another fucking coal thread

internalized homophobia + overly strict gender roles that induce what you call "sex dysphoria"

too much tranny porn

Dunno and don't care.

I'm not a developmental psychoneurobiochemical researcher or some shit. Why would I reliably understand the full inner workings of my stupid tranny brain?

>>44776526
what does this even mean anon o think you have issues
who knows why I am trans? that's like asking why i exist. i simply exist and this is what I am like. was it because I'm intersex? cause I have a brain tumor that suppressed my t? because I was jealous of women? cause I couldn't cut it as a man? i think it would be foolish to take effects and pretend they are causal

>>44776530
trutrans because you can't help be be a fagot

>>44776532
not trutrans bcuz porn is terrorism for your brain

>>44776528
NGMI because you're also a faggot

>>44776526
Camille Paglia convinced me that men were aesthetically superior and also being a guy sounds hot

>>44776545
Either trutrans or faketrans I can't tell. Too angwy >:(

>>44776550
faketrans cuz trying too hard

>>44776553
65% not trutrans

>>44776551
im not trans, im saying the real reason ALL "trans women" castrate themselves is because of internalized homophobia and misandry, that trannies represent via the euphemism "dysphoria"

I am mentally insane and have no father

>>44776573
ginceltrans
That is definitely not at all the reason why transwomen transitioning. Maybe some, not all

>>44776574
Undeterminable

>>44776573
Elite trvtrans gigapassoid

>>44776526
I'm not trans, I'm a cis male who self psyoped himself into developing dysphoria because I'm mentally ill.

>>44776588
all!
100%
if being gay were accepted, nobody would EVER call themselves trans or castrate themselves ever again
srsly
it's 100% of the issue and the cause, you just are terrified to confront the WOMEN who keep gay men ENSLAVED

>>44776599
Petition to call this species a grepper.

>>44776572
>65% not trutrans
Where did the 35% come from

>>44776604
t. the most homophobic man here

>>44776606
Its the likelihood that your trutrans. Also I do not know who that person is

>>44776599
No there's plenty of males here who still "castrate themselves" and maintain that they are men.

being OPENLY PROUDLY GAY is NEVER an act of sexual repression

the sexual repression is castrating yourself and blaming the magical demonic force of "dysphoria" instead of the WOMEN who actually created homophobia and made you hate being a male who likes other males

>>44776625
they wouldn't castrate themselves in the first place if they weren't ashamed to be gay
their claimed gender is a red herring
the castration is the crux of the matter
it shows women they can treat men like criminals, and men will just take it

>>44776632
Why are women the ones making you hate being gay, and how would transitioning satisfy them? That makes no sense

They hate masculinity, not being gay

Ok now go away

>>44776526
my dad left when i was a baby, and raised a whole new family. i never really related to my older brother, or to the boys in boyscouts/school. i couldn't see myself as a boy after all this and kept thinking my life wouldve been better as a girl, because then i wouldn't be seen as weird for being shy or silly. i was 11 when i first thought that i think. i dissociated through half of my teens until i transitioned, because i still couldn't fit in. i think i just felt really inadequate since birth and im not actually trans

>>44776650
because women don't want sexual competition from gay men

>>44776659
Transitioning doesn't make you any less into men retard

>>44776652
Fairly realtrans, sorry

>>44776526
read yaoi once

>>44776671
it shows women you are submissive and won't fight with them for social dominance

>>44776526
ever since i was a small child i've felt i should have been born female. the thought of being female always felt profoundly right. eventually i learned i could make myself female and started immediately. unfortunately nobody told me that earlier. going through my first puberty wounded my soul for reasons i didn't yet understand. i was a walking corpse for several years until i finally realized. but as a kid other kids always accused me of being gay for reasons i didn't understand because i've never liked guys and never crossdressed (gross fetish ew). my mom told me several times that it was okay if i was gay. i wish someone told that transitioning was possible when i was 6

>>44776526
Rogd

a nagging feeling i shouldve been a girl since childhood. 15-18 puberty just broke me so i starved myself so i wouldnt grow and i got on hrt at 19

