i've been relatively normal my entire life aside from the obligatory 2020 afab bi phase and for the rest of it i've been comfortably cishet but ive spontaneously been flooded with aap fantasies of being a gay dude or just socializing with males and larping as a cis male for hardly any reason ??? (besides accidentally falling in love with a gay dude and having the trigger thought of "if i was just a guy blah blah") i've always avoided crap like yaoi (so not a fujo aap situation) bc of jealousy but i always felt like it was just a cucking thing but now it's like i feel like i wanna be a guy ??? (fyi ive known about the existence of trans people long before this and felt neutral / disconnected from my body in general this whole time) realistically i wouldn't poon out because i have a desirable female body and it'd be stupid but i keep finding myself falling into my fantasies and it's making me wanna rope . to make it worse anything male triggers my intrusive thoughts of wanting to be a guy and i keep trying to avoid it and push myself towards hyperfemininity to discourage it but it's literally impossible . testosterone is poison and id rather just end it now than end up as an ugly man but seeing men be beautiful and feminine while still reading as male is literally the worst thing bc it's impossible and beyond ridiculous for an afab to pass as a man who sorta looks like a woman it's either pooner or hypermasc lumberjack builds . everyday i wake up bitter about the vessel i was objectively blessed withim so conflicted . i've only been repping for a couple months but i know if i keep going one day im gonna snap and cease my consciousness and i don't wanna waste my life but atp it's already wasted if im stuck dreaming of what ill never have idk what to do
>>44592558Could just tomboymax to slow dose it or something.
How tall are you?
>>44592582I'm just asking this because short men are in the bottom trash tier of society btw.
>>44592582NTA, but 6'7"Am I cooked?
>>445925825'3" + 87 lbs and nightmarishly fast metabolism where all the weight i do gain goes straight to my hips it's prob over
>>44592558When I started having thoughts like this I lasted about 6 months before pooning out. The first few months sucked and were incredibly humiliating but I started passing as male after less than a year and my life completely changed, I'm able to interact with other men as a man and I generally feel so much more alive than I did as a woman. I ended up as a kind of a feminine looking guy because of my basedboy genes and I'm also 5'2, but I pass so nothing else really matters. Your situations sounds very similar to where I was a few years ago, I'm telling you it is possible to get what you want eventually. These thoughts won't go away.
>>44592614It's ogre unless you're from a manlet country
>>44592558NO!
>>44592558Yeah I felt the same way, I was uncomfortable with my persona being a cis woman so I changed it to be ftm. I would rather be sexually harassed as a man than as a woman, but yet I like women’s fall fashion lmfao they’ve got better shit than menMaybe try enby coping?
>>44592558is mmj malebrainedis pjsk
>>44592614i'm half an inch shorter than you and have similar fat distribution (but higher bmi) and i pass. 5'3 isn't so short that it's outside the realm of possibility for men, if you live in an area with a lot of hispanic & asian people u might even be taller than some adult cis men around u. in my area ive seen grown mexican construction workers that were like 4'11. also wide hips are pretty easy to conceal with clothing, just wear well fitting straight or bootcut jeans with slightly oversized tops.
>>44592558honestly its controversial to say, but if you really have to ask its probably a no, you should know yourself already, same goes for men
>>44595372oh no no no no no no. It is superlatively fembrained.
>>44595496>and I passlol uh huh.
