Uhhh hi, I'm 26, and I've wanted to be a girl since I was around 14. I told my parents back then, but it was really awkward and went nowhere, so I mostly stopped thinking about it. Sometimes I forget about it entirely.I've never really felt like transitioning would actually make me satisfied or feel like a “real” girl anyway. I don't really identify as gay or queer, and I've never been interested in crossdressing before.Lately, though, I've started wanting to wear skirts and cute clothes and actually look cute. The problem is that I'm tall and have a very masculine frame, so I feel like I'd just look ridiculous. I keep wishing I were younger, shorter, and cuter, and it's turning into a bit of a crisis.I'm honestly feeling pretty hopeless about ever getting to experience the life I want. I've prayed so many times that I'd somehow wake up as a girl, and even though I know that's unrealistic, part of me still hopes God might somehow give me what I want. It's basically the only hope I have left for experiencing that dream.what should i do just kill myself or something?i hate that'd i'd literally do anything but there is nothing i could possibly do to get what i really want i would sacrifice a lot and commit atrocities if it meant i would be rewarded with being a cute girl.
>>44623216god isn't real and if he is he hates fags that's why he made AIDSyou need to take charge of your own life and stuff
>>44623216Time to troon out nona. Research hrt and acquire it
>>44623233we don't have the prognosis yet thoughif she's 6'5" with strongman genetics it's rep or rope
>>44623240Hons deserve to be happy too. I say go for it regardless
>>44623250being a twinkhon is bad enough, gigahons need to be mercy killed
>>44623216you guys are missing the point, this is a textbook case of primary AGP. the only real way for someone like nona to be satisfied is to become cute and feminine, their desire to transition is motivated purely by anatomy and not social dysphoria as is the case with HSTS or secondary/late onset AGP. late transition often makes these people go insane because it simply can't give them the biology of what OP calls a "cute girl" and they are neurotic to a point of rejecting social interest so becoming a trans woman socially won't usually give them relief. i am interested in finding out exactly how tall or masculine-built OP is though, some people like this can still be satisfied with transition results in adulthood if they're not already overly masculine. early intervention is really important in these cases though.
>>44623291if boymoding makes me feel like my soul is being raped despite my body feminizing, does that mean I'm agp or realtrans?
>>44623298realtrans doesn't exist. AGP sufferers of both kinds are trans too, they just have different motivations for transitioning. i'm not a blanchardian btw, he had some good ideas but his theories are incomplete and not comprehensive enough. pretty much everyone who's tried to categorise trans people to date has been retarded.
>>44623314I agreewhat typology do you suggest
>>44623216get on hrt immediately before any more damage occurs. male puberty never ends, you will continue to masculinize until you become the protagonist of I have not mouth and I must scream. I am not exaggerating. go to hrtgen, learn to diy and do it asap
>>44623360Yes this this this. It will only get worse if you don't stop it right now
>>44623318i don't have a concrete suggestion yet but i can say where i'm at with it now. i do think HSTS is a thing and is still the most common type of trans woman in much of the third world and in some more religious first world countries. i would suggest splitting AGP into two or even more categories, there's clearly a pretty big difference between someone like OP and your average r/translater john 50 who has strong social dysphoria and crossdresses in private and so on. i would suggest a category for loud rebellious queer male types who transition as a fuck you against society, maybe transmaxxers are similar, like revenge transitioners. i also think there's an emerging category that includes femboys but i don't have a term for them.
>>44623375transmaxxers are skinwalkersbasically they got tired of misandry and trooned to escapemany pooners are accused of doing the same to escape misogyny, although they're believed to do so subconsciously
>>44623375femboycopers are your regular teenage rogd type who misinterprets it as having a stylistic preference
(I define rogd as a dysphoric who has a past of being secure in their asab and imagining their future self happy as such, with no desire or curiosity about being the other)
>>446232161. Yeah, many of us don't consider ourselves queer pre-transition, and we transition into being not only women but queer at the same time. I think it's pretty awesome, I really enjoy being queer and I was pretty jealous of the community for a long time as an outsider. Now I get to participate in it myself.2. Yeah so unfortunately there's nothing that can be done about your frame, but you can be a tall girl? Downside is that even cis tall girls get treated like trans girls do, so you can kinda kiss the idea of total assimilation goodbye. Also you're going to have a hard time finding clothes that fit you. HRT gives you *some* shrinkage but it's really not much, less than 5%.3. Even without total assimilation, being some kind of woman would probably still make you feel better than being a man. I would recommend trying to HRT to anyone who has some inkling that being a woman would make them happier than being a man.
>>44623216Same boat OP, started hrt a few months before turning 26. I'm 30 now. Make sure your endocrinologist doesn't put you on the minimum dose. they're gonna start you on pills. Dissolve them under your tongue. Get on injections as soon as you can. if the concentration is of the vial is 20mg/ml inject .3ml... your Endo would prob put you at .15ml. and get progesterone and boof it. Or, or don't bother transitioning. The changes you desire the most - your ribcage shrinking, your shoulders narrowing, your hunchback straightening (this one's projection), your face feminizing, these all won't change unless you get surgery. I feel like we're the same. You want to resemble a woman, even if she's ugly. and that hope is the only thing keeping you alive
>>44623446the fact that transitioning is considered queer made me rep for like 6 yearsif trannies weren't mentally insane freaks I could've been a youngshit
>>44623482Bro, it's not our fault, you realize. It's society that designates us as queer. There are non-queer gays and lesbians (insufferable disgusting assholes) and most bisexuals are non-queer. Hell, plenty of trannies are non-queer. I think I used to work with a stealth passoid. I could tell, because I'm, you know, a tranny myself and I know the signs, but I don't think anyone else could.
>>44623216me on the left no matter how much sleep I get
>>44623492it's faggots' fault for being freaks that nobody wants to associate with
>>44623482weakwanting to be queer is dumb though
>>44623460>go to cissoid docters!!!>no mention of diy
>>44623460I was put on .25ml at this same ratio, would doing .3 make any meaningful difference? Or is it whatever>>44623482Understandable. I'm definitely not queer>>44623492I love being a stealth passoid
>>44623375>i do think HSTS is a thing and is still the most common type of trans womanyeah bro.. imma disagree with u one that real quick
>>44623520didn't finish the sentence award
>>44623250hons are rarely happy >>44623291this >t. knower
>>44623546hons are happier than reppers
>>44623250This, people who care about optics forget trans scare laws exist because of passoids tricking cishet men into gay sex
>>44623291All trannies are agp lol, hsts don't appear in newer studies in the West, you only see them in places where gay transmaxxing makes sense
>>44623587trans scare laws exist because of the bourgeoisie needing a group for the public to take their discontent out on that isn't them
>>44623216Worst case scenario you hrtrepp so you don't die inside/keep dying inside
>>44623587You think you're agreeing with me, but no..... nnooo
>>44623587no it's because being a tranny is much worse than having any std and if you don't immediately tell everyone then you're an evil rapist and deserve to be murdered on the spot
>>44623602I don't think it's gay sex, but it's the narrative behind those laws
>>44623603Lol keep crying faggot
>>44623610IWNBAW I'm going to blow my brains out
>>44623517sorry it didn't even cross my mind. but yes OP, endocrinologists will put you on the lowest acceptable dose and want to put you on spiro, an anti androgen you do NOT want to be on. They won't tell you about or put you on progesterone. They're working off archaic false information that any higher dosage than the minimum will give u blood clots. So here's what u do. u can buy some crypto on coinbase, wait for it to clear so you can spend it (usually takes a week), then go to hera hrt (there are many diy sellers this is just the one I used) and buy vials. idk if I even trust them fully so I'll get my levels checked a couple months into using the diy vials once I crack the first one open. my diy vial (estradiol valerate) concentration is 40mg/ml, unlike the pharmacy vial which is half that. So once I open a hera vial I'll be back at .15ml. weekly belly injection. Although on valerate ur injection interval should be 5 days, not 7.
>>44623518sorry for not replying to ur question. I don't think it would make a meaningful difference.
>>44623643I just had my 1 year HRT checkup and my endo flat out refused prog saying "there's no scientific evidence blah blah blah" (I don't care)how long after starting e is it best to start prog?I heard 2 years but idk
>>44623681as soon as you can. there's no point in waiting
>>44623702fml
>>44623702will I end up with cone tits and puffy nipples forever if I wait too long?
>>44623603trve, men actually be like>would I rather be infected with herpes or the gay>hm>herpes
>>44623716no
>>44623733modern men are cucked by christian sex hating moralitytopping isn't gayonly bottoming is gayif you tried to call a viking gay he would have laughed at you and then raped you in the ass
