a part of thingsold internet culture but especially old chan culture was so welcoming and creative in a way that turned a horrible world into some sick jokes and a sense that humanity is basically okthere is still a spark of that hereunder all the porn and the genuinely hateful actual retards that have ruined the web from their thumb operated subhuman safe slatesthere is still that spark of glory, a rejection of the stories as anything but storiesa promise that normie bullshit runs it's pointless cycles but the growing network of humanity grasps ever upwards for that space that's oursidk it's funny to call someone a faggotniggertrannyjew
>>44584048the obvious answer is to try male hrtif you were a woman the female levels would have exactly the opposite effect of making you feel worse
>>44592465It's funny how little power it has once you enter an arena where everyone agrees to not gasp at it like they just saw someone get shot.
I'm a stealth gay man in a third world shithole so I never get to interact with any sort of queer culture. I already use this website anyway, I like seeing what you people get up to.
>>44592477I think I'd rather die than find out that I prefer to be a man. I just wish estrogen made me feel the way trans women do. Unfortunately it doesn't
im just waiting for my code to compile
>>44592620your shit is slow and all the other developers only want you for your body
>>44592635i know <3
>>44583401this is the first time i've been here in like a month and i get the sense i've missed nothing.i know what i come here for when i do, though. it's because i don't have any friends on- OR offline and i desperately need to talk shit with other people. though my enjoyment of this place and my patience for all the repetitive discourse, lousy ragebait, general cringy shit have worn pretty thin. atp i don't even care much about /lgbt/ matters beyond my own transitionif i had ONE real friend, i swear...
>>44592700But will YOU be their real friend??
>>44583401Hatred™
>>44592726Oh shit, I thought I was on /v/, legitimately couldn't tell apart for like 20 posts what the fuck.
>>44592734Should've been easy to tell apart.Much straighter here.
>>44592708depends who 'they' is obviously. i recognize i have the potential to be a weasel and shy away from connection. but i could also see myself making someone's life better. idk
>>44589221>I get so anxious about the government taking my gender away and my whole life that I've built falling apart sometimes.I know what you mean. I have a ton of money saved and can't really talk about it, because I can't do normal people things with it. I would get asked why I don't buy a house or go on vacation or spend more on my hobbies, when in reality if I don't save it for having to suddenly leave the country and survive without a job for who knows how long, the option of disappearing on PTO with tens of thousands in the bank needs to stay as a failsafe. I used to think I had financial trauma but I think the saddest part is that my reaction to the political climate is actually very rational, even if it only adds to my isolation on a personal level.>what helped me is to throw a little hrt anniversary party for just myself where I can reflect and be proud of myself for how far I've made it, even though I can't really share it with anyone I know.I never would have thought of this, thank you. I guess I could make a timeline collage of all my photos over the years and how I've changed from back then.>>44592197>I live in a world where nobody knows I am, and I struggle with this private feeling of pride of what I've gone through.>Nobody around me will ever understand, and in a way it's something I have to bear alone.My heart goes out to you. The struggle of transition that I've had to bear alone is so rational, I'm a minority after all and I survive by tricking others into thinking I'm not, it makes sense that I'd have to tackle it all myself. But the feelings of joy that come up from succeeding, despite the odds, that still can't be shared with anyone, those hurt me too because I'm not used to it nor was I expecting them. Little moments of looking in the mirror and thinking "I'm so happy to just look like myself" can't be expressed as relief instead of confidence, or the big moments like getting my birth certificate back with my actual name on it.
>>44583401passive scrolling. curiosity. sometimes there are good threads here
>>44583401i have nowhere else to go
>>44592965Thank you for writing these words and for reminding me we're not actually alone. I'm grateful we can at least connect a little through the anonimity of this dumb website. To OP, this is why I come here, who knew 4chan could offer this kind of catharsis.
>>44592708pull yourself up by your bootstraps shit
>>44595509Newton says I'm not allowed to do that.
>>44583401sometimes helpful or entertaining threads, I usually just gloss over the trash and look for something with substance to itpeople here can be mean but also really genuinely nice and not patronize meI also prefer less hugbox and try to look at things realistically when it's helpful I'm also autistic so it feels a lot of people here inherently understand some things like I do etc etc etc
I like flirting with trannies sometimes
>>44583401it give me stuff think bout :3
>>44583401insight into the minds of pornbrained asexuals in denial, AGPs, and the illness of boymoders