>>44776526
fun

>>44776701
your mom wasn't actually ok with you being gay and didn't actively encourage your homosexuality, that's why you believe you are a woman because that's the normative social path for people who want to date men

>>44776727
shut up
we're not faggots like you

>>44776739
>come to gay board to express pride at how you are "not a faggot"

>>44776677
faketrans,but a little more trutrans than u think

>>44776701
Truetrans

>>44776703
That's not a reason, that's a symptom

>>44776722
Trutrans possibly but lacking information

>>44776726
50/50

>>44776526
mentally ill and gaslit myself into thinking this would fix me

i'm trans for sex reasons. i'm an autogynephile.

>>44776588
>Undeterminable
every man in my life has been horrible so I became an internalized misandrist
I also have BPD
also every single aspect of being male disgusts me and makes me want to kill myself
getting gendered female pissed me off as a kid (I'm a cispoon so this happened often) but getting treated like a male also pissed me off

>>44776749
I struggle with the mental ill ones. You'd have to describe a little bit more. Undeterminable.

>>44776757
Probably not true trans sorry

>>44776762
Truetrans, unfortunately

I hated my dad and vowed to act the complete opposite and end the cycle of abuse.

>>44776779
>You'd have to describe a little bit more
no concept of my self at all to the point where i cant remember what i look like and i hate my body really bad so i thought it meant i was trans

>>44776745
what info? ill answer if its not too personal. i crossdressed and started stealing my moms makeup when i was a toddler if that adds context. i also felt really weird when there were “crossdressing” episodes on cartoons or trans stuff was brought up in movies at an early age.

>>44776779
>Truetrans, unfortunately
if I'm trutrans then trannies deserve the hate they get because I'm a mentally insane freak that needs to die

>>44776789
At least slightly on the trutrans side

>>44776790
Possibly less trutrans than you think

>>44776793
Humans are meant to evolve

>>44776526
my body betrayed me, i was meant to have a female body but i was unlucky and deformed. now im getting treatment but its too little too late, srs and ffs are reconstructive surgeries

>>44776526
>Why are you ACTUALLY trans
It might be controversial, but it came from the desire to be a woman

>>44776526
always struggled with performing masculinity, started growing my hair after i thought some manwha character looked cool, raped by gf whomst also envied my hair and thinness bc of ed, started to like being pretty and eventually decided to troon after next gf was woke and told me about it and how i liked how ppl would call me maam from behind

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>>44776745
i do see myself as a girl
my name is neutral since birth and unique
my mom wanted a girl
I wanna be a mom eventually

>>44776819
Realishtrans

>>44776871
But what caused the desire silly

>>44776886
Probably true trans

>>44776526
i'm trans because everyone is a misandrist. every time i've been treated "as a man" (via societal gender norms) i am expected to give, and bleed, and self sacrifice. I got fed up with it. when i am treated as a girl, people are nice to me. they give me things and compliment me. If i pass, girls are willing to listen to what i have to say instead of immediately deciding i'm wrong because i have a penis. I still say the exact same things. I'm still the exact same person. but everything is much easier now, because people give me the benefit of the doubt and they don't give that to men
also:
it's easier to get a job if you say you're female
it's harder to be fired if you say you are female
you will be more seriously considered for promotions if you say you are female
you are eligible for scholarships if you say you are female
you are eligible for relocation programs and sponsorship if you say you are female

>>44776727
are you esl? i said i've never liked guys. my mom was also very supportive of my transition and even helped pick my name so i have no doubt that if i was a gay moid she'd be my biggest supporter

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>>44776910
lucky bicth

>>44776898
Most likely true trans

>>44776909
Not true trans

born with a flat chest and off putting levels of autism about male hobbies = transitioning to male

>>44776599
im into women and repulsed by men even if you dont think im a woman i still wouldnt be gay

>>44776909
The incel talking points dispenser.
>>44776910
The tranny that claims ESL, instead of taking the L.

>>44776901
why only realishtrans?

