>inb4 no sympathy for passoidsI'm well aware my life is still better than people who don't/can't passMy life feels hollow though. Like I've given up so many of my hobbies and interests and spend so much of my time on things I don't care about just to fly under the radar. I genuinely hate makeup and feminine clothing but with transvestigation so high I can't afford any level of tomboyery. All my friends, allies or not, say this transmisogynistic and bioessentialist bullshit to where I know they would not view me the same if they knew, even if they'd act like it to save face. The worst is everyone thinking I'm straight, I tried to do the whole meta attraction game and it was the most disgusting year of my life. I just tell my girlfriends "it's so hard to find a good guy so I don't bother anymore" and nod along while they fawn over men, as if I don't want to beat the sap of a thick fresh oak. All these people would hate who I actually was and not tolerate me for a second if they knew. Every day I live as someone I don't want to be.I miss playing Monster Hunter and TES3MP with friends on discord and not spending hours getting ready everyday, just in a tshirt and sweats, jacking off and flirting with chicks, fucking around saying edgy bullshit, talking about all the niche and weird music and games we liked.But I can't go back since I ghosted all my old friends I met on here because I thought I'd be happier being a "normal woman". That all the self hate would stop because I was finally moral and what a trans woman is supposed to be. And it didn't. So really I deserve it and can't complain. But it still hurts.If you're thinking of doing something like this then don't. Stop caring about gender roles or avoiding being agp or being malebrained/fembrained and other nonsensical shit.
happiest faketrans endgame scenario:
most committed faketranny
trannies are assimilationist gays>I want to find a man>as a womanyeah that's called assimilation bro
>>44646187>>44646196more trans than (you)isnt passing and assimilation supposed to be the point T_T
>>44646210it's not about the passing and assimilation its about the desire, the drive to achieve these things that makes the troon. you don't even wanna be here bro but you got there cuz you figured that was all it took, but there's layers to this shityou were only surface level from the start
>>44646210Maybe if you're a raped slave. The goal is a body you like that doesn't cause dysphoria and nothing else.
>>44646166Yeah it's pointless, I just tomboymode and avoid normies>>44646210They're calling you faketrans because chasers think womanhood is tied to being into men. You pass, most "straight" trannies don't
>>44646235>its about the desireSounds like a hon cope to me.
>>44646235She wouldn't have achieved all that if she wasn't really trans lol. This is just another case of a brainwormed tranny thinking she has to be straight in order to be v4lid
>>44646201So gaydens = real gays?>I want to find a man>as a man
>>44646242This so much >>44646253Fr, fembrain and soulpassing are honcopes
>>44646260Btw >>44646210 is a different poster, not me.
>>44646247>>44646260sexuality has nothing to do with it
>>44646166Well, yeah. I didn't transition to "be a woman", I would fucking hate living the life of an average Stacy. I transitioned to be me, and that happens to be some kinda lesbian femboy and that's fine
>>44646303Soulpassing is honcope. She passes, she literally made it. Her issue is trying to assimilate
>>44646353Says the soulhon
>>44647524says the everything hon
>>44646166Then stop?
>>44647821This please, for your own good ):
>>44646166Fuck this shit. Transitioning is about being yourself. I'm not giving up my extremely nerdy, autistic male interests, nor should you, nona.
this is 100% my experience written down. im sorry nona i hope we can both find a place we belong.
>>44648386you belong in the contraption
Imagine thinking you're perfectly stealth AND living life like a paranoid Soviet spy
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>>44646166Your self-actualisation as a woman saw you sacrificing parts of your personhood because you let perceived ideas of what a woman needs to be like that you think others might have influence you too much. Self actualise as a person now. Be who you want to be, unabashed and unashamed, for that is the greatest affront to those who hate you, and the greatest source of happiness you could possibly find. >But what if my friends hate meThose people aren't your friends. They befriended a persona you adopted for safety. >I'll be lonely You steal your chance at happiness by pretending to he someone else. The pseudo-companionship you feel is but a placebo. The loneliness is still there, you just drape it in pretty cloth because you think that's expected of you. Embrace the temporary loneliness of becoming genuine, it is the only chance you have at finding real and meaningful connection. >I thought assimilation is happiness It's safety at the cost of happiness. That safety is a burden because you fear that it is upended every waking minute. You torture yourself because the suffering of the familiar outweighs the terror of the unknown, the branching paths of what-of are daunting and foggy and unpredictable. That is normal. But be aware of it, as what you currently as the doing clearly does not serve your happiness.
>>44646166>I miss playing Monster Hunter and TES3MP with friends on discord and not spending hours getting ready everyday, just in a tshirt and sweats, jacking off and flirting with chicks, fucking around saying edgy bullshit, talking about all the niche and weird music and games we liked.your kind should keep to your polycules
Being stealth is based. If you truly pass though, it won't matter how "malebrained" you act. Bonus points if you have srs or orchi at the least.
>>44648393nah.. I'm perfectly stealth and yet assume everyone around me just hugboxxes me 24/7 even tho I live in a country where no one remembers trannies exist. I get the paranoia.
>>44646166>I genuinely hate makeup and feminine clothing but with transvestigation so high I can't afford any level of tomboyeryhave you considered ffs? if you pass with makeup then getting ffs and just having a somewhat female hairstyle should be enough to pass without makeup and clothes
>>44646166This feeling is not exclusive to your situation. Cis people give up their interests to fit in socially, to present themselves as what they think they should be, to embody an ideal, to preserve relationships. I think it's an early step on the journey to being who and what you are on purpose and to be comfortable with that. So you're just a human going through human shit. Life is short, Nona, choose what makes you happy.
