i miss the night i met the only man ive ever been with. it was 2 months ago and he gave me burbon, gin, sake, and snake liquor until my vision became so blurry i had to close one eye to focus in on things. i remember trying to stand up but falling down. he carried me to his bed and went out to buy me insomnia cookies. he also cut my food for me and bought me presents. i finally felt like a woman.but he didnt know i was a trans for the entire 2 months i dated him. i told him and he ended it. i miss him. i would still be with him if i was cis. deceiving straight men is an art, a skill to be honed, but it isnt enough anymore.i must become cis.
fuuuuck we are all ngmi, i'm sorry that happened to you nona
