How badly did our fathers fuck up for us to want to have boobs and live like women?I'll start. My father beat up my mom when I was 2 and abandoned us. So I was raised completely around women. My grandmother even let me wear dresses and I never had a haircut and I would color my nails with a red magic marker. By the time I met my father as an adult I was already living fulltime as a female. We met in a Dennys diner by the freeway. I had got there early, he had some idea what I had done to myself but didn't believe it. He looked lost so I flagged him down as he walked past my table. I had my boyfriend with me for protection just in case he pulled some shit. I was in a tiny red dress and heels with my kate spade handbag and my hair partly in braids and I had full salon quality acrylic nails and makeup. He saw my hand up and sat across from us. He looked like he saw a ghost and I could see tears in his eyes. He started with sorries and how badly he fucked up as a dad and how he wished he could have raised me. I really leaned hard on how evil he was to mom, her words coming through me. Then I got more genuine and said I was ready to have a father in my life. Me and my bf spent the night at his house, aka our old family home and in my original bedroom, still with a power rangers poster on the wall. Me and my bf had sex on my bed and my dad's room was literally the next wall over. I was sorta loud, can't help it when I'm getting my crotch filled with cock. I walked down at midnight to the kitchen to get some ice cold milk from the fridge and my dad was sitting in his lazyboy chair in the dark smoking a cigarette and drinking from a tall bottle of jack Daniel's weeping. I eventually moved in with him for a bit trying to find some connection or try to heal our father daughter relationship. Continued
>>44676719 He showed me how to fish, and we went to boat shows and off road expos, I took him with me to malls and he bought me some dresses and watched me as I did yoga once, just to show him my world. My bf lived really close and I would run off with him on weekends or any time my dad was busy. When my dad would get ready for work in the morning I would lay on his bed in my night time lace camisole and panties and listen to him tell me stories as he would drink his coffee and put on his tie. One day he shouted for me to not lay like that and to put something on, he said "a foxy woman rolling around on my bed isn't something I need in my thoughts right now" I didn't get the hint at the time. One night I went to get some of my midnight milk, again in a lace trim purple camisole and lace panties, I mean it's the most cooling and comfy outfit for sleep I can wear so don't blame me. Anyway I put the glass in the sink and my dad rushes over out of the blue and pins me against the refrigerator and cups one of my breasts and says "wow these have grown in nice" I kneed him in the balls and ran to my room and barricaded the door with my vanity table and bed. He didn't follow me. Next day when he was gone at work my bf helped me grab my things and I moved out. Haven't spoke to him since.
>bambi
>>44676719>bambianyways yeah my dad was a drunkard who would insult all of us
Bambi sleep has destroyed yet another white man.... what is causing this epidemic? Back in my day a man could goon and not end up as a full blown woman
My dad was never in my life
>>44676719>BambiI'd disown my daughter too if that's the name she decided on. Unironically troons need to stop naming themselves and let someone else pick names for them. They suck at it. They can't do it. Every single one of them sucks. Years of trooning yet not ONE good self-appointed name. Let your new dad pick your new name even, ffs.
>>44676842Last I heard, these two don't even talk anymore. Bambi is allegedly a sex pest
>>44676842FR. I'll just ask my mom if she ever had a name in mind for if I were a girl before my sex was found out and I'll use that most likely. Or might go from Matthew to a popular name like Matilda, Margaret, Madelyn, something with a ma.
>>44676720jfc
it wasnt just our fathers it was other men and by proxy, patriarchal society as a whole. yes this isnt necessarily a healthy way of coping with it but neither is ending up a bitter drunkard cismoid cig smoker who's incapable of feeling or accepting any kind of love because no one will truly understand him
>>44676720>it's a thinly veiled dadcest thread
>>44676719As a ftm can't relate RIP but you should stop making excuses for you gender identity. It's corny.
>>44676842no my parent's fucked up my name the first time too, and I don't care about having a clocky tranny name.
he just wasn't there most of the time, it's fine, I was never all that upset about it. my mom abused him so i really dont blame him. honestly if he was there he would've just gotten in the way.
>>44676719I actually first told my mom I wanted to be a girl before my dad, and then step dad, fucked my mental and emotional stability up.I am a woman and I got that way because it's true to who I am. My dad, and step dad, just contributed to the pile of issues after the fact.
>>44676719not in the slightest, I'm just defective
>>44676719Mine fucked me up by giving me a home, food, support, love and kindness
>>44677132Oh come on. Patriarchical society didn't make me this way, I was going to end up a woman regardless. Patriarchical society just added trauma layered on trauma.
>>44677142>it's a thinly veiled dadcest thread
>>44676842I asked my mom to, and she got upset that I was changing my name, so I just picked it myself.Idk what to tell you, I just went with a popular name from a baby names list.
>>44676719my parents divorced when I was 5 but dad tried to stay in our lives and we'd visit oftenhis absence didnt lead to me trooning, the signs were already there before they split (hell, while they were in the middle of divorce proceedings and my brother and I were in the courthouse's playroom I wanted to have a tea party), and if anything his presence delayed what I already wanted for myselfI lived with him for awhile after high school. He tried to get me into cars and stuff but it just wasnt for me. I moved out after a few years, but it was good getting to know him better than a few hours a week growing up would allowone of the last conversations I had with him was about what my name would have been if I'd been born a girl (he didn't know, they never had a girl name in mind, so I picked the feminine form of the name he gave me)he died a few weeks after I started hrt. I never got to actually tell him I'm his daughterI miss him
my dad was just emotionally absent as hell mostly. i do remember him being more emotionally involved in my earlier years but he dropped the ball right around when puberty started and i started having body image and self-esteem issues and i really needed him to be there. from then on he was purely the breadwinner, bit of a workaholic in hindsight, and all the actual parenting was up to my mom who was a total helicopter parent and seemed genuinely terrified at the idea of me growing up to be independent. i had no other male role models really, no older brother, my only older male cousin was a neet shut-in, you get the picture. the only adults in my life were my mom and grandmother. i think my dad realised when i was around 16 or 17 that he needed to be doing more and he started trying to relate to me and taking me to the gym and stuff but it was far too late by then unfortunately.
