That's bullshit, but I believe it.

Reddit has a detrans board maybe you should visit it.

>>44616564
yeah kinda same, it was more like a confluence of many minor things. desire for attention and belonging and value sure, also body dysmorphia, feeling genuinely hideous. also probably just porn addiction, not having a social life, not knowing how to be a "man" in any successful way, feeling weak and pathetic and unlovable. oh well!

>>44616571
It’s not bullshit. feminine things and people make me cringe, idk what the fuck I was thinking

Well I got tits so there’s no going back.

I am lowering my EEn dose to 3.6mg so my dick can keep working. If you are doing EEn might want to look into titrating down your dose such that you regain desired sexual function while still feminizing, albeit a bit slower.

>>44616589
I did but it’s all pooners. also I never believed I was trans, like I don’t even know what was going through my mind when I did this

>>44616591
though sometimes i do genuinely like being feminine but then the next day ill be kind of just freaked out by what im doing and feel pangs of jealousy towards normal men who can just function normally and have a girlfriend but its inevitable i will slip back into the crossy fantasies to self soothe

>>44616605
As long as ur bits still work and you haven’t chopped them off you haven’t ruined your body.

>>44616610
So I mean at this point I think you should own the fact that you have secondary female characteristics, but consider lowering estrogen and raising testosterone a bit such that ur dick works again.

>>44616564
It happens. I don't think transgenderism is real or valid after reading this board and other media where they discuss their lives. It seems like being trans is a voluntary choice people make to enter a social collective and gain friends or sex. LGB are involuntary on the other hand, and just how they were born.

>>44616614
I have gyno tho
and my body looks really weird and frail now

>>44616663
Enby max then. Ur not a man, but ur not a woman.

>>44616672
idk I think I just want to be a normal man now. but idk how I can cope with having done this to myself

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>>44616708
Idk but this is what I want to be except still on E

>>44616591
bdd and isolation was definitely a big part of it for me. Also self hate, I always wished I could restart my life somehow

>>44616719
i just don’t want to stand out. I didn’t realize how much I value the invisibility of being a straight male

>>44616742
Idk just move to a woke blue city that doesn’t care if ur a tranny or not. I’m in DC right now.

>>44616652
lesbians and gays definitely have the same thing though, especially being a gay man is like an entire sexual subculture and way to live that goes beyond simple attraction, its how you relate to other people and conceive yourself as well.

>>44616642
not OP but i just take bica and low dose hrt. its okay but what bothers me is that i still look obviously male but with this effeminate thing about me, and im afraid im just not attractive to anybody. even though i would have really hated getting more masculine and i was gonna kill myself when i started, i do just feel this envy towards the normality of masculinity, its whats expected, its what women like and its normal. now i have to find someone who likes trannies who dont really pass and also dont really act or look female.

>>44616749
>being a gay man is like an entire sexual subculture and way to live that goes beyond simple attraction, its how you relate to other people and conceive yourself as well.
Which is also largely involuntary because gay men are generally not welcome to hang out with straight people. Men claiming to be trans are trying to leave the straight world and enter into this, whatever this is, polycules and sex parties and druggy lifestyle. It's an identity you can put on and take off at will like a costume.

>>44616759
You need to find bi and queer women.

Personally I like women a tiny bit though I never acted on it; I am basically almost completely attracted to men. I can definitely see how attracting straight women would be impossible really.

>>44616774
to be honest part of the problem is that ive never really dated and i have no social skills, i can hardly make friends so im not likely to go on dates with women who intimidate me

>>44616729
yes the idea that this life i have is not the one im supposed to be living and by doing the radical transition i can totally change it from the ground up, instead of accepting what i am and trying to improve it, just went straight off the deep end into something that can never really be successful, but theres always the fantasy of oh 1 more year of hrt and ill feel better

>>44616819
Same lmao I have autism. I have only had male friends.

I don’t know if you are bi, but I’d say try hinge with gynophillic restrictions set and say you are non binary. Do this as something passively off to the side while you mostly go after guys for your sexual and romantic needs. Or at least, that’s what I plan to do lol

>>44616748
I already live in a woke blue city, you still stand out as a weird looking male even if people don’t hate you for it
>>44616830
yea same I never understood how other ppl just accept the life and body they are forced into

>>44616850
maybe that would work but i have severe doubts theres more than a handful of women into that in a 20 mile radius lmao

im basically reddit bisexual. i would fuck a guy just because hey its nice to not be alone and be with someone who likes video games too. but women are just like this mysterious entity that i can never understand or be like, its cringe. i think i have to work on being a desirable person first probably and if that never happens gg

>>44616564
social contagion is fake except for this one guy

>>44616953
idk if its social contagion for me bc I never believed I was trans. Just once I learned estrogen exists I became obsessed with the idea that you could take a pill and watch your body change and eventually I fell victim to my own intrusive thoughts, now I’ve come back to my senses

>>44616937
Then learn to accept to stand out. Be special. You only live one life, don’t be a conforming cissoid.

The people that hate you for being trans are assholes, and that’s their fault. Fuck them. Boomers will all be dead in 10 years anyway. I think most people are fine with anyone using they/them or non-binary pronouns/identity because it won’t assume another gender that potentially you might not pass as.

>>44617012
well idk if its the same but i had a similar experience one time when i was younger and realized i had been a lanklet my entire life. i decided to start working out just to see what my body would look like. now im addicted to the gym and cant stop. basically we are the same and we're gonna make it breh.

>>44617038
I am a conforming cissoid tho. Like before I thought I was just choosing to conform but now I realize it’s a fundamental part of who I am. Also it’s not just boomers that hate troons, increasing numbers of young ppl hate them too. And let’s be real no one not even the most woke ppl ever take enbies seriously

>>44617074
Well I find in DC where I am most people, especially around my age, are fine with it. And I’ve meet much cooler queer people than myself lol.

Plus by enby identity punches a little bit of weight cause I actually am taking HRT, 3.6mg EEn weekly

>>44617057
I’ve also been weak my whole life and was always horrible at every sport, that definitely contributed to this. but I could never gym bc I’m too scared to be around other ppl and don’t have the discipline to do things myself

>>44617096
I don’t think i really fit in with queers tho, I literally used to go to an arts school and had zero friends there. I really am just a normie cis dude on the inside, I just for various reasons failed to realize that life

>>44617130
Get on testosterone cissy

this COULD be a glowie... unsure

>>44616773
As if no gay man has ever pretended at straightness to get into preferable spaces and gain the benefits of normative behavior, as if the tiny slice of hyper online tranny attention whores that make up these spaces are in any way a reliable measure of average trans experiences, as if even half of those twitter trannies are honest about having drug fueled orgies, as if gay men aren't famously loose and high in their community gatherings, as if it's more acceptable in typical circles to be trans than gay, as if

>>44616759

>now i have to find someone who likes trannies who dont really pass and also dont really act or look female.

ring ring... a transbian relationship is calling

>>44617201
everything im saying is true, I wish it were fake