>>44648459Sure, but how do you know?How could you ever be sure?You can't rummage around in people's brains.
>>44648456i dunno, women treat stupid women differently. if they clock that you dont have the same faculties they have then youre basically there to be bullied.>>44646201thats not a gay
>>44646166idk why you’re forcing yourself to live a life of hollow fulfillment. I passed 6 months in, been on hrt for 10 years, did (or tested) the blending in experience and it just never vibed with me: make up, typical cissoid (neurotypical) hobbies, attempts at being stereotypically foid, etc. And I learned it just felt more freeing to do whatever the fuck i wanted to do, and hangout in the circles that I wanted to hangout. People still need me to tell them i’m a tranny (cissoids or trannies) where it’s relevant, but i typically just exist as this stealthoid that hangs out in whatever community i’m vibing.You do you nona.
>>44648522>People still need me to tell them i’m a tranny (cissoids or trannies) where it’s relevantgiwtwm, i'm so envious of people without expanded facial planes
>>44648522>I passed 6 months in,Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself Killing myself
>>44648560you shouldnt ever believe anyone who says they pass without reliable proof. treat it as speculative and a hint more at their social situation than anything else.
>>44648574I always assume, especially with AGP itself, that there is a bisexuality in trannies and chasers.It means there is a fuzzy sex radar; a vague idea of "female". This leads to body plan incongruence itself, I postulate.
>>44648574Based blanchard dropping trvked
>>44648580pustulate might be betteryoure right tho
>>44646166I get it, it's not just blending in for brainworms and validity though, a lot of it is based on the safety of being perceived as cishet. Even if we were seen as cis, being seen as tomboyish and lesbian would still be a major downgrade and almost as bad. I've struggled with this in my professional life a lot but I've found a few outlets.I do let myself be kind of tomboyish, but in a cis way. Button ups, chin length hair, skincare instead of makeup, jeans, etc. For the personality stuff I just refuse to let me being a tranny weirdo be an issue for anyone that knows me personally. My friends are other weirdos and gooners and grunglers. I clock out of work where I am a hard working ghost of a person, and immediately get back to my actual life where I can be me and say funny things.I don't think the healthy solution is to ignore the benefits of blending in, but to loosen the chokehold it has on you and give yourself enough room to still exist while blending in where it's actually needed, like at work.If all else fails you can become a vtuber and live a true double life.
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>>44646166>I genuinely hate makeup and feminine clothingThen don't bother with them? I'm more into that stuff than my cis siblings; it's not weird for a woman to not be into this stuff in 2026.>The worst is everyone thinking I'm straightThen get a gf and introduce her to your friends? They probably already suspect you swing that way lol.>I miss playing Monster Hunter and TES3MP with friends on discord and not spending hours getting ready everyday, just in a tshirt and sweats, jacking off and flirting with chicksWhy don't you just do that again then?
>jeeper creeper creepingWhat else is new.
>>44646166Womanhood blows. I detransitioned for professional reasons and because I went homeless but when I got out of that rut I realized I straight up don't want to go back to being perceived by the general public as a woman. I mean, it's...gross, the way we treat women, and me having lived as a man, I know I'm inclined to knock a bitch's teeth out for a lot of that shit.I still feel like a woman inside, and my friends and loved ones all know what I am, and that's good with me. I'm just gonna live out my days mostly as a weirdly effeminate looking dude with rockin' tits no one ever gets to see because I bind now.
i mainly do this because, as you said, the bar for stealth passing is so ridiculously high now. especially if you live in a deep blue state around younger people, they know about trannies and what they look and sound like and exactly what to look for and will out you. and the only way people actually see you and treat you as a woman and not some feminized faggot is (unfortunately) stealth. i usually play up how "fembrained" i am with mannerisms and speech to get along with nt normie straight women. but its more of an exaggeration of how i normally act than completely fake. code switching basically. and i like dressing fem and wearing a little makeup when i go out, just not like a full face every day type stuff. i really relate to the being presumed to be straight, though. im not into men at all and ive never even touched one but i sometimes let people assume i am and play along with their expectations, usually with het people. i was talking to a bi / les cis girl and implied that i liked girls and she was hella surprised lol. but i think thats more bc im not visibly alt / "queer" looking at all really
>>44648574To be fair, being exposed to trans people helps with spotting them better. The average cis person overvalues how well they do it, and it's always easier to spot things when you know when someone is trans>>44648580You think bisexuality causes issues perceiving gender clearly?
>>44649695You're still on hrt?
>>44648590This so much. It's important to learn to mask in social settings without trying to change who you are inside
>>44648459At some point it's better to be fine with being perceived as trans and try to be recognized as women anyway instead of living with paranoia. But cis people simply don't accept us and we're too small as a minority to make a difference, so stealth and manmode will always be tempting depending on your circumstances
>>44650993What if autism and can't mask
>>44652497Idk ): autism adds a layer of complexity because it's a disability
>>44652681I think disability is socially relative rather than autism being innately disabling
>>44646166op do you want to play monster hunter on discord perhapst. tranner who is similar to what your old friends sound like
>>44652757> the only real "mental illness" is schizophreniaOuch
>>44652757Even that isn't always true. Many people in tribes experience what could diagnostically be considered schizophrenia without the typical negative expression of it we see in the in civilization. I'm not an anprim but I do think there's something spiritually depraved about how we live in modernity and that poison seeps into our minds.
>>44646166Sacrificing your own happiness whilst also being trans feels oxymoronic.
