my uncle sexually abused me for several years when i was a child, eventually i learned to give in to what he wanted and even began to seek it out, both for the rewards he'd give me if i did well but also just for the attention and satisfaction. i've read that this typically leads to hypersexuality as a young adult but for me it was the opposite, i became a shut in incel terrified of any sexual interest anyone ever showed me (this was admittedly very rare). now i want to be a woman despite never wanting that as a child or even really as a young adult. is this agp?
>>44638937What do you like about the idea of being a woman, OP?
>>44638937i wish i got "sexually abused"
>>44638937no its not agp
>>44638937You're trans and definitely traumatized. I'm terribly sorry
>>44638937go to a therapist before you ask this shitty board whether you're agp or not. You've got other issues to worry about...
My sister sexually assaulted me till I was a teen and then reported me when she was done and bored
>>44638937No just some kind of trauma response.
>>44639097i slept on this question and still got nothing, guess i dont really want it after all. that makes me sad but oh well>>44639113he made me suck his dick and would hit me on the head if i refused. happy now?
>>44641256Well, put it in the most concrete terms possible. Do you want to look like a man or a woman when you get old? Do you like having a big chest? Do you like having boobs and a waist? Smooth skin? Beard and body hair?
>>44642073i dont want to get old and i dont like having a body at all
>>44642302Too bad. That's what it means to be alive. How would you rather spend your youngest years then, which sounds the least like a personal hell? Growing boobs or growing facial and body hair? Visceral potbelly or subcutaneous hips and love handles?
>>44638937>>44640570that sounds horrible, I'm so sorry op and anon, wishing you the best.
>>44641256why would i be happy with someone saying they were hit as a child? that is a bad thing.
>>44642483questions like this are hard to answer honestly because its obvious which answer leads to which conclusioni hate being a man but i guess that has no bearing on whether i want to be a woman or not
>>44640484>go to the rapist who is guaranteed to say you are probably not trans sweaty
>>44641256>i slept on this question and still got nothing, guess i dont really want it after all. that makes me sadhmmmmm
>>44644940>i hate being a man but i guess that has no bearing on whether i want to be a woman or notit often does. why do you hate being a man
>>44638937It's not agp. I'm sorry what happened to you, I hope you can find yourself
>>44645756no>>44645778i hate my body being as large as it is, i hate my hairline receding, i hate being horny all the time, i hate having to shave, i hate hair on my knuckles and chest, i hate my voice being so deep, i hate not having female friends because they dont trust me, i hate not being able to trust anybody female or male, i hate the fact that my heart is going to blow up before i'm 60 when women live well into their 80s usually, i hate not being able to cry, i hate not being able to think or feel or live
>>44646406Okay, see, those sound like the actual makings of gender dysphoria.If it makes you feel better, the correlation is that people around you can in fact recognize your true gender before you do and will sometimes prey on this. He did not turn you trans, he did this because you were always a girl.
>>44646406you are trans. get on diy asap
>>44646918what if im lying and dont even know it, i feel like i dont mean anything i say
>>44646978Normal people don't think about hating being a man. Every minute you don't try hormones to see if you like being a girl, is another moment you'll be wondering if you wanted to be a girl or not, and another moment of potentially unwanted masculinization. It is time to fuck around and find out, or do you want to keep living in pain with no other solution?
>>44646978it is EXTREMELY unlikely that you are not trans. so taking estrogen is the best option. if you get ultra mega turbo dysphoria from it you can just quit. but right now you're getting ultra mega turbo dysphoria from testosterone so you should probably yknow do something about that
>>44647038am i in pain? mostly i feel nothing
>>44647595you will be