>bambiI enjoy being hypnotized but even I'm not suggestible enough to name myself fucking bambi
>>44676720you owe your dad gay incest sex
>>44676720How could you fucking betray him like that?
>>44677569>>44677526>>44677197>>44677142It's actually not. I had absolutely genuinely no idea I shouldn't have dressed like that around him since I was dressing like that for years already. I just like lace. When I was living with my mom as I started my transition I'd lay on her bed as she got ready for work and talk to her. My dad tries to call me every month but I haven't answered the phone in 6 years. Remember he was the one who beat my mom and destroyed our family.
>>44677658>what were you wearinggetting lusted after is not your responsibility, especially if it's your fucking dad
>>44677789>getting lusted after is not your responsibilityI needed to hear this. Just irl strangers cat call me and I've been groped and touched and I've even been raped. I feel like it's all my fault.
>>44677807it's not. and it's called sexual assault because violence is absolutely justified in retaliation :D
>>44677807so sorry that happened to you, describe the rape
>>44677820I was at a bar and in a cute gold glitter dress with spaghetti straps and highlights in my hair that goes down to my butt. I was looking glam okay...GLAM! so this guy sits next to me and immediately is way to into me, I wasn't guarding my drink carefully and talking to another woman next to me. I turn and finish my drink and it tasted sour. I started getting extra loose and talkative so I started talking with him. He bought me more and more drinks and he kept bringing them to me himself. Eventually he asks if I want to go to his hotel room, I was so messed up I didn't know where I was. He pulled me off the barstool and basically carried me to his hotel room. He flops me on the bed and immediately starts taking my dress off. He pulls my strapless bra off and throws it against the wall and then peels the rest of my dress off and sees the bulge in my panties and slaps me hard on the cheek and said something about oh well ill fuck your ass. So then he pulls my panties off and flicks my limp clitty so hard it hurt, he started to eat my ass out and forced 3 of his big fingers in me, I was basically paralyzed at this point and couldn't move but I was awake. After he said he got me open enough he yanks me to the edge of the bed and puts his ugly hairy dick inside me and starts fucking me hard. I started crying and mumbling help help but I couldn't yell loud. It was awful. He finally came 30 min later and when he pulled out there was blood all over his dick. I passed out and when i woke up the door to the hotel room was wide open and there was blood all over the sheets. I closed the door quick, took a shower and put my dress back on crying the whole time.Later in the week I had std tests and thank god never caught anything
>>44676927hsts coded sex pest? :o
>>44676719>Bambi Oh no no no
>>44678273many such cases
>>44677146Based. I couldn't care less about why I want to be hairless and wear skirts.
>>44676719>>44676720i love logging onto my 4chan account to learn about the shocking lives of the npc majority
>>44676719Born 91He tried raising me to be a hard-core sicilian (American obviously lol) and catholic.>sent me to a catholic school were I got picked on and abused by the staff, parents and students 1st-6th.>he knew I was getting bullied but just kept me in there until I would "stand up for myself">didn't actually help just got me sent to the principles every day by 6th when it got reapply violent>got drunk one night and asked me if I like girls, then asked if I was gay and then accused me of being a pedophile stalker watching people from the bushes (I used to walk laps in the park because I was lonely)> I was 10 when that happened and proceeded to spend the next two years in my room>started getting physically violent with me when I grew out my hair>one night got drunk and ordered me to come over so he could show me why not to have long hair>grabbed a fistful of my hair and yanked me around> did the same thing another day in the yard and threw me down next to the lawn mower I was using >he only backed off when we got in a shoving match and I almost threw us down the stairs>forced me to join the football team>when i quit the next year he didn't let it go until I lost it on him at age 28>lost his job and drained all of our accounts and college funds to pay the bills instead of admitting he couldn't do it on his own (mid 00s lmao he could have sold for 400,000) >we end up getting thrown out when the bank eventually get it>swore me to secrecy about it all around age 10/11 because "your mom and sister will go crazy">drank himself into early what we think is early dementia >I had a trans cousin but the only thing he would say is "ann was an ugly man and now he's an uglier woman" growing upAnyways i trooned out at 31, wish I did it at 13/19/22 instead but I had to deal with the baggage he left me with firstIm a mom with a wife so it could be worse :/
>>44676927those two still talk. there was a third one who accused bambi of that but then got exposed for lying and framing bambi as a rapist to hide the fact she cucked her boyfriend
>>44681676it's probably a lot easier to be framed as a sex pest when you call yourself bambi
mtf always seemed like an abusive mom thing idk why
>>44677142you expected any different?
>>44676719My dad was (and probably still is) a deeply insecure man, one who tried really hard to impress all of the stereotypical "guy things" upon me. He was also a very outspoken bigot. If I, at any point during my childhood or teenage years, had told him that I wanted to be a girl, I'm quite certain he would've murdered me on the spot. I can still remember how enraged he was when he caught me wearing my sister's clothes, which happened when I must've been around 8-10 years old.It's partly because of him that I've become so repulsed by my masculinity, and part of why I'd like to fully transition instead of just engaging in the occasional crossdressing spell is to destroy any and all physical resemblance to him I may have.
>>44678071man i hate it when that happens
>>44676719my dad is actually really great
