like I got so close, I was fading out and getting tunnel vision but I backed out. I tried like 3 times and every time I got close I pussied out. maybe I just need a different method but still how are you supposed to get over that super scared feeling and actually commit to it? there's gotta be some trick to it or something
>>44757223>maybe I just need a different methodwhat method u doing
>>44757234partial suspension hanging. I'm really broke rn so it's challenging to get my hands on the gear for other methods
>>44757223>how are you supposed to get over that super scared feeling and actually commit to it?actually wanting to give up and die would be enough to get you past that.
It's a flawed question because anyone who truly knew wouldn't be alive to answer. You're kinda on your own desu
>>44757223it’s either gonna be brainstem buckshot or fent megadose when i go
>>44757272I am certain I want to be dead, I've felt this way for years. the issue is just that I freak out when I get close to actually doing it. I'm just scared of the process, that's all. i just need to figure out how to get around my survival instinct
>>44757311Those who truly want to be dead know that they inevitably will be and make no hurry about it.
>>44757414idk about that, I really don't wanna wait 60 years for natural causes to get me. I want it now
>>44757223It's an injustice and a tragedy you feel this way.I hope you won't, but it's the same hope that hopes for a newer better world for all, if that makes sense.Seeing this makes me sad.Wishing you either a sudden turn around in life or a peaceful, painless end.
Don’t bother, you’ll just wake up the next day.
>>44757414me asfI hope it's violent though I don't feel like being old
>>4475744460 years is not a long time. You want to play with life and death but cannot conceive the scale on which it exists. Know your place.
>>44757537I don't need to conceive what I cannot experience. it is a long time and I have no desire to wait it out. I will be in the ground before new years
>>44757565What's the rush?When you accept death you realize you have nothing to gain and nothing to lose from it. You are taking trite matters of comfort and shame and happiness and you are elevating them to issues of life and death. No?
>>44757499Valhalla awaits us sister.
>>44757618the vikings in valhalla would probably rape me forever
>>44757607it's not that I'm elevating those "trite matters" to the level of life and death, it's more that life and death don't feel all that significant in the first place. my life isn't precious, and ending it doesn't seem like some grand finale, it doesn't feel like some insanely important thing. It feels the same as quitting a book or a TV show or something because you aren't enjoying it. my life just holds no real significance for me, that's how it feels at least
>>44757655become an unhinged hedonistic freak like me
>>44757655You don't exist to be significant or precious or to be entertained. Life is not a piece of cheap media.Those are poor reasons to live or to die.
>>44758079well they're good enough for me
>>44757476nuh uh it makes me sadder than you>>44759629boy am i glad i don't believe in eugenics though i'm wondering about reconsidering
just got carded for buying beer and winewonder if its due to my fatmaxxing acneeating my second supermarket cake today and my second pint of ice creamwent from like 63 kg 2 weeks ago to 68 kg today
>>44757296Overdosing on heroin sounds fun. Why fent?