>>44777104
>The incel talking points dispenser.
does it really matter at this point? i found a solution that works for me. being a man was miserable and nobody believed that all the things that made it miserable were true. now that i'm treated as a woman, everything is easer in the exact ways i said it was easier to be a woman. All i have to do is regurgitate all the feminist things that women say and pass relatively well, and people treat me way better than they ever did when they thought of me as a man. i am right, and i made the leap, and you still think it's not true. even though i'm on the other side of the fence and still saying it's better to be a girl
>>44776983
>Not true trans
yeah i agree. if anyone asks me and they don't know i'm trans, then i say "i'm an AFAB actually" and if they do know i'm trans and ask why i transitioned, i say "i always felt like a girl and always was friends with girls growing up. i just don't fit with the boys i guess"

everyone wants to be a hater just because i'm using transition to become a happier person, but i'm not doing in a woke enough way

>>44776526
i know i'd be happier as a girl that's all there is to it

>>44776526
Hard to say my theory is that big part was me being sexually receptive and submissive growing up in strictly heteronornative society with strict enforcement of gender roles (eastern europe baby) which would explain why my dysphoria and longing to be the opposite sex started kinda with puberty when sexuality and more complex sense of identity develops and that all building on the foundation of my mother being borderline abusive and my father pretty much absent also repressed desires to do girly stuff and appear feminine becoming subcounscious desires. But that doesnt explain why before that i hated my name having my hair cut short and my obsession with primarly girls cartoons envy of other girls etc.
So yeah its eighter because am metally fucked or this is just who i am.

My dad was a dumb prick . I don't want to be him.

>>44776526
From the very moment I first watched a porn at the age of eight, I identified with the woman on screen. Since this was not something that developed through years of accumulated viewing, porn addiction certainly cannot be blamed.

>>44776530
Regarding the argument that being transgender stems from internalized homophobia, I understand where people get confused, but I don't agree with that claim. I’ve been attracted to both men and women, but I only liked womenas a man, and menas a woman. You might ask, 'Why can't you just like men as a man, or women as a woman?' But for me, that's a total non-starter. Why? Because the dopamine just isn't there.

When I imagine myself being intimate with a manas a man, or with a womanas a woman, it leaves me completely cold and turned off; it completely shuts down any dopamine response. I’ve always been a progressive leftist with zero homophobia, and I fully support the gay community. However, dopamine operates in the realm of instinct, completely independent of our moral principles. It’s simply that being with a manas a man, or a womanas a woman, yields no dopamine for me.

When I presented as a man, I preferred women. But now that I am transitioning, I’ve become interested in men and lost interest in women. If I were going to date women, I wouldn't have transitioned in the first place, wouldn't I?

as I looked at girls I slowly realized their bodies and minds are objectively superior to guys' in every way. unfortunately my response to this was to do enbycoping sneedtranny shit for half a year before finally deciding to lock in and get on hrt. I luckily also learned about diy shortly after that, if I hadn't I'd have waited a year and a half to get on hrt and then been hondosed. and after all that I'm an ugly manmoder. fml

>>44776528
The only gold I've seen the last month was a guy talking about his harem of eunuchs and committing to the roleplay. Everything else has been coal.

>>44776526
my reasons:
>loved and preferred anal masturbation since i was 9
>weaker puberty
>wide hips
>babyface
>gay childhood
>ashamed of my androphilia
>feels wrong to be masculine
>envious that women are treated nicely by men
>feels like life is a divine prison sentence as a man
>could never be a gay man
>wish i could have gay sex without feeling shameful
>wish my body was more pleasing to men
>wish i could be friends with girls again (most of my friends were girls a kid)

>>44777265
Are you male attracted

>>44778550
Well I do like some other transwomen

>>44778483
>anal masturbation since i was 9
whaattt
You were sticking things in your butt, at 9?

