I am mtf and i look fem and wear dresses and makeup and allat but i have a man's mind. I like fighting and poker and spend all my time being sarcastic and talk more like a man would (in terms of speech, not voice) on purpose. There is lterally no reason at all why i should call myself a woman. I live in constant fear and shame of other people potentially perceiving me as trans, which makes me feel disgusting. I double down on this by acting tough and masculine to hide my very sensitive feelings. All it does is make me seem like even more of a man, but I hate my body and would rather draw attention to anything else.I want to really fight somebody and get this upset out of my system, but i havent been able to. My girlfriend won't fight me because I'm too strong. I feel empty and I want to live in a constant state of danger and violence and nothing makes me feel good but that.
>>44610150Unironically take psychedelics, like shrooms or something. If you live in the US, look up xumtrip.
>>44610150You are raped and enslaved if you still unironically believe in malebrained/femalebrained as real and essential things. So stop caring and being a whiny bitch. Then go get yo thong out yo bussy, playa.
>>44610193I don't want too because i already have psychosis If i take that stuff then my medical issues become moral failure>>44610244It feels like coming into contact with a brick wall when i try to relax and socialize with most women. Whatever causes that reality check alienates me
>>44610269Yes because they're alienating you. Female socialization is built on convoluted unspoken rules and bullshit rituals and modes of behavior. Even cis autistic women experience this alienation. Get over it, the automatons are not worth your time.
>>44610293Thats what ive done and all my friends are men and besides my feminine body what did i transition? I'm still a male to the world, and all my work has been for nothing.
>>44610316Your work and transition has been for yourself. Enjoy it.
>>44610150For the most part I feel like a man on hrt instead of a woman, I don't even bother dressing feminine but somehow get gendered female anyway which gives me anxiety
>>44610583Tomboy,,, waow-
>>44610150i'm a manmoder and don't really care about being fem/malebrained because i hate women and feminine mannerisms. what is bad is being dull, emotionless and avoidant in a manly way and not a cute socially awkward way, people also say that i'm obsessed with not being percieved as a tranny and act performatively masculine and it sucks and probably the reason why i can't hold close friendships
>>44610150>I am mtf and i look fem and wear dresses and makeup and allat but i have a man's mindbased?
I wish I had a male brained tranner to play vidya with
>>44610150Wow you are literally me.>There is lterally no reason at all why i should call myself a womanCringe. The only cringe malebrained thing is simping, which is what you are doing by doing this.
>>44611257Nta but what if you like being a man and can't see yourself as a woman but still are gender dysphoric and hence transitioned?
>>44610998>what is bad is being dull, emotionless and avoidant in a manly wayThis. Trannies are best when avoiding the worst aspects of both sexes. Being performatively emotionless, avoidant, and golem-like like a moid, or being performatively vapid and weak like a foid are both horrible personality traits. >>44611269I mean that's a perfectly valid thing to do. Wanting to change your body and wanting to purposefully induce some form of identity death are two wildly different things.
>>44611244do you fw modded minecraft
>>44611285I do not unfortunately
>>44611285Modded minecraft has fallen so far desu. Basically every pack has the same problem. Shoutout to og shit like tekkit.
>>44610269Ok yeah psychedelics are not for you. Sorry nona, you'll just have to do therapy the slow, old fashioned way. Or just use AI.
>>44611244What games do you like, anon?
>>44611629Primarily shooters but also action/rpg stuff and party games.
>>44610150>picrel from F/Za woman of taste I see.
