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I don't even know what brand o(...) 08/24/26(Mon)17:18:54 No.44597801

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I don't even know what brand of tranny or homo I am Anonymous 08/24/26(Mon)17:18:54 No.44597801

I'm a gay guy who got on estrogen and anti androgens at 18 because I felt that I didn't get to be a gay young boy (homophobic parents, homophobic school) so I tried to prologue my youth by stopping testosterone from turning me into an ugly bastard. That way I could be a twink or femboy. I really don't want to be a woman because I have 0 interest in the female sex and also most of my abusers and homophobes were women, however I would probably kill myself if I went off HRT, I really don't want to become more masculine, or even don't want to remain as masculine as I am now. But since I won't be looking like the androgynous boys from the yaoi I read and watch I am doomed to feel unattractive and gender dysphoric. It's awful.
Pic rel is the porn type I jerk off to the most. I also occasionally do it to femboys or shotas. Very rarely (almost never) to futas. But never ever to women. Can a /tttt/ expert tell me what brand of tranny I am, and if it's rare or common?

TLDR: I take estrogen to not be masc and ugly but I also jerk off to yaoi all the time, I want to be a yaoi boy but HRT is forcing me to either be a conetits tranny or detrans and be an ugly bastard.
I realize after writting this, I am the closest there is to an AMAB transmasc