I think that I might be nonbinary or something, I'll definitely stay on e. But it is crazy, I actually did it. I actually beat my pseudodysphoria by abstaining from trans content. I really don't know how that happened. I just somehow, someday gave up on the idea of adhering to femininity 100%. It's been 1.5 weeks so far. I want to stay this way, Please, Universe, give me mercy, please let me stay this way, I beg you. I feel like playing the Steins;Gate 0 VN had really helped me. I know that I loved larping as Okabe Rintaro before these thoughts had ever started. I had ignored my male parts of me. My brain is split, in some ways. Calling myself bigender or fluid feels kinda cringe tho. I won't do that. I am whatever. I just wanna look feminine or close to a woman, and present male if I want to.Big W. My Steins;Gate awaits me.
eventually, you realize it's all bullshit. not just gender, everything. then you're free. now you just need to cultivate your tao and become immortal
>>44604098I hope that I can reach that path. I'm aware of it, but still, because I'm human, I'm bound by those gaps. I don't wanna be immortal tho, that is bs too. I don't see the gap between consciousnesses tho, I don't see a difference between mine and someone's else. I feel like that I'm bound to existance as long as the universe exists. And who knows if it is finite, or infinite.
>>44604038You did it! You're free of the binary. Live as you like, control your body to make it the way you want it to look, dress how you want regardless of gender stereotypes. I hope you can find true happiness and love in your freedom.
>>44604289>I feel like that I'm bound to existance as long as the universe exists.then what makes you mortal if the universe is you
>>44604649I'm not saying that I am universe. I just fundamentally don't see a difference between my stream of consciousness and somebody else's. This being that I am and its memories are mortal. Unless the universe is either infinite in space, or in time (and somehow reverses its entropy). In that case, with enough space or time, there's a certain chance that I and everything around me might be 100% recreated. I don't actually believe this, but it is always a possibility.
>>44604038congrats enjoy ur vn ^^
>>44604038something similar happened to me recently, and I really hope I stay this way. I'm finally somewhat functional again
