Never posted here before but I can't take it anymore. I've filled every dream my trans partner has since she started and ever since we met, puppy play, getting her a dog bowl, leash, name tag, collar, been more forceful spanking her and literally fucking her for more than 20 minutes full force nonstop until my hips started getting shaky and growing inside her literally pulsating and she still finds a way to complain. She enjoys that but not when I'm away from missing out on it. It's never in person where she complains, she gets the best treatment one could ask for and her family even noticed the hickies on her neck treating her better. I'm patient enough to have dealt with all their splits, even drawn them and been with them at their lowest never wavering being a shoulder or running away. The thanks I get is constant comparisons to this board area from tttt since she wants to be a loser and relate when she has a full fledged partner that has done nearly everything you could imagine. Instead of acknowledging how much I do for her she only cares about her appearance and being drug addicted in the end and actively says daily she hates me and turns into a literal asshole. I can put her in place without trying in person but when I'm away it's like she transforms and attacks me. Surely there's a trans girlfriend that'd love to be spoiled, have everything memorized for them and not have to worry about a thing? She constantly talks of how she's flat with her chest and butt and I deserve better but I constantly reassure her I want her and just love her for her. Am I wrong for just wanting someone to love? I have so much to give it hurts when she ignores me only to act somewhat normal with randoms online when we've been intimate on every aspect imaginable because she will avoid accountability in being wrong like the plague. I guess in that aspect she really is a woman.
some people just don’t wanna be loved. some people want a different kind of love that people like you are incapable of providing, not because you are flawed but because you care so deeply. i dated a girl like that before I transitioned, you could literally give her everything but it will never be enough. genuinely, if she isn’t self improving or growing out of this at all, you should leave. it doesn’t ever get better, i wasted 7 years of my life trying to make that kind of thing work.
>>44648473You sound like a transdood lmfao
>>44648473I'm sorry, she doesn't love you, she acting like narcissist. You need to date someone who is on the same level of maturity as you for a relationship to work out, and she obviously isn't. The issue is, you're seeking out people who are less developed than you and taking upon yourself the burden of their adulthood essentially. >"Surely there a trans girlfriend that'd live to be spoiled, have everything memorized for them, and not have to worry about a thing?"This is why your relationship sucks. You're basically dating a teenager if you're doing this. Find an adult woman who has her own life and wants to share a life with you, not put all their responsibilities onto you.
Some people crave love though from what I've learned attack the person they see most willing to give them the time to fully learn them. I've never thought it was real until experiencing, sorry to the one who had 7 years under their belt and thank you to the other anon too. By the way I'm no transdude, just a regular long haired guy with a big heart. It is practically dealing with an overgrown brat. No amount of correcting works with how broken they are.
>>44648573What do you like about her? I've been in this situation before that's why I'm mentioning the maturity difference. It's really hard to face it when you're codependent. I wanna poach u but I won't pfft. You just seem nice and good hearted
You can call me naive, but maybe I'm clinging onto not losing the only person I saw touch my heart the most. I've gotten offers and tons of matches with people compatibility wise but with her I saw someone hurt just wanting to experience what I did. It might sound stupid but I remember the first time they said I love you, they thought I was sleeping and they admitted to never saying that to anyone else. I'll admit I should be poached or whatever but they touched my heart, and maybe a piece of me wanted to protect that with all I had.
>>44648617Very heartbreaking story and something I relate to deeply. But listen closely; the light you see in them isn't there. It's inside you. It's your hope for them to not hurt anymore, but it's got nothing to do with her. You see the person she could be, the future you could have, but it's not what you have and it likely is not going to happen the way you think it will. This is what I had to learn. A lot of what I saw in my ex was what I hoped for him to be. I thought it was possible, and maybe it still is, but it was all inside my head. He never gave me a reason to believe in him. There were sweet things, things that would make me attached, but it wasn't the hope and the light.It ended in him cheating on me. I hope something like that doesn't happen to you.
Stop talking to her when you're not there. Just let her know when you're coming. She'll either wise up or leave, you win both ways.
>>44648665I'm sorry to hear that happened to you, what they do is practically micro cheating but they don't care. This isn't the same person I fell in love with, they morphed into an entirely different being and won't get help since they just live online and have no care in the world for anything serious. That hope and light should remain strong, I'm thankful mine hasn't died out, no one else could stand them for more than a month or two and I'm going on a couple of years, I should give it to someone who deserves it because this is torture.
>>44648675Maybe I'll try that but she does try to get my attention, I feel like destroying everything we made together because she somehow uses it against me and I know it's not fair to myself
>>44648473>She constantly talks of how she's flat with her chest and buttSo the spoiling was just humping each other and dog stuff...? No bbl or implants?
>>44648690I'm glad you still have yours. I've not felt trust and love for over a year, coming on two years. Everything I've entered has just been a short cynical dance where I try to have the light again just for me to snuff it out on my own. Protect yourself or these callous losers will destroy you.Good luck on finding someone deserving of your love.
>>44648473Terrible writing op, not a single paragraph. How old are you?
>>44648720The spoiling was with gifts, everything they thought of for years kept in memory and more. No BBL or implants no...
>>44648734Thanks, same to you. It's not easy when you're aware of the patterns and see it ahead of time before it happens even if it's with someone totally new who wouldn't do the same. It's gotta be related to some subconscious fear or warning, I have that too now. I hope you good luck too.
>>44648816Consider: you could always find a cooler mtf gf with bigger boobies and fatter ass
>>44648747It's my first time using 4chan, my first post too, I'm in my twenties. I've only ever seen this spot on memes and some twitter threads.
>>44648825Maybe but I love her for her, bigger boobs and a fatter ass might be tempting to most but I really just crave connection. Prior to her I did have experience with other trans girls but not dating, it was nice for what it was and some were very well blessed