>>44776526
because I have had acute gender dysphoria since childhood

>>44777073
u gonna go bald lmaaaoooo

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>>44778483

only last one was sane

>>44776526
Hated the way I looked in the mirror and always felt uncomfortable with any sort of male features. Didn't realize it wasn't normal to hate the yourself so much. Got buff, felt amazing but the whole time I was mourning I was less and less girly looking. Starting losing more and more of my hair, fell into a depression. Lost all my muscles. Close to suicide, I started looking at how I felt and why and ways to fix it. Turns out I'm trans.

>>44776526
dunno i just am

>>44776526
I have a CYP19A1 mutation (among others) that resulted in atypical hormone environments in utero, giving me proprioception errors in regard to my sex characteristics, and "trans" is the identitarian label applied to me as a result of medical treatment to correct these labels and better integrate into society.

>>44776526
being male = sad
being trans = happy

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Prolly cuz of shame in being a man/ someone that consumed porn as a kid.
Also when i was younger i liked being called feminine, one of the few times i prayed was to Artemes to turn me into a girl cuz being a huntress sounded badass.
Prolly also cuz of alienation due to autism.
I very explicitly have wanted to exist in spaces with women and more feminine people, and dont relate to gay men at all either cuz of internalized homophobia or cuz im actually a woman or whatever. I chickened out of interacting with more fem spaces and became more male socialized, so while i might have been trans when younger, idk what I am now.

Oh and also my favorite youtuber transitioned when i was a kid, i think that kicked it off actually.

I have the pills, i think i look cute asf, i could prolly start. Im just worried about being a woman, i think that would suck mega balls and butthole
Sorry that was a lot :p
Check out this fukin cat

>>4477961
Different person
I stuck this plastic tube toy up my butt when i was bored at like, 13?
So far that it went all the way up. Easy to take back out tho.
Felt amazing, i have never felt that good from anal penetration since, i prolly broke somethin.

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I wish I were trans!

>>44776526
baited pedophiles into killing themselves by posing as a 13 year old girl when i was a 10 year old boy. I kinda liked the persona i conjured because she was, like, a hero for doing that so i embraced that part of myself

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being a man brings me great discomfort, had a few failed attempts to come out and I was only successful when I gave up everything. There's a fear of looking back and if something in my life made me go back I'd not want to exist anymore. The only path I have now is forward.

>>44780284
I saw the tv glow, i
Im in the 8th grade
Sending grown men grainy photos
Of my ribcage

-claw machine, by sloppy jane and phoebe bridgers.
From the "i saw the tv glow" soundtrack

>>44776526
Hatred for my father
Contempt for men in general
Envy, distrust, and fear of women in general
Born with an androgynous appearance
I'm not trans tho. I don't want hormone therapy

I think it's just a neurological problem, to be honest.

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>>44782312
I'm an engineer
>>44780284
larp but jelly if true
>>44780231
men want to be men cuz of narcissism
every single woman wants to be girls

>>44776526
1 + 1 = 2
Man + woman = whole

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>>44776526
Because aging as a male terrifies the fuck out of me. I can't imagine going back to that chiseled, stone structure I used to have, my constant hate for myself. I started HRT at 18, I'm 20 now so about 1 year and 9 months roughly. I've never been happier in my life, I have an amazing gf who loves me with all her heart, I'm trying to improve and become better. It's all going to plan. I'm transitioning because this is who I really am, currently some androgynous bodybuilder boygirltwinkwolf thing that doesn't really facepass nor girlmode at all. I imagine that would be the next step. I also get full facial electrolysis done weekly to undo the curse of male puberty, but for that I gotta grow my facial hair out so they have shit to pluck, and it leaves my face rather inflamed for a few days anyways. So I would look like a retard in a dress probably. I dont fucking know man

>>44776526
I'm trans because god has a weird fuckin sense of humor idk what you wanna hear
>I'm trans because my mom was misandrist
You have zero qualification to judge someone else as being le trutrans

I got raped when I was a kid. I didn't think much of it then but thats probably the most traumatic thing that happened

>>44776526
I want to look like a woman to some degree. I've come around on wanting FFS. It feels serious, for a while I thought I could just live with it, but then I started hrt. now I'm hoping for ffs