>create excel file to quantify the positive and negatives of a life with and without hrt>after many revisions the positives of no hrt are higher than the positives of hrt by like 0.5>the negatives of both are pretty equal, the negatives of no hrt are only like 0.03 more than the negatives of hrt>during the day im happy im on it whenever im alone, see myself in the mirror and the androgynous guy im becoming, think about how my masculinization has slowed down, whenever im able to control my anger easier and whenever i think about how productive my new low libido has made me>during the day i want to get off whenever i jerk off and cant get into any fantasy that isnt horribly degrading to me because i cant self insert into any scenario in which someone im attracted to would want to have sex with me, whenever i see someone im attracted to irl and lament how they would never like me, whenever i realize if i ever tried to be a woman id be a hon, whenever i see the local queer dating pool and its either all hons, transbians, polyamorus people or unfunny ugly men with no worthwhile personality, whenever im around family and every so often at work or around certain friendshow do you even apply wise mind thinking to this? everything is so mixed and all over the place. i have a much easier time deciding everything else in my life but this is the hardest decision ive ever had to make in my life. still almost a year of thinking about getting/staying on hrt and i havent come to a definitive conclusion. what do i do?t. bi cis man on hrt
Seek help.
>>44726987get a job dude
>>44727006i tried. therapists are useless when it comes to this. they dont give you definitive answers and when they do they change up on them if you give the slightest rebuttal. they are there to "validate" you, not challenge you.>>44727017it's a work holiday today
>>44726987this image gives me ungodly amounts of cia vibes. if someone showed me to this irl i think i'd just kill them
>>44726987apolitical media jumbo shrimp
>>44727295i just thought it was funny dont take it so seriously
Take your HRT, retard.
>>44727382i'm not attacking you i'm just responding to the image because this is an anonymous imageboard and your actual post made me instinctually want to ignore it. as for your actual post i'm sorry please take care of yourself and for your own sake permanently abstain from this neurotic nonsense sweetie
>>44728601this is the third time someone has called me crazy, how is what im talking about crazy? also, should i quit hrt?
>>44728763no, you shouldn't. i didn't call you crazy. just engaging in deranged neurotic activities and ruining your health because of it
>>44729125how is this neurotic or ruining my health
>>44728763how often i get called crazy is how i singlehandedly quantify how based i've been acting that day. keep on going
bump i need amswers i am going nuts i need the strength and validation to stop hrt
>>44726987>create excel file >cant get into any fantasy that isnt horribly degradingYou are a man with a humiliation fetish and will never be a woman but that’s fine embrace being a wierd guy its easier than being a hon
>the positives of no hrt are higher than the positives of hrtyou did it very wrong
>>44726987>create excel fileChrist.. you're turbomalebrained. your thinking process should be "oh I want to be a foid, I should troon then" that's it. if you're not tall and have money for ffs you can make it work. dont look at transbians/polyhons, they are all low effort men doing dress up.
>>44731812i only mentioned that but about humiliation because ever wince i started hrt the idea of anyone ever genuinely wanting me and loving me has become inconceivable.>>44733405yeah, im a cis man on hrt. also excel is very useful.>if you're not talli am>have money for ffsi have money but that seems like a bit much. i probably could use it but its so vain.>dont look at transbians/polyhonsi suppose i should just close my eyes then, thats 95% of them around me
>>44733319they're right tho
