in my mind becoming trans was a final oppurtunity to escape the disgusting rejectable thing that i am and "become myself" even though i have no idea who i am really, other than something irredeemable. i shouldnt feel disappointed that it obviously didnt work, and only made me more inferior.
>>44781634You are saying this to cope with your unwillingness to actually take control over your life and do something. You started a process, you have to put effort into it, there is no magic fix for life